Eleanor's Evil Bug Breakfast Diary: April 2024

Tuesday, April 30, 2024

going on a date soon (April 30th 2024)

Dear Diary,

My close friend and I will be going on a date as soon as possible, I was so excited for this because she is the sweetest, kindest, prettiest, most wonderful girl in the universe and I am happy that I have been honored to know her. I was unsure about my feelings about her at first but after being away from her for so long I think it helped me realize truly just how much she means to me... she told me she liked me and I wasn't sure how I felt about her at first, but I do now. I realize now. I understand now. This is why I'm so excited for our date on the 29th. 29 days until our date. She calls me her sweet girl and her flower, I'm honored to be her sweet girl and her flower. She also made me a cute lil green bracelet and I loooove it! It's adorable and I'm going to wear it every chance I get. She's like an angel. A beautiful angel, I miss her so much. But I'm happy things worked out like they did because I don't think I ever would've realized how much I care about her until she had to leave. I wish she could come back now because I want to be able to tell her how much I truly feel for her. 29 days, it'll all be okay. I remember what she told me.

"Just existing is enough some days, flowers do it every day, they make it more beautiful just by being there <3" This keeps me going almost every day. I can't express how much she means to me and how much I care about her. I just want to see her again, she's so perfect, so wonderful, it's so heartbreaking that I can't see her and tell her how much she means to me right now.

It was interesting. When I came out as trans to her, she seemed to like me a whole lot more. I found it sweet. She loved me for my true self, and it really warmed my heart to see that. Even if the time we spent together was brief, and I’ve spent more time thinking about how much I miss her than actually spending time with her, she still means so much to me. I plan to tell her how I truly feel when we hang out on the 29th, I don’t know how things are going to go, especially because I still won’t be able to see her for a bit even after this. I just need her to know what I learned from being away from her for so long. Especially when we hugged, she told me she couldn’t stop thinking about it, and I can’t stop thinking about it myself. I wonder what things would be like now… if we weren’t forced to be apart like this. I told her about the other girl I had a crush on at the time, she encouraged me to talk to that girl. All I’m saying is, I probably would’ve talked to her if this hadn’t happened. But I know now who I truly have romantic feelings for. I still wanna be friends with the other girl though she seems lonely. Also I’m omitting their names for privacy reasons but I know that probably makes this hard to read erm yeah

I don't think she'd want me sharing the letter she wrote me. It's personal stuff. She did tell me to listen to a song though, she said it makes her miss me. That's really sweet so I had to listen to the song, Lover by Taylor Swift. I'm not a big Taylor Swift fan, not much of a hater either. Sure, I make some jokes but I really don't care either way. The Taylor Swift songs I've heard are really good actually. I don't know if it's because my friend really likes her and it's a subconscious thing or if I actually enjoy the music, one thing is for certain. This song makes me miss her too!!! I miss her always, even without the song, but her playlist she made for me as well as that silly lil song make me wish I was having silly lil conversations with her right now. "Hmm maybe…" she used to constantly tease me for saying that when I didn’t know what else to say. I’m kinda bad at talking to people and she’s really understanding but still likes to tease me about it. She’s silly I wish we could hug again I’m sad right now thinking about how much I miss her. I’m so glad she decided to come up to me and talk to me that day, I was a little confused at first and didn’t think us talking would go anywhere initially, but I am so happy it did because she is so sweet and kind and wonderful and beautiful and just perfect in every way. We can make it through this, I hate that we have to be away from each other like this, and I’m sure she hates it too… but I think it will only strengthen our feelings for each other. We will make it through this and learn how much we care for each other when we reunite. This is what it means to be important to someone, and she is important to me. She is so incredibly beautiful on the inside and outside and she is wonderful and important to me. I feel so strongly for her because she has shown me human kindness like no other person has, not in real life at least. She deserves the same, and I truthfully honestly care about her. Her smile can light up a room, her voice is so beautiful. She’s sweet, she’s pretty, she’s lovely. She knows how to make me smile… she understands me. She understands me when I thought no one truly could. She’s not mean to me about my odd quirks, she teases me a little for them but she’s not mean or anything. She’s very sweet actually. She’s wonderful and I’m so happy she’s in my life.

She’s expressed to me that she wants to be more than friends, and I was too scared. I didn’t feel the same at first. But now I realize that I in fact do. I do feel the same. I want to be more than friends. I was just scared because things were moving too fast, and now they’re moving too slow. I can’t wait to see her when this is all over.

I hope that this is just the uncomfortable and depressing beginning to something beautiful and wonderful between us. Whatever it takes, I will be there for her.

The day you had to leave was the hardest day of my life. I thought my life was over, that there was no reason for me to continue. I could barely sleep that night. I felt so sick mentally and physically, I just wanted to throw up. I didn’t know what would happen. I was terrified without you. Receiving that phone call from you cooled down my anxiety so much, but my heart still broke for you. My heart still breaks for you. I think you’re beautiful, and I know whatever hardships you are going through, I know that you will face them head on and conquer them. Because you are strong, you’ve encouraged me to become a better person, you’ve helped me become the person I’ve always wanted to be. You’ve helped me feel happy I guess you could say. I guess what I’m trying to say though is… I hope I can do the same for you, friend. Seeing you smile was the highlight of my days.

She’s just wonderful and she doesn’t realize it. I miss her so much and I want her to know how happy she makes me. How incredible she is. How beautiful and perfect and sweet and kind she is and how she’s been on my mind so much.

Overall this was a pretty good month, I got to talk to her a couple times and I even got to see her in person and hug her. Aside from that, I’ve been making a lot of progress in my personal projects that I’m pretty damn excited to share with you all. I also saw my favorite insect in person, the rosy maple moth. I named her Eclipse :3

8/10 month

Song of the Day: Taylor Swift - Lover 💖

I hope we can stop missing each other soon

24 days until graduation

Monday, April 29, 2024

Glutencord (April 29th 2024)

Dear Diary,

Oh, I'm not opening my new Discord server yet. Eleanor's Evil Bug Breakfast is nowhere near ready, aha. You see, I've got a lot going on in my life right now and the Discord server is my lowest priority right now. I'm just reminiscing or however you spell it I'm reminiscing on my old Discord server from back in the day. It was called Glutencord, y'know because glutenpee. Glutenpee is my Instagram repository for silly images from my camera roll. A lot of words to say I run a meme page on Instagram. It's kinda funny sometimes I guess. I don't know why I say it like that it just makes it sound less lame. I post things I find funny it's not always memes sometimes it's group chat screenshots.

Y'know 2020 was a bizarre year, We were expecting things to be normal. I don't think anyone was expecting a virus to keep us in our homes for so long and forever change the way we live our lives, in the United States of America, at least. Even when we heard about the Covid-19 pandemic, I don't think we were expecting it to be that big of a deal as it ended up being. I don't think anyone was prepared for what would come or how it would happen. 2020 was interesting, especially for me at least. I drifted apart from several friends of mine, including the one who I had a crush on earlier this year. Still scared to talk to her of course, but maybe one day. I've only got like 14 or so days of school left so not much time left to talk to her if I want to. That's beside the point anyways, 2020 was weird. I discovered I was trans in September, I was introduced to several bands I ended up becoming a huge fan of many of them. Ween, Will Wood & The Tapeworms, I started listening to Kanye... I know he's not a good person but I was a pretty big fan of his music and still am. I just don't like him as a person. Graduation was the first album I listened to in May of 2020, then Yeezus in September of 2020. I didn't listen to any other albums that year, not until 2021. That was when I would listen to what at the time was my favorite album of all time, Kanye West's debut, The College Dropout. It's far from my favorite nowadays, and just because I love his music doesn't mean that I support his actions as a person. He just has some really really damn good songs. HECKIE NAW THAT BOY IS RAW !!!!!!!!! School Spirit is a really good one, did you know that it's censored even on the explicit version of the album because Aretha Franklin would only let Kanye use the sample of her song "Spirit in the Dark" if Kanye's song didn't have profanity, and although it did, he edited it so that it wouldn't on the album. I'm not sure if the uncensored version can be found out there or if that's just lost media. Oh yeah ummm

Antrim

Armagh

Carlow

Cavan

Clare

Cork

Derry

Donegal

Down

Dublin

Fermanagh

Galway

Kerry

Kildare

Kilkenny

Laois

Leitrim

Limerick

Longford

Louth

Mayo

Meath

Monaghan

Offaly

Roscommon

Sligo

Tipperary

Tyrone

Waterford

Westmeath

Wexford

Wicklow

That's all 32 I believe...

Australia Capital Territory

New South Wales

Northern Territory

Queensland

South Australia

Tasmania

Victoria

Western Australia

The six states and eight territories of Australia!

C-C-C-ANADA NEXT?

Alberta

British Columbia

Manitoba

New Brunswick

Newfoundland and Labrador

Northwest Territories

Nova Scotia

Nunavut

Ontario

Prince Edward Island

Quebec (my favorite Ween album

Saskatchewan (RIDE THE CYCLONE REFERENCE)

Yukon

That's funny because like like umm uhhh ahahaha hahah umm uhhh umm ermm erm what the sigma well you see um you see erm oooh ummm ahahaha hahahahaha ahahahahahah hehe hehe hehe ummm hehehe hehehe eh youy see well umm erm erm ehahahahaa umm ermm umm oopsie oopsie umm erm emr ahahaha what ehthhe sigma you see umm yumm uauuuaaahahahahahaha fhwat tehf uck uaajajaa hahaha ahaha ahahaha ok soo you see it;s funny ebcause newfoundland and labrador theyre umm hahahaha theyre dogs lol erm hahahha ehehehheh why is it called newfoundland and labrador bruh those are d*mn dogs bruh wtf wtf i should learn cambodia philippines next russia algeria vanuatu denmark ireland aaustralia i know australia already ireland i dont have COMPLETELY memorized i just wanted to put all 32 in there because it would look weird without em i hope yall can understand imt rying to learn them all but USA Canada and Australia I have memorized Vatican City is just one so thats 4 out of 197 so far heheheheheheehehe maybe 5 soon I wanna try Vanuatu and Maldives because those are island countries type shit but I'm too lazy...

If youre wondering though how many divisions certain countries have umm I'm gonna use a randomizer and discuss a couple of these.

Antigua and Barbuda

We start with Antigua's six parishes. Every one of these is named after a saint

1. Saint George

2. Saint John (where the capital Saint John's is located)

3. Saint Mary

4. Saint Paul

5. Saint Peter

6. Saint Philip

Then of course Barbuda, which is a dependency, as well as Redonda.

This was pretty easy to remember considering the saint names. I think I have a good grasp of these and have them down by memory now. Five out of 197 for me!

The randomizer chose Guinea

1. Boké

2. Faranah

3. Kankan

4. Kindia

5. Labé

6. Momou

7. Nzérékoré

Then Conakry, which is separated from the rest. You'll notice that here. Many capital cities are a part of their own region. As you've noticed with Australia and of course, the United States. Guinea's are a bit difficult to remember but I'll try my best

Kiribati next

Only 3 actually

1. Gilbert Islands

2. Line Islands

3. Phoenix Islands

Kiribati actually means "Gilberts" so I assumed that the Kiribati Islands were all just the Gilbert Islands but I guess not. That's interesting. This isn't difficult at all. Gilbert Line Phoenix, Gilbert Line Phoenix, Gilbert Line Phoenix, Gilbert Line Phoenix

6 out of 197.

Czechia:

1. South Bohemia

2. South Moravia

3. Carlsbad

4. Vysočina

5. Hradec Králové

6. Liberec

7. Moravia-Silesia

8. Olomouc

9. Pardubice

10. Plzeň

11. Central Bohemia

12. Ústí nad Labem

13. Zlín

and of course, Prague is its own region. These are hard to remember but I could try. This is a fun lil thing I'm trying out. Trying to learn all the names of the countries' administrative divisions instead of my own country's states.

Let's try some more randomizer-selected countries.

Myanmar

7 divisions:

1. Ayeyarwady

2. Bago

3. Magway

4. Mandalay

5. Sagaing

6. Tanintharyi

7. Yangon

7 states:

1. Chin

2. Kachin

3. Kayah

4. Kayin

5. Mon

6. Rakhine

7. Shan

I could probably have these down in time, but I wanna get the easier ones out of the way first.

Barbados

1. Christ Church

2. Saint Andrew

3. Saint George

4. Saint James

5. Saint John

6. Saint Joseph

7. Saint Lucy

8. Saint Michael (where the capital is located)

9. Saint Peter

10. Saint Philip

11. Saint Thomas

Thank you Barbados for making my job easy! 7 out of 197. Hehe! As long as I don't get these mixed up with Antigua's.

Senegal:

1. Dakar

2. Diourbel

3. Fatick

4. Kaffrine

5. Kaolack

6. Kédougou

7. Kolda

8. Louga

9. Matam

10. Saint-Louis

11. Sédhiou

12. Tambacounda

13. Thiès

14. Ziguinchor

Oman:

5 regions:

1. Ad Dakhiliyah

2. Al Batinah

3. Al Wusta

4. Ash Sharqiyah

5. Az Zahirah

Easy enough if I put the acronym DBWSZ in my head. Ad Dakhiliyah, Al Batinah, Al Wusta, Al Sharqiyah, Az Zahirah

4 governorates:

6. Muscat

7. Musandam

8. Zufar

9. Al Buraymi

MMZB. Not too hard. 8 out of 197.

(I just looked it up and there's 11 regions now. Shiiiiiit this website I'm using is outdated. Oh well, if there's anything wrong with these I'll deal with the gaps in my knowledge. It's okay.)

Uruguay:

1. AR - Artigas

2. CA - Canelones

3. CL - Cerro Largo

4. CO - Colonia

5. DU - Durazno

6. FS - Flores

7. FD - Florida

8. LA - Lavalleja

9. MA - Maldonado

10. MO - Montevideo

11. PA - Paysandú

12. RN - Río Negro

13. RV - Rivera

14. RO - Rocha

15. SA - Salto

16. SJ - San José

17. SO - Soriano

18. TA - Tacuarembó

19. TT - Treinta y Tres

Peru:

1. TUM - Tumbes

2. PIU - Piura

3. LAM - Lambayeque

4. LAL - La Libertad

5. ANC - Ancash

6. LIM - Lima

7. CAL - Callao

8. ICA - Ica

9. ARE - Arequipa

10. MOQ - Moquegua

11. TAC - Tacna

12. CAJ - Cajamarca

13. HUC - Huánuco

14. PAS - Pasco

15. JUN - Junín

16. HUV - Huancavelica

17. AYA - Ayacucho

18. APU - Apurímac

19. CUS - Cusco

20. PUN - Puno

21. AMA - Amazonas

22. SAM - San Martín

23. UCA - Ucayali

24. MDD - Madre de Dios

25. LOR - Loreto

Dominican Republic:

1. Azua

2. Baoruco

3. Barahona

4. Dajabón

5. Duarte

6. El Seibo

7. Elías Piña

8. Espaillat

9. Hato Mayor

10. Hermanas Mirabal

11. Independencia

12. La Altagracia

13. La Romana

14. La Vega

15. María Trinidad Sánchez

16. Monseñor Nouel

17. Monte Cristi

18. Monte Plata

19. Pedernales

20. Peravia

21. Puerto Plata

22. Samaná

23. San Cristóbal

24. San José de Ocoa

25. San Juan

26. San Pedro de Macorís

27. Sánchez Ramírez

28. Santiago

29. Santiago Rodríguez

30. Santo Domingo

31. Valverde

Lebanon:

1. AK - عكار (Aakkâr)

2. BH - بعلبك - الهرمل (Baalbek-Hermel)

3. BA - المنوفية (Beyrouth)

4. BI - البقاع (Béqaa)

5. كسروان - جبيل (Keserwan-Jbeil)

6. JL - جبل لبنان (Mont-Liban)

7. NA - محافظة النبطية (Nabatîyé)

8. AS - الشمال (Liban-Nord)

9. JA - الجنوب (Liban-Sud)

Guyana:

10 regions:

1. BA - Barima-Waini

2. PM - Pomeroon-Supenaam

3. ES - Essequibo Islands-West Demerara

4. DE - Demerara-Mahaica

5. MA - Mahaica-Berbice

6. EB - East Berbice-Corentyne

7. CU - Cuyuni-Mazaruni

8. PT - Potaro-Siparuni

9. UT - Upper Takutu-Upper Essequibo

10. UD - Upper Demerara-Berbice

Bolivia:

1. El Beni

2. Chuquisaca

3. Cochabamba

4. La Paz

5. Oruro

6. Pando

7. Potosí

8. Santa Cruz

9. Tarija

Yeah I'm gonna have some trouble learning a lot of these, there's a LOT in some of these countries, and these are just what an outdated website is telling me...

Let's keep going though.

Germany:

13 länder:

1. Baden-Württemberg

2. Bayern

3. Brandenburg

4. Hessen

5. Mecklenburg-Vorpommern

6. Niedersachsen

7. Nordrhein-Westfalen

8. Rheinland-Pfalz

9. Saarland

10. Sachsen

11. Sachsen-Anhalt

12. Schleswig-Holstein

13. Thüringen

3 city states:

1. Berlin

2. Bremen

3. Hamburg

South Sudan (world's newest country):

10 states:

1. Central Equatoria

2. Eastern Equatoria

3. Jonglei

4. Lakes

5. Northern Bahr el Ghazal

6. Unity

7. Upper Nile

8. Warrap

9. Western Bahr el Ghazal

10. Western Equatoria

3 special administrative areas:

11. Abyei

12. Greater Pibor

13. Ruweng

UAE:

7 emirates:

1. Abu Dhabi

2. Ajman)

3. Dubai)

4. Fujairah

5. Ras al-Khaimah)

6. Sharjah

7. Umm al-Quwain

ez. 9/197 I guess.

Finland:

1. Uusimaa

2. Varsinais-Suomi

3. Satakunta

4. Kanta-Häme

5. Pirkanmaa

6. Päijät-Häme

7. Kymenlaakso

8. Etelä-Karjala

9. Etelä-Savo

10. Pohjois-Savo

11. Pohjois-Karjala

12. Keski-Suomi

13. Etelä-Pohjanmaa

14. Pohjanmaa

15. Keski-Pohjanmaa

16. Pohjois-Pohjanmaa

17. Kainuu

18. Lappi

19. Åland

Ethiopia:

1. Āfar

2. Āmara

3. Bīnshangul Gumuz [Benshangul-Gumaz]

4. Gambēla Hizboch [Gambela Peoples]

5. Hārerī Hizb [Harari People]

6. Oromīya [Oromia]

7. Sīdama [Sidama]

8. Sumalē [Somali]

9. Tigray [Tigrai]

10. YeDebub Bihēroch Bihēreseboch na Hizboch [Southern Nations, Nationalities and Peoples]

11. YeDebub M'irab Ītyop'iya Hizboch [Southwest Ethiopia Peoples]

2 administrations:

1. Ādīs Ābeba [Addis Ababa]

2. Dirē Dawa [Dire Dawa]

South Africa:

1. Western Cape

2. Northern Cape

3. Eastern Cape

4. KwaZulu-Natal

5. Free State

6. North West

7. Gauteng

8. Mpumalanga

9. Limpopo

OHHHH YOURE MAKING THIS SO EASY FOR ME. I DONT TRUST THAT THESE ARENT OUTDATED BUT I LOVE YOU.

1. AG - Aragatsotn (Արագածոտն)

2. AR - Ararat (Արարատ)

3. AV - Armavir (Արմավիր)

4. GR - Gegharkunik (Գեղարքունիք)

5. KT - Kotayk (Կոտայք)

6. LO - Lori (Լոռի)

7. SH - Shirak (Շիրակ)

8. SU - Syunik (Սյունիք)

9. TV - Tavush (Տավուշ)

10. VD - Vayots Dzor (Վայոց Ձոր)

1 city:

1. Yerevan

OH YEAH I OF COURSE SHOULD CITE MY SOURCE. I GET ALL OF THIS INFO FROM... uhh.. get this, Rate Your Music's administrative divisions wiki page. https://rateyourmusic.com/wiki/RYM:Administrative+divisions

I came across it a couple months ago and got curious so I started using it to learn everything, although it's probably not the best plan since it still calls Eswatini "Swaziland"

I should probably stop there. I learned at least six new countries though. That's good. I'm gonna try to learn all 197 countries. The 193 members of the United Nations, the observer states of Vatican City and Palestine, as well as Taiwan and Kosovo. Things are pretty complicated with Taiwan and Kosovo but for the sake of this I'm considering them countries because I always learned them as such. Say what you want but that's how it is for me. Then you have territories such as Guam, Puerto Rico, Hong Kong, etc. I could try to learn the ins and outs of them too if I so choose but I don't know if I will, I might just leave it at the 197.

of course:

50 states:

AL - Alabama

AK - Alaska

AZ - Arizona

AR - Arkansas

CA - California

CO - Colorado

CT - Connecticut

DE - Delaware

FL - Florida

GA - Georgia

HI - Hawaii

ID - Idaho

IL - Illinois

IN - Indiana

IA - Iowa

KS - Kansas

KY - Kentucky

LA - Louisiana

ME - Maine

MD - Maryland

MA - Massachusetts

MI - Michigan

MN - Minnesota

MS - Mississippi

MO - Missouri

MT - Montana

NE - Nebraska

NV - Nevada

NH - New Hampshire

NJ - New Jersey

NM - New Mexico

NY - New York

NC - North Carolina

ND - North Dakota

OH - Ohio

OK - Oklahoma

OR - Oregon

PA - Pennsylvania

RI - Rhode Island

SC - South Carolina

SD - South Dakota

TN - Tennessee

TX - Texas

UT - Utah

VT - Vermont

VA - Virginia

WA - Washington

WV - West Virginia

WI - Wisconsin

WY - Wyoming

1 district:

DC - District of Columbia

The United States has a lot, I imagine it would be hard for someone who isn't from here to learn them all. Unless of course your country had more than that such as Algeria with 54 and Latvia with like 100 something last I heard.

Song of the Day: RichardVox - Under the Stars ⭐

It's a cover of a lostwave song yknow how it is

25 days until ya girl graduates. Woah.

Sunday, April 28, 2024

Bluh (April 28th 2024)

Dear Diary,

I'm worn out after prom but I'm bound to a word goal so here

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sleepy sleepy?

Song of the Day: Weezer - Hash Pipe 💊

i luv weezer this song is so catchy

26 days until ya girl graduates! ^_^

Saturday, April 27, 2024

P-P-P-PROM! (April 27th 2024)

Dear Diary,

YA GIRL HAD AN AWESOME PROM! I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!! Some of those songs they played were absolute bangers. They played Lover by Taylor Swift which is the song my close friend told me to listen to, she said it makes her miss me. She's so damn sweet I swear to God. I think I kinda like her, y'know.... like like her. I'm gonna see her again next month by the way. I am so unbelievably excited. I'M GONNA SEE HER AGAIN I'M GONNA SEE MY FRIEND AGAIN I MISSED HER SO MUCH SHE'S THE BEST SHE'S THE BEST!!!!! I MISSED YOUUUU I'm so damn happy if ya can't tell. Bluh bluh bleh bleh silly silly Nora Nora silly girl silly time silly girl silly time silly silly silly. Oh yeah I'm bored here's a list of all the countries.

Afghanistan

Albania

Algeria

Andorra

Angola

Antigua and Barbuda

Argentina

Armenia

Australia

Austria

Azerbaijan

Bahamas

Bahrain

Bangladesh

Barbados

Belarus

Belgium

Belize

Benin

Bhutan

Bolivia

Bosnia and Herzegovina

Botswana

Brazil

Brunei

Bulgaria

Burkina Faso

Burundi

Cabo Verde

Cambodia

Cameroon

Canada

Central African Republic

Chad

Chile

China

Colombia

Comoros

Costa Rica

Côte D’Ivoire

Croatia

Cuba

Cyprus

Czechia

Democratic Republic of the Congo

Denmark

Djibouti

Dominica

Dominican Republic

Ecuador

Egypt

El Salvador

Equatorial Guinea

Eritrea

Estonia

Eswatini

Ethiopia

Fiji

Finland

France

Gabon

Gambia

Georgia

Germany

Ghana

Greece

Grenada

Guatemala

Guinea

Guinea-Bissau

Guyana

Haiti

Honduras

Hungary

Iceland

India

Indonesia

Iran

Iraq

Ireland

Israel

Italy

Jamaica

Japan

Jordan

Kazakhstan

Kenya

Kiribati

Kosovo

Kuwait

Kyrgyzstan

Laos

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Libya

Liechtenstein

Lithuania

Luxembourg

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Malawi

Malaysia

Maldives

Mali

Malta

Marshall Islands

Mauritania

Mauritius

Mexico

Micronesia

Moldova

Monaco

Mongolia

Montenegro

Morocco

Mozambique

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Niger

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St. Kitts and Nevis

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Samoa

San Marino

Sao Tome and Principe

Saudi Arabia

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Serbia

Seychelles

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Singapore

Slovakia

Slovenia

Solomon Islands

Somalia

South Africa

South Korea

South Sudan

Spain

Sri Lanka

Sudan

Suriname

Sweden

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AND HERES THE CAPITALS!

Abu Dhabi

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Accra

Addis Ababa

Algiers

Amman

Amsterdam

Andorra la Vella

Ankara

Antananarivo

Apia

Ashgabat

Asmara

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Asuncion

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Baku

Bamako

Bandar Seri Begawan

Bangkok

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Banjul

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Beijing

Beirut

Belgrade

Belmopan

Berlin

Bern

Bishkek

Bissau

Bogota

Brasilia

Bratislava

Brazzaville

Bridgetown

Brussels

Bucharest

Budapest

Buenos Aires

Cairo

Canberra

Caracas

Castries

Chisinau

Conakry

Copenhagen

Dakar

Damascus

Dhaka

Dili

Djibouti

Dodoma

Doha

Dublin

Dushanbe

Freetown

Funafuti

Gaborone

Georgetown

Gitega

Guatemala City

Hanoi

Harare

Havana

Helsinki

Honiara

Islamabad

Jakarta

Jerusalem

Juba

Kabul

Kampala

Kathmandu

Khartoum

Kigali

Kingston

Kingstown

Kinshasa

Kuala Lumpur

Kuwait City

Kyiv

La Paz

Libreville

Lilongwe

Lima

Lisbon

Ljubljana

Lomé

London

Luanda

Lusaka

Luxembourg

Madrid

Majuro

Malabo

Male

Managua

Manama

Manila

Maputo

Maseru

Mbabane

Mexico City

Minsk

Mogadishu

Monaco

Monrovia

Montevideo

Moroni

Moscow

Muscat

N'Djamena

Nairobi

Nassau

Naypyidaw

New Delhi

Ngerulmud

Niamey

Nicosia

Nouakchott

Nukualofa

Oslo

Ottawa

Ouagadougou

Palikir

Panama City

Paramaribo

Paris

Phnom Penh

Podgorica

Port Louis

Port Moresby

Port of Spain

Port Vila

Port-Au-Prince

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Prague

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Pretoria

Pristina

Pyongyang

Quito

Rabat

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Reykjavik

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Rome

Roseau

San Jose

San Marino

San Salvador

Sanaa

Santiago

Santo Domingo

Sarajevo

Seoul

Singapore

Skopje

Sofia

Sri Jayawardenapura Kotte

St. George's

St. John's

Stockholm

Suva

Sao Tome

Taipei

Tallinn

Tarawa

Tashkent

Tbilisi

Tegucigalpa

Tehran

Thimphu

Tirana

Tokyo

Tripoli

Tunis

Ulan Bator

Vaduz

Valletta

Vatican City

Victoria

Vienna

Vientiane

Vilnius

Warsaw

Washington

Wellington

Windhoek

Yamoussoukro

Yaounde

Yaren

Yerevan

Zagreb

It's funny how Gitega and Eswatini are so recent that the lil red squiggly lines are under them. The capital of Burundi used to be Bujumbura but it's Gitega now. Eswatini used to be Swaziland, and Many of the websites I used to learn all these countries still refer to Eswatini as Swaziland, which... makes sense I guess. Eswatini is an interesting country, I don't know what's so interesting about it to me it just is. Africa is a pretty cool continent actually. Learning all the African flags was probably the most fun I've ever had. Chad has the same flag as Romania, Cote D'Ivoire's is pretty similar to Ireland's.

Remember:

Ireland - Green White Orange

Cote D'Ivoire - Orange White Green

Some of my favorite African flags are Uganda, Kenya, Eswatini, Angola, Egypt, Malawi, Eswatini, Lesotho, Morocco, and Tunisia.

I also fw Algeria heavy. Their national animal is of course, the fennec fox. The fennec fox (vulpes zerda) happens to be my favorite animal. It's so cute it's got big ass ears give bro the big ears lmfao. It's so weird how I wanted to talk about prom but now I'm talking about countries. That's just the way I am I guess.

Back to prom though. I met some pretty cool people. That girl I was talking about earlier who also likes Lemon Demon is also an Oingo Boingo fan and we talked about Oingo Boingo and Danny Elfman quite a bit that was cool. I still need to listen to Good For Your Soul. Also they played Stay at the prom that song is a banger one of my favorite Boingo songs. Dead Man's Party is a really good album. Some other favorites of mine are Heard Somebody Cry, No One Lives Forever, Weird Science, Just Another Day, Same Man I Was Before, Dead Man's Party (title track) actually yeah pretty much just the whole album it's great.

OH AND FOOL'S PARADISE THAT'S ANOTHER BANGER HOW COULD I FORGETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

IT'S JUST A FOOL'S PARADISE!!!!!!!!

IT'S JUST A FOOL'S PARADISE!!!!!!!

Help Me is probably my least favorite song from Dead Man's Party. It's still a pretty good one but y'know I just like the rest more. I would rank the songs but it's a hard album to rank because the songs are all so damn good.

Song of the Day: Oingo Boingo - Stay 🧠

I LOOOOOVE THIS SONG IDK WHAT ELSE TO SAY IT'S SUCH A BANGER!!!!

27 days until ya girl graduates! ^^

Friday, April 26, 2024

hehehehe (April 26th 2024)

Dear Diary,

So my close friend who I've been missing very much sent me the sweetest most heartfelt letter ever. She's honestly one of the sweetest people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. I miss her very much and I can't wait to see her again. Honestly I think I may have a bit of a crush on her. I'm not 100% sure though. She's a wonderful nice girl, I was confused because of my feelings for the other girl, y'know? I was in a bit of a weird spot and I'm sure she was pretty understanding. I just feel bad that she had to deal with having conflicting feelings for someone and I'm not sure what to do. All I know is I can't wait to see her again. No matter how I feel about her, I know for sure that I think she's a wonderful sweet incredible beautiful girl who I am absolutely beyond honored to know. She's probably gonna read this some day I'm sure. Hiiiii friend!!!

She also calls me her flower which is seriously the sweetest damn thing ever <3

I'm going to another prom tomorrow, that's quite silly. It's not often you see a girl go to two different proms in two different states but heh, it's just like that. I talked about it earlier. My dad is a school teacher and his students who are around my age have really wanted to meet me. I've been talking to one of them through Instagram and we actually share similar interests such as Lemon Demon. Maybe I'll finally come out of my shell a little because as you know Nora Lycosa is famously bad at talking to people. It just makes me extremely nervous and I've been trying to talk to this one girl for three months now and I still haven't built up the courage to do it and I don't know if I will before graduation because it's only a month away but who knows maybe I will we'll just have to see what happens. These people seem nice though and I'm sure they won't mind me being a little awkward, y'know? But who knows... I kinda just wanna sleep in tomorrow but I don't see a problem with putting myself out there and living a little. I spend too much time inside living my boring life as an internet girl who isn't actually doing much just talking about what she's gonna do because she's too anxious to share her creative ambitions with the world but she knows she needs to do it someday I promise you all I'm going to!!!! You'll see!!! ^w^

Y'know ya girl is pretty damn tired. Yawwnnnn... never knew typing could be so damn tiring.... wow... yawwnnnn.... I don't know I'm just so sleepy.

i feel like a silly lil critter i love that word so much critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter critter It's just such a funny word I don't know why. Whoever invented the word critter deserves an award for it because it's such a good word. "early 19th century: variant of creature." That's so awesome. The word creature is another pretty damn good one. I'm a huge fan of both... I really am just a silly critter. A creature perhaps. THE creature. I'm weirdly obsessed with the word creature too. Creature and critter. They're such good words and I don't know why I love them so much. "Middle English (in the sense ‘something created’): via Old French from late Latin creatura, from the verb creare (see create)." Holy shit dude that's actually awesome I love that so much. Something created. I really am something created I'm just a creature GOD that's such a good word I can't stand it whoever invented that one deserves an award I love certain words so much and creature and critter have to be a couple of my favorites idk what the hell I'm talking about I'm tweaking off the gmail percs right now dude that thing is so funny that image of the gmail percs is hysterical and the phrase gmail percs itself is hysterical.

I miss my friend so much. She's so wonderful and I can't wait to see her again. Damnnnnnnnnnnn. DAMN. I would give anything to hear her voice again.... DAMNNNNNNNNNNN ugh I miss her I miss my friend

Have I mentioned my weird geography hyperfixation yet? It's been a thing for a while but it's come up pretty hard recently. It's weird but I'm pretty proud of the fact that I can name all 197 countries, their capitals, identify their flags, and point to them on a map. Maybe next I will work on subdivisions in certain countries, that might be difficult because some countries have A LOT. Vatican City being as small as it is thankfully has none so that's one out of 197 I don't have to worry about. I also already know all 50 states of my home country of the United States of America so that's two. I also know all of Australia's subdivisions so that's three.

With the United Kingdom it gets really weird. You could put England, Scotland, Wales, and Northern Ireland but then those constituent countries all have their own subdivisions.

Mexico has 31 states

Canada has 10 provinces and 3 territories

I'm pretty sure I know most of the Canadian provinces. Saskatchewan, Nunavut, British Columbia, Alberta, Nova Scotia, and Quebec are the only ones I can remember off the top of my head. Six out of ten that's pretty good I think. I don't know any of the Mexican states. DAMN!!!

Ireland has 32 counties I know that because my mom would always talk about that. Six of those are Northern Ireland which is a part of the UK but fuck you those are still Ireland. I don't care. Northern Ireland should belong to Ireland and not the UK and I don't know why Northern Ireland is a part of the UK. While we're at it give Scotland independence too lmao SCOTLAND FOREVER!!!!! I actually have Irish heritage which is why my mom was so obsessed with Ireland, and Filipino heritage but I believe I already mentioned that. Philippines has 81 provinces. I just know the three major island groups. Luzon, the Visayas, and Mindanao. I kinda wanna learn Tagalog because it's a pretty cool language. I've thought about moving to the Philippines as well but eh probably not.

Song of the Day: Cojum Dip - Waltz in E-major Op. 15 "Moon Waltz" ⭐

I'LL SEE YOU ON THE MOON!!!!

28 days until ya girl graduates!

Thursday, April 25, 2024

i wanna be a gay rabbit (April 25th 2024)

Dear Diary,

I can't wait to graduate. I feel like college is going to be a new and exciting experience for me. I want to be a gay rabbit. I don't know where I'm going with that I'm sorry that's stupid and silly I'm just being silly. Being a gay little rabbit would be fun though. I might have issues, I'm not funny. Maybe a little funny. Who knows. The gay rabbit headquarters are located in the Maldives. I don't know why I chose the Maldives I just think it would be a funny concept. Small island country that's sinking being the gay rabbit headquarters. I can't stop thinking about being a gay rabbit. What does gay rabbit even mean? What is a gay rabbit? Can rabbits be gay? Are rabbits gay? Does rabbit is gay? How can rabbits be gay if our eyes aren't gay? Jaden Smith. Will Smith. The Smith God slapped Chris Gock? What the fluff? Erm what the sigma? What the gay rabbit? What the rabbit? gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits gay rabbits

Wikipedia:

"Rabbits may appear to be crepuscular, but their natural inclination is toward nocturnal activity.[45] In 2011, the average sleep time of a rabbit in captivity was calculated at 8.4 hours per day.[46] As with other prey animals, rabbits often sleep with their eyes open, so that sudden movements will awaken the rabbit to respond to potential danger.[47]"

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"Bunny" redirects here. For other uses, see Bunny (disambiguation) and Rabbit (disambiguation).

Rabbit

Temporal range: Late Eocene – Holocene, 53–0 Ma

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A small brown rabbit sat on the dirt in a forest. Its ears are small and alert and the tip of its nose, part of its chest and one of its feet are white.

European rabbit (Oryctolagus cuniculus)

Scientific classificationEdit this classification

Domain: Eukaryota

Kingdom: Animalia

Phylum: Chordata

Class: Mammalia

Order: Lagomorpha

Family: Leporidae

Included genera

Pentalagus

Bunolagus

Nesolagus

Romerolagus

Brachylagus

Sylvilagus

Oryctolagus

Poelagus

Rabbits, also known as bunnies or bunny rabbits, are small mammals in the family Leporidae (which also includes the hares), which is in the order Lagomorpha (which also includes the pikas). Oryctolagus cuniculus is the European rabbit, including its descendants, the world's 305 breeds[1] of domestic rabbit. Sylvilagus includes 13 wild rabbit species, among them the seven types of cottontail. The European rabbit, which has been introduced on every continent except Antarctica, is familiar throughout the world as a wild prey animal, a domesticated form of livestock and a pet. With its widespread effect on ecologies and cultures, in many areas of the world, the rabbit is a part of daily life – as food, clothing, a companion, and a source of artistic inspiration.

Rabbits are a paraphyletic grouping, and do not constitute a clade, as hares are nested within the Leporidae clade and are not included in rabbits.

Although once considered rodents, lagomorphs diverged earlier and have a number of traits rodents lack, including two extra incisors.

WHAT THE FUCK IS A RABBIT?

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I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE ELEANOR LYCOSA YOU SHUT DOWN THE SLIME MACHINE THIS INSTANT IT HURTS SO MUCH IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE WHAT DO WE HAVE TO LIVE FOR BUCCULENTA IS BROKEN AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT GAY RABBITS... GAY RABBITS!!! THE GAY RABBIT IS REAL. BUNNY MOTH GIRLS STAY SILLY REPRESENT RISE UP BEFORE YOU FALL DOWN THEY WANT TO BREAK YOU DOWN UNTIL YOU CAN'T LIVE ANYMORE. THIS IS THE SURVIVALIST'S MANIFESTO. ROXY VEE HAZEL CHARLIE ANGELA. WELCOME TO BUCCULENTA. <3

Song of the Day: Hail Mary Mallon - Hang Ten 🌊

warmest regards, winters.

29 days until ya girl graduates! ^_^

Wednesday, April 24, 2024

Ugh. (April 24th 2024)

Dear Diary,

Well, that was a lot and I'm sorry. I just needed to get my thoughts out, and I have a tendency to be repetitive. The thing I wrote was pretty long, I don't know if I'll ever write a post that long again, I don't think I want to. I'm not all that sad as I seem, I'm just trying here, I love the internet and I love being silly and cute on the internet. I just have a lot planned for my own future, and I really want to share it with the world. I'm sorry, that's stupid isn't it? I'm just a silly gal. A silly gal on the internet. I want to be loved, platonically and romantically. I hope all of you think I'm cool. That's all. I just wanna be cool. Did you guys know that I'm 1/16th Filipino? This is random but I felt like bringing it up. I think it's an interesting little fact about me even though it's not that interesting. Oh yeah, one more thing. As much as I love writing, I struggle with writing for school oh wait actually no I said that already but I think I can write pretty well if given a topic I'm interested in, I'm sure this can be said for most people.

I promise I'm doing well mentally, yesterday's blog post was just kinda weird. My apologies aha...

I should probably end this soon before I go off the deep end again, I've just been having so many revelations and I am kinda weird and a little neurodivergent and I have some issues I'm just trying my best here. I confess I actually kinda skipped school today because it's just so damn hectic for me and I just can't wait to graduate. I graduate in a month by the way. But the point is I'm so damn tired of it all and I just wanna get out of here and I wish I could talk to that girl I wanna be friends with because she seems cool and I should say hi before I graduate because I may never see her again.

ok yeah thats all i wanted to say goodbye im keeping this one brief now. the "1000 words" I tried to come up with for my posts is stupid I think this is a perfectly good post with only 400 words ugh goodbye goodnight.

Song of the Day: Kate Bush - Army Dreamers ⚙

One of my favorite songs from one of my favorite Kate Bush albums.

1 month until ya girl graduates! ^_^

I might just end the media log thing here I listened to Never For Ever by Kate Bush but I'm not listening to music or watching movies and tv enough to warrant this right now sorry yall. bye .

Tuesday, April 23, 2024

Dear Diary (April 23rd 2024)

Dear Diary,

I guess this is my thing now. Opening every blog post with "Dear Diary." Because that's really what this is, a diary. A public online diary to share my thoughts. There are much better mediums for this, better websites and all, but I've preferred to use BlogSpot, as it's a nice lil website. I think my blog looks pretty cute and silly. Also if I miss a day, I can set the time for the day I was supposed to post the blog on. This is certainly a convenience because I admittedly have missed several days.

I admit it, okay? I've had trouble keeping up with this blog as of recent. I'm actually writing this on the 30th, as well as every post for the rest of the month. I'm doing my best to keep up with this blog, but it's really difficult. I'm going to end the meta stuff here and talk about this as if it were April 23rd and what's going on in the world of Eleanor Lycosa's silly lil brain. I'm going to the prom for the school my dad works at on the 27th. His students have been wanting to meet me for a while now. He talks a lot about me. I've been talking back and forth with one of them who happens to be a fan of Lemon Demon, that's awesome I think. I've still been too nervous to talk to my old friend who I thought I had a crush on. I say thought because I don't really think I feel that way towards her anymore, but regardless I'm still too scared to talk to her. She honestly seems awesome and I would really like to be friends with her because she seems cool. I wish I just wasn't so awkward, perhaps I'll talk to her one day.

I haven't been keeping up with the media log much. I'm not really watching too many movies or listening to too many albums these days. I've been playing that funny lil Chinese furry game Gunfire Reborn. I can't think of many video games that come from China that I've played other than Gunfire Reborn, it's honestly the only one I can think of. There might be more that I didn't know were from China, but Gunfire Reborn is the only one that comes to mind to me. Hehe! While on this topic, my Steam friend's list has gotten hugeeeee! ^_^ Thank you everyone for adding me as a friend, I hope we can play some games sometime. I'm not very good I'm just gonna warn ya now. I might have 200 friends on Steam before the end of the month. Speaking of milestones before the end of the month, My Instagram meme account which most people know me for, glutenpee, is rapidly approaching the 19k milestone.

I love writing. I enjoy writing so much, hehe. I can't help it, it's just such an enjoyable way to pass the time. I consider it a bit of an outlet for me, it always has been ever since I was a little kid. That's stupid, isn't it? I hope not. However, writing for school assignments is a different story. If it's a topic I have an interest in, I'll give you 2,000 words within a couple hours. If it's not... yeah don't expect much. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!!!! I know it's just one of the many problems I need to work on over the next eight months, and I'm going to! I'm going to be the girl I've always wanted to be my whole life. I just need some time, please... please give me some time, friends. I'll make you proud. My friends, family, readers, strangers. I want to make everyone proud. I know I can't please everyone and I don't care about pleasing everyone, but I want the people I manage to please to be proud of me. That's all I've ever wanted, and I feel like this is a sentiment shared by many like me. Maybe even the person reading? ;)

You see, many of my previous blog posts are disgustingly short. It's sickening how little effort I put into these previously. Now I'm still not putting much effort into these, just rambling a lil. But I'm at least trying to make these blog posts appealing by writing as much as I can put down. I'm done being demotivated. This is my passion, and I'm going to show people just how passionate I am. Even if it means sharing my ramblings that no one cares about. If you do care enough to read this, thank you. Genuinely, thank you for giving a damn. It's stupid but thank you for taking your time to read my silly lil writings. I hope you can enjoy my actual serious works, this is just a little thing I feel obligated to do. Y'know what I mean?

I honestly see it as my duty now to write down my thoughts, writing down as much as I can, even if it's just the most random meaningless garbage. I plan to do this every day for the forseeable future. This has been a bit of a drag for me. Like I said, I'm a week behind and I'm catching up here on the 30th. In May I plan to "lock in" as the kids say, and continue this whole writing thing. I'm not trying to be an open book, I just want a trace of myself to exist after my death. If someone out there cares enough to preserve this when that happens, I don't know. I'm sure if I manage to gain a large enough presence it will. That would be nice, I think. I just don't want to be forgotten. I say I mostly do this for myself but that's also kind of the reason I do this. I know I've got a long life to live, at least I think I do. I write like tomorrow won't arrive, because tomorrow might not arrive. Yes, that was a Hamilton reference. I'm done living a "can't let gang know i fw this" life. I FW HAMILTON! AND I'M TIRED OF PRETENDING LIKE I DON'T! THE SONGS ARE GOOD. I probably talked about this last blog post and I don't remember it. My memory is hazy when it comes to these, it'll probably be even more hazy now that I'm planning to write no less than a thousand words going forward, I say no less but it doesn't have to be that every time, really I can write how much I want. It's my blog and I WILL do what I please with it. That's just kinda my goal now. It's easy when all I'm doing is writing down my unfiltered thoughts at this point. Oh yeah, back to Hamilton. My favorite songs are Non Stop, The Schuyler Sisters, Guns and Ships, and Stay Alive. It also combines two things I enjoy very much, Hip Hop music as well as U.S. History. The founding fathers may have not been the best people, many of them owned slaves and were just in general not the best people. However, Alexander Hamilton was pretty damn interesting I'd say. But I digress. I'm kinda lame and boring right now, I don't go outside much. That shouldn't come as a surprise to anyone. Nerdy trans girl who keeps up a blog and instagram meme page doesn't go outside? I'm so shocked! I'm just silly. Silly, and excited for what the future holds. Very excited for what the future holds. I think I say some words too much, like silly. Silly silly silly silly silly! It's a silly word, it's cute and I like it. Cute might be another one I say just a lil too much. Cute and silly! Cute and silly!!!!!! CUTE AND SILLY!!!! CUTE. AND. SILLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love not being very professional when it comes to my writing. I'm having fun. This is who I am and I'm tired of pretending like this isn't who I am. I am who I am and I don't want to be anyone else. If you can't handle that, cry about it honestly. I'm still a nervous wreck in real life but I'm working on that. I'm trying so hard to be who I truly am in real life, I show my true colors online. In real life I just don't have the courage to show this side of me, I hope I can someday, and I hope I can get the courage to talk to people. This isn't even about the girl I thought I had a crush on, or maybe I still have a crush on. Damned if I know. Either way this isn't just about her. It's about the fact that I'm an anxious mess, a paranoid little freak, someone who just needs to get ahold of herself and say hi, because I have no reason to be scared. People aren't as scary as I think, I tell myself this and still... I'm still scared. I've got like less than 20 school days left so I don't have many opportunities left to make a lasting impression so I better do it now while there's still little time. I plan to change this in college. I plan to become the person I've always wanted to be in college. I'm tired of hiding myself from people, it's doing mental damage to me, and honestly? It's doing some physical damage to me as well. I'm severely depressed and yada yada yada you don't need to know all the details there. This is the internet, not a therapy session. So I should just stop there before I go too deep in that and you have a negative impression of me. I'm happy, somewhat. I'm not happy with the present, though. I'm happy with what the future may bring. I have hope. Excitement, anticipation, ambition, I'm ready to share my story with the world and I hope the world enjoys it. If not, then... I guess that's fine too. I know I can't please everybody but I hope I can at least please some people. I just want to make people happy. It's stupid and cliche, but that's really all I want. That's important to me more than anything else. The world is so full of hate and negativity, and it breaks my heart to see it. I hope I can make the world just a little bit brighter, and I'll do whatever it takes. I've failed numerous times with this but hey, I'm young and I'm not gonna know much about what works. That's why I keep trying. To learn from my failures, to learn what works. To learn what makes people happy. So that when I keep persevering and getting back up when I've fallen down so many times? Eventually, I'll get a smile out of them. That is my goal. That is what I want, and I will keep pushing and moving forward and fighting until I can get that, Until I can make the world a brighter place. I've just struggled so much to even get out of bed most days, but if I push myself here, which I'm going to if it kills me. I will end this conflict with myself that's been going on for so long. My bed is comfortable, but is it truly worth the wasted time that could've been put into working towards making the world brighter like I've always wanted. The answer to this, my friends, is not really. I wish I could've realized this sooner.

I gotta say, I do love my bed though. Just give me a few more days to prepare for this little change of mine. A few more days of sitting in bed and being a lazy dumb silly lil girl before I have to actually get my shit together. How about this? May. I graduate in May and it's the last month before I become an adult, so May will be the beginning of my change. I've always been known to do things in the last minute, another problem of mine I need to work on. Yep, this situation is no exception as you can see.

I will be happy. I will be the happy girl I've always wanted to be. I'm going to make others happy and I myself am going to be happy. This is my calling in life, and I am going to fight LIKE HELL To achieve it. Fight like hell or die trying. This is my plan. I am Eleanor Lithium Jonathan Hazel Lycosa. I've said this before, but this time? This time I really mean it. I'm anxious and scared to make a change in my life, but these things are never comfortable. The goal here is to step out of my comfort zone, because nothing has ever been achieved staying inside a comfort zone. A metaphorical one, and a literal one. The literal one of course being my bed. I still need a little more time though, before quitting cold turkey. Cold turkey is a silly term. Why is it called that? If the turkey is so cold, warm him up give him a blanket!!! :(

I find the person I make myself out to be in real life rather repulsive. This is not who I am. I'm an awkward nervous wreck in real life and I hate it. This is not who I want to be. This is not who I am, and my presence on the internet proves that, I think. It's weird. Online I'm not afraid to share my thoughts. I mean, look at me! This is fun for me. I'm having fun. I'm enjoying this. More than anything in the world, I'm enjoying writing my silly little ramblings. Okay, maybe it's a little pathetic that writing down my unfiltered thoughts is my idea of fun. Not spending a night out on the town with someone, but rather sitting alone typing on a laptop. Who the hell do I think I am? No wonder people are so put off by me... Maybe I'll be the ambitious happy thrill seeking person I've found myself to be online in person as well. It's just odd. Would it be an odd unexpected change for the people around me? The quiet kid is trying to become social! God, I don't know... I'm still being paranoid about this. I just need to shut the hell up and suck it up and get out there and become the Nora I've always wanted to be. Whatever it takes, going out of my comfort zone... that's what it takes. It's not going to be fun but dammit I gotta do what I must.

Y'know I'm actually writing this on the penultimate day before I plan to step out of my comfort zone and rise up from the ashes or whatever stupid metaphor you wanna use for it. I KNOWWWWWW I GOTTA STOP GETTING SO BEHIND IN THESE DAMN BLOG POSTS UGH IT'S FRUSTRATING I'M FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A DAILY THING AND I'M NOT KEEPING UP WITH IT DAILY. I'M STILL TRYING TO MAKE A BLOG POST FOR EVERY DAY BECAUSE I THINK IT LOOKS GROSS IF ANY DAYS ARE MISSING BUT I AM NOT DOING IT EVERY DAY AND I REALLY NEED TO COMMIT TO IT I PROMISE I'M GOING TO DO MY BEST IN MAY.

Please don't get mad at me, I'm trying to do my best here. I want to make people happy, I believe I've said that more times than I need to. I don't want you all to be upset with me because I've been lazy and haven't been able to keep up with these. Won't happen again. I'm pulling an all nighter here catching up on my lil blog posts :3 Promise. I dunno if I'll even have the energy tomorrow. Maybe I should go to bed and finish up tomorrow perhaps. That sounds good actually, maybe I'll see how much I can get in before midnight and then there I'll go to bed and continue tomorrow morning. I'm still referring to this as the 30th by the way even though this is the blog post for the 23rd. This has become a bit of a problem for me and although it really isn't that big of a deal in the scheme of things I feel like a liar.

But I'm not a liar. I try my best to be as honest with people as possible. Sometimes so much it's disgusting. I end up causing problems. I'm a little afraid of confrontation and it's caused problems for me. In those cases I will lie to keep myself out of confrontations. I'm brave enough to admit that. I'm not proud of it. I hate it so much. It hurts me so much to lie, but I'm scared. Scared of what people will think of me. Caring too much about what people think of me has probably caused every single problem in my life if I really think about it. God, I'm just repeating myself now, aren't I? I really should just finish up here with this blog post before it gets too long. I don't even wanna know how long it is now, I'm scared to look. But I wanna test myself. Testing myself to see how much I can write. This is my passion and I'm going to show just how committed I am to it. Maybe I'm being annoying and a pushover and repetitive and redundant and weird and offputting and the paranoid little freak I've always been so afraid of being but to be honest I couldn't give a shit because this is who I am and I only wish I could show this kind of passion and carefree attitude in real life but I cannot and I am probably coming off as a loser with so little self esteem and I honestly guess you could say that but that's kinda why I am doing this so I can motivate myself to make a change and if this is what it takes then I guess this is what I must do. It's stupid but whatever.

Oh yeah I just checked and I've gone past 5,000 words at this point haha let's go let's keep going I wanna see how much I can go just with my stupid little ramblings this is funny for me now I wanna see how far I can go with this maybe I'll get to 10,000 words in this post but probably not 50,000 like NaNoWriMo that was stupid and I can't believe I attempted it no disrespect to anyone who attempts it every year and looks forward to it every November but after trying it I learned it isn't for me and that's okay. Hey I'm talking about something different now. I'm pretty proud of the little plot I had. Or at least I was at first because when I looked back and read it I learned how stupid it actually was. Whatever, I'm going to write stuff I actually enjoy and I want my motivation to be passion and not just to fulfill a goal that's why I'm so bad at school I struggle doing things that aren't motivated by passion but when I enjoy doing something I'm going to do it and no one can stop me. At this point I wonder if I have some kind of mental issues beyond ADHD and Autism and severe Anxiety and Depression. I hate having those things I'm not bringing them up to be quirky like I'm actually pretty upset living with them and if it hasn't become clear by the 5,000 words I've written already I would do anything to get rid of these things that are eating away at me and I'm afraid will fucking kill me if I am not careful. I want to scream and call out to someone but I can't. I don't know who to call out to.

Maybe I should stop here. This is getting too much, I'll talk more later. This is stupid and I'm frustrated. I wanna consider not publishing this but why throw away everything I've written here? This is more than I've written for literally anything else. This is a sign of what's to come, although maybe not as self deprecating and repetitive. I just wanna show how much I enjoy writing. Whether I'm good at it or not, this is just a fun little thing for me.

Song of the Day: Lil Ugly Mane - Clapping Seal

She neo on my psych til I delia

31 days until ya girl graduates!

Monday, April 22, 2024

Bucculenta (April 22nd 2024)

Dear Diary,

Today is April 22nd 2024. I'm happier than ever. Today I will tell you the story of Buccuelnta.

My name is Eleanor Lithium Hazel Jonathan Lycosa. Lycosa is not my real last name. My real last name will not be revealed for a while. Safety measures, my apologies. I understand some of you have known me for quite a while. Maybe as Eleanor, maybe as glutenpee, maybe as ROWDYFLOWERGIRL. Perhaps my deadname? Who knows, either way, I'm sure you know me somehow. I'm pretty anxious, so I've written a lot of ramblings here about my life and my interests so that I can stall for time while I prepare for this.

I was born on the first of June 2006, 4 days before Serbia's modern day independence from Montenegro, and 5 days before 06/06/06. These are unrelated to anything I'm about to say, I just feel like yapping to be honest. I have a lot I'd like to say, and honestly this is just yapping, I'm not afraid to admit that I love to yap. I was born two months premature. I was supposed to be born in early August, the first maybe? Nah, I dunno. Being born premature was scary, I could've died. I'm lucky I didn't, and I'm very thankful I didn't. I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, there have been very many times where I have wanted it to all be over, as young as fourteen. Maybe even younger. I had thought about calling it quits so early on, and I'm thankful I didn't, and you should be thankful you're alive as well. We're all put on this Earth for a reason, and I suggest you find that reason and make your life worthwhile. If there is one thing you take away from all of this, it's this. Find your calling, and live your best life. It's cliché, but it is the most important advice that I can give right now at the age of seventeen.

What is my purpose with this? Well... I'm not sure. I guess I just want to talk for now. In about a month I will be graduating high school. My whole life I've seen 2024 as a year of hope, change, and new beginnings for me. I've sent emails to my future self twice in October of both 2020 and 2021, and I am anticipating reading them. I plan to continue sending emails to my future self, hehe. That's another thing I'd like to talk about. 2020, that was certainly a year, huh? I'm rambling aren't I. So... Bucculenta.

Bucculenta is a creative project I've had planned for several years now, going by many different names before I ultimately decided on Bucculenta. The name can be traced back to the scientific names of several organisms. In particular floronia bucculenta and hakea bucculenta, a species of arachnid and a species of red shrubs found in Western Australia. Speaking of Australia, The country plays a major role in the lore of Bucculenta. The inspiration I find from Australia is rooted (oops, poor choice of words, if you know you know) in many different things. However, one in particular I'll unpack right now has to do with my all time favorite musical artist. Talkshow Boy. The music of Adrian Trajstman inspires me as well as my creative work in so many ways I don't even know where to begin. I've never been one to compare the sound of one artist to other artists, unless it was for recommendation purposes, so I'll just say this. If you're into the lo-fi sound of early Car Seat Headrest, and the upbeat carefree fun silliness of Lemon Demon, then Talkshow Boy is for you. Much of his work was made as a teenager, when he was only a couple years older than me in his bedroom. He's a huge inspiration for me and I can't thank him enough for being one of the reasons I am the person I am today.

I've always believed that as humans, our strongest trait is creativity. It's nothing profound, but I feel like it doesn't get said enough. Creativity is what makes us who we are, and we really don't seem to embrace it enough, and I've always wondered why. I'm nothing special, and I'm not trying to act like I am. I'm just very happy about the direction I see my life headed in. I'm graduating High School next month, and I'm beginning the next and longest chapter of my life. Truth be told, I have no idea where I'm planning to take this whole Bucculenta thing. All I can say is that it's a creative project that I am very ambitious about, but I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it all. I have so much planned, but nothing is truly set in stone. So please give me a few months to work out all the kinks and I'll have something ready to show you all by let's say... December? I know, that is a very long time from now, but trust me, okay? Things have been difficult. I've been struggling a lot and nothing in life scares me more than failure. Despite this, I know that I will encounter some failures, without failure there is no satisfaction in success. I just hope that I can inspire people with my words the way I have been inspired by the words of so many others. That is my goal in this world.

I by no means consider myself a good visual or musical artist. I find that my talents lie in the written word, and even then I've been struggling with my confidence there. I think I could definitely have a satisfactory final product to share with the world way before December, maybe even by July. But to ensure that I myself am satisfied with my final product, I am giving myself the December deadline. I have never been one to keep my promises before, I have always seen myself as lazy, unmotivated and hard to work with. But I'm done letting those things define me. I realize now why the I've always been the way I am, this negative depressive person I've made myself out to be. That is because I let those things define me, I never gave myself room for growth. I'm done with that now, I'm going to become the ambitious individual I've always dreamed of being.

The problem is I've always been dreaming of being this person I envision myself as, instead of working towards becoming her.

So I'm going to finish this off with these final words, Most of you don't know who I am. Most of you do not care who I am. This is just me declaring that I have much planned for the future, and by the end of this year you will see what I mean. I hope you all are satisfied and that you enjoy what I have planned, but I can't guarantee that you will. I have always been told by my peers that I am a good writer, and I don't have any reason to believe they would lie to me when my family and friends are my biggest inspiration, as is most people's biggest inspiration I would say. Regardless, I'm very excited about my future and I can't wait to share it with you all, even though I am unable to right now.

I promise more details will be revealed soon, I'm just struggling with a lot of personal stuff right now, please understand.

But hey, while you're waiting I encourage you all to check out my friends' works. My friend Ivy's novella Beneath the Surface is on its fourth chapter, with more on the way, and my friend Maggie's novella, Amour Armageddon is completed, and also worth checking out. While I must admit I haven't been able to find time to read the latest chapter of Beneath the Surface, or to read all of Amour Armageddon. I still suggest you check both out because they were written by two very good friends of mine.

Song of the Day: Gorillaz - Plastic Beach 🌊

October 2019... damn.

32 days until ya girl graduates! ^_^

Sunday, April 21, 2024

Literal Chills. (April 21st 2024)

WHY DO YOU WRITE LIKE YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME?
WRITE DAY AND NIGHT LIKE YOU'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME?

I have so much planned for my future, and I honestly can't wait to share this all with you. Tomorrow's gonna be a good day, The future is now. To quote Hamilton, "There's a million things I haven't done, but just you wait!" Also shoutout to the person with the name "38th U.S. President Gerald Ford" who friended me on Steam, as well as the person with "Swim with the krill" in their bio. Lol. I barely feel fear anymore, but I have so much planned for tomorrow I just need to put the finishing touches on it all. I may even speak to an old friend if I feel up to it. I've been trying to build up the courage to speak to her again but these things aren't easy. It's been what? Four years? Let's see what happens...

THERE'S A MILLION THINGS I HAVEN'T DOOOOONEEEEE BUT JUST YOU WAIT! JUST YOU WAAAAAAAAAAAITTTT!!!!!!

Song of the Day: Lin Manuel Miranda - Alexander Hamilton ⏳

Who lives? Who dies? Who tells your story? I know that's a different song but there's honestly so many inspiring quotes from all of them sooooo yeah

33 days until ya girl graduates! Shaking so hard right nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Saturday, April 20, 2024

Mother 3 anniversary (April 20th 2024)

Mother 3 turns 18 today. I've wanted to play it for a while, and I can!!! It's just... there's a lot of personal reasons why I haven't been able to recently, and I'd rather not talk about it. I'm just gonna play Gunfire Reborn instead. Which I'm getting really good at!

Here's my ranking

1. Tao (bunny)

2. Nona (red panda)

3. Zi Xiao (owl)

4. Crown Prince (cat)

5. Li (fox)

6. Ao Bai (dog)

7. Qing Yan (bird)

8. Lei Luo (tiger)

9. Qian Sui (turtle)

10. Xing Zhe (monkey)

They're all awesome, I'm just better with some than others.

That's all I wanted to say. Byeeee!!! ^_^

Song of the Day: Self - Meg Ryan 🎵

Need someone's arm around my waist as I flip off the camera, or vice versa.

34 days until graduation!

Friday, April 19, 2024

Going to another prom (April 19th 2024)

I'm going to the prom at my dad's school since he has to work at the prom, lol. I'm excited, his students apparently have always wanted to meet me and they seem cool.

I've kinda got a new hyperfixation... Hamilton... I haven't seen it but the songs are really good. I'm excited for next week I've got a lot planned. I don't think I'm ready to launch the Discord server just yet, though. I'm sorry besties...

I made the server on April 8th, and I planned to launch it on the 22nd, but I don't see it happening.

sigh.

Song of the Day: Self - Ordinaire ❄

I SEE YOUR LIPS MOVING BUT YOU CAN'T SPEAK!!!

35 days until graduation!

Thursday, April 18, 2024

THAT'S THE WAY WE ALL GO! (April 18th 2024)

THAT'S THE WAY WE ALL GO

I finished Gunfire Reborn today, I tried out the owl dude for the first time and beat the game as him... twice in a row. He's goated. Even though he's an owl he's the goat

THAT'S THE WAY WE ALL GO

Cardiacs is back on Spotify and I'm obsessed again.

THAT'S THE WAY WE ALL GO

I have 20 days left of school, like 20 actual school days. Scary.

THAT'S THE WAY WE ALL GO

Song of the Day: Cardiacs - A Little Man and a House ☁

THAT'S THE WAY WE ALL GO

36 days until ya girl graduates!

MEDIA LOG - APRIL 18TH

188. Gunfire Reborn 🎮

189. Cardiacs - A Little Man and a House and the Whole World Window 💽

Wednesday, April 17, 2024

I Hate Being Scared (April 17th 2024)

I HATE BEING SCARED. I WANT TO BE HAPPY...

I WANT TO BE SEEN.... BUT I ALSO DONT

I DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!! AHHHHH I DONT UNDERSTAND :(

Song of the Day: Queen - Killer Queen ⭐

Freddie Mercury was so cool I wish he didn't die 15 years before I was born.

37 days.

MEDIA LOG - APRIL 17TH

187. Queen - Sheer Heart Attack 💽

Tuesday, April 16, 2024

38 days (April 16th 2024)

38 days until I graduate, it's now or never Eleanor.

I wish to see my truth, I wish to be who I truly am on the inside but it's so hard.

I'll get there, I'll get there before these days are up.

Song of the Day: Auli'i Cravalho - How Far I'll Go 🌊

Some of the songs in this movie are really good.

38 DAYS.

MEDIA LOG - APRIL 16TH

186. Moana (2016) 📽

Monday, April 15, 2024

School been killing me (April 15th 2024)

School’s been killing me but I’m having fun with my penultimate month here. Even though I’m not talking to people… ugh….

I have nothing much to report recently just cant stop feeling so blehhh ugh :(

Song of the Day: A Touch of Class - Around the World (La La La La) ⏳

I don’t think that’s the right amount of Las, but whatever…

39 days until graduation! :O

Sunday, April 14, 2024

Hmmm maybe (April 14th 2024)

I’m glad to be getting your daily messages aha… I guess this’ll have to do while I wait to see you in person again, friend.

I’m just so sleepy all the time…

I have big things planned for the rest of this month I suppose.

Song of the Day: The Prodigy - Mindfields 🧠

Eating red hot goldfish and listening to the prodigy I am going to die here

40 days until I graduate

MEDIA LOG - APRIL 14TH

185. The Prodigy - The Fat of the Land 💽

Eleanor's Evil Bug Breakfast Diary

Tuesday, April 30, 2024

going on a date soon (April 30th 2024)

Monday, April 29, 2024

Glutencord (April 29th 2024)

Sunday, April 28, 2024

Bluh (April 28th 2024)

Saturday, April 27, 2024

P-P-P-PROM! (April 27th 2024)

Friday, April 26, 2024

hehehehe (April 26th 2024)

Thursday, April 25, 2024

i wanna be a gay rabbit (April 25th 2024)

Wednesday, April 24, 2024

Ugh. (April 24th 2024)

Tuesday, April 23, 2024

Dear Diary (April 23rd 2024)

Monday, April 22, 2024

Bucculenta (April 22nd 2024)

Sunday, April 21, 2024

Literal Chills. (April 21st 2024)

Saturday, April 20, 2024

Mother 3 anniversary (April 20th 2024)

Friday, April 19, 2024

Going to another prom (April 19th 2024)

Thursday, April 18, 2024

THAT'S THE WAY WE ALL GO! (April 18th 2024)

Wednesday, April 17, 2024

I Hate Being Scared (April 17th 2024)

Tuesday, April 16, 2024

38 days (April 16th 2024)

Monday, April 15, 2024

School been killing me (April 15th 2024)

Sunday, April 14, 2024

Hmmm maybe (April 14th 2024)

CELTICS WON! (June 17th 2024)

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