It's Happening!

January 7th 2026

My future is still in my hands. I'm in control of my future. It's going to be scary, it's going to be tough. I'm registered for my classes and I have the note I need to apply, This is my last chance. This is where I show everyone who I am. 

Song of the Day: The Prodigy - Firestarter

The music video for this was banned from the BBC because it scared children. I love this song but yeah the video would've scared me as a kid for sure. 

I love digimon

 January 6th 2026

I've been thinking about Digimon again, I used to be super into it in 2nd grade and out of nowhere it's started calling to me again. My favorites are Gatomon/Tailmon, Lilymon, Cutemon, and Patamon. I should really rewatch the Digimon anime, it's still my favorite anime I've ever seen, but I haven't watched it since like 2019 I wanna say. Wizardmon was cool too. 

The Digimon anime was super influential on me as a kid, I think it likely inspired a lot of my storytelling.

GOODNIGHT >_<

Song of the Day: Cardiacs - In A City Lining

Tim Smith my goatttt

Media Log 2026 - January 6th:

01. Cardiacs - A Little Man and a House and the Whole World Window

1988 Album, Magnificent 

One of my all time favorites. The reason TMBG's Lincoln isn't my favorite album of 1988.

Rare Nora Sighting!

January 5th 2026

I took some cute selfies that I posted to my Instagram...

New pfp? I love this shirt!

🎵 put your hand inside the puppet heaadd 🎵

bunnibunnibunnibunnibunni.

I've been playing the original Final Fantasy 7 recently. I've always heard the gameplay isn't great, and I do struggle with the combat but I'm enjoying it so far. I kin Aerith lowkey.

Speaking of struggling, I think I've gotten my financial aid stuff figured out to the best of my ability at the moment, the outcome isn't ideal and I don't want to disclose too much but I think I'm going to be alright. I just have to really lock in next semester, which I plan to. 

My umamusume shadowverse card box finally came I'm gonna open them now and tell you which horseys I get

First Pack:

- Mejiro Palmer [Moonlit Devil]

- El Condor Pasa

- At The End of the Day (Evolved) [SL]

- Jungle Pocket [SL]

Second Pack:

- Aston Machan (YIPPEE!!!!)

- TT Ignition!

- K.S. Miracle (foil)

- Mejiro Ramonu

Third Pack:

- Wonder Acute

- Pious Flame, Heavens Scorcher

- Ryoka Tsurugi (premium)

- A MORE MARVELOUS WORLD

Fourth Pack:

- Biwa Hayahide

- Air Shakur

- A MORE MARVELOUS WORLD (premium)

- KS Miracle

Fifth Pack:

- Vivlos 

- Haru Urara [Sunny Passion]

- Neo Universe (Evolved)

- Verxina

Sixth Pack:

- Mejiro Ardan [Hopeful Petals Dancing in the Night]

- Super Creek [Piece of Mind]

- Hokko Tarumae 

- Tap Dance City

Seventh Pack:

- Sweep Tosho

- Sakura Bakushin O

- Verxina (premium)

- Nishino Flower

Last Pack:

- Daitaku Helios

- Yamanin Zephyr

- Duramente 

- Teio-Oo-Oo!!!

No Matikanefukukitaru, but I'm satisfied. I should learn how this game works so I can actually put these cards to some use. 

The Jungle Pocket goes for $29 which is pretty awesome. 

Speaking of I could probably resell some of my old Pokemon  cards if I could find them somewhere, if it comes down to it that is. If I had to sell them to like pay for college or something idgaf lol. Hopefully I'm getting my financial aid fixed though, no idea what's happening. >w<

I also have to get registered for classes before it's too late. 

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Put Your Hand Inside The Puppet Head

Homestar Funny Puppet Moments

im scared

 January 4th 2026

 

Still trying to get used to writing 2026 instead of 2025 at the start of these, it’s an adjustment period. I’m sure most of y’all can also relate. Teehee ^_^

 

I’m trying to get my google docs and everything organized for my projects. 2026 is the year I finish something and put it out into the world, Hopefully…

 

I’ve had these ideas since 2018 so doing this is making me nervous, but I’m taking this leap of faith, stepping out of my comfort zone. Maybe I’ll talk to that cool person from last semester’s film class soon, once I can get the courage.

 

Speaking of, I gotta get my college stuff sorted out. Still couldn’t get ahold of anybody last week -_- what a nightmare! ^_^ i might have to take a semester off how lovely. I’ll try to see if I can get a job or something like that… im sad :(

 

i don’t know how clear i can make it that this is important to me even though ive been struggling. I’ve been dealing with a lot but I want to prove myself, I want to prove myself to the world. I just want one last chance I’ll do better about taking my medicine I’ll push myself to ask for help when I need it and I’ll plan ahead for things that may be challenging instead of “crossing that bridge when i get to it” which is how I ended up in such a rough situation last semester. I’m smarter than I’ve been acting recently. Depression has just been kicking my ass. I’m registered for classes just in case I can get this situated but it’s not looking like I can get it fixed this semester.

 

Song of the Day: Mr. Bungle - None of them Knew They Were Robots

I get it now…

so long reality

January 3rd 2025

 

Been so sleepy today. Was gonna get back on my driving shit because I haven’t practiced driving in over two years and I really want to get my license but I was too sleepy. Glad I took a nap instead of driving today, because if I really needed a nap I shouldn’t be behind the wheel of a car. I do intend on getting my license this year, however. 

 

Speaking of driving, I’ve been loving Mario Kart lately. I finally unlocked all the alt costumes. Daisy and Peach are massive cuties I love them. Toadette too. >w<

 

As sleepy as I was today I think overall it was a positive day. Ya girl is happy. For now at least

 

Song of the Day: 12 Rods - Kaboom 

sooooo looong reaaalityyy >w<

Slept all day

January 2nd 2026

Slept all day, didn’t do much else. Still gonna try to work on my sleep schedule before anything else! ^w^

Song of the Day: Metallica - Master of Puppets

Happy birthday puppet master 

Yippee!!!

January 1st 2026

Happy New Year! I don’t feel like talking about the finale because it doesn’t really interest me. I hung out with my brothers today and we went to Top Golf which is something I wasn’t expecting to enjoy as much as I did.

nothing else to report today, just that I had fun and I feel happy. Good start to the year so far. ^_^

Song of the Day: Paul and Linda McCartney - Monkberry Moon Delight

John Lennon said this was the only good song on the album… lol 

It's almost over

December 31st 2025

2025 is almost over, honestly relieved. This was a 2/10 year, I’m not doing the whole every song of the day thing but whatever.

here’s every song of the month though, and then I’ll choose song of the year

January: Supertramp - Breakfast in America

February: The Beach Boys - Good Vibrations

March: David Bowie - Five Years

April: The Doors - Alabama Song

May: Supertramp - Child of Vision

June: Oingo Boingo - Whole Day Off

July: Lemon Demon - What Will Happen Will Happen

August: They Might Be Giants - Pet Name

September: Nirvana - Lithium

October: Sidney Gish - Impostor Syndrome

November: Falco - Rock Me Amadeus

December: Marina - Oh No!

Song of the Year is… BREAKFAST IN AMERICA BY SUPERTRAMP!

Song of the Day: Pixies - Here Comes Your Man

ugh. 

friends with you

December 30th 2025

So, Something just unfolded, and it’s kinda confusing.

Just bear with me here.

I decided to check out this acquaintance from school’s new animation on YouTube and I decided to leave a positive comment and I’m pretty sure that cool person from my film class who I wanted to befriend but was too shy and nervous to was in the comments section, hehe…

i decided to reply to their comment but I don’t really know where to go from there, I complimented their profile picture because interestingly enough them and I have very similar pfps on YouTube! ^_^

I have hope for this friendship that I’ve been trying to find the courage to start for over four months, I’m just kind of in an odd position because my nervousness in regards to other people and socializing them has made this more awkward than it needs to be. I was thinking about just reaching out with an Instagram DM along the lines of “hey we had a class together and i wanted to say hi for a while but im really nervous and shy around people and i couldnt get the courage to talk to you in person but you seem really cool and nice and i wanna get to know you more” Well obviously not those exact words but something like that I wanted to do that but I keep getting scared and backing out. I don’t want to come across and weird or creepy, it’s just me being honest and wanting to be friends with someone. I just simply do not understand why all of this messes with my head so much!!!!

regardless the youtube comments thing was a step in the right direction but seriously what are the odds??? Lmao… 

Song of the Day: Devo - Uncontrollable Urge

I will never understand how this band ended up being perceived as a one hit wonder all of a sudden because they’re objectively no

I liked that

December 29th 2025

watched dogma today, pretty good. Incredible cast and the whole idea of the film is relevant to this day more than ever. I have to say though, I probably would’ve liked it better when I was 16. Probably would’ve even been in my top 5. Still good though. I need to rewatch Clerks  

surely you jest

Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Soulja Boy - Kiss Me Thru the Phone

Not enough people talk about how eccentric Soulja Boy’s career has been ever since it started. A lot of it is him scamming people in bizarre elaborate ways but eccentric nonetheless

customcast

December 28th 2025

reinstalled customcast

made myself a new avatar for my carrd :3

 

I

i think shes pretty cute!!! ^_^

much love!!! <3

Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Marvelous Sunday - Marvelous Sunday Time

a marvelous sunday to end a special week!

Tags: umamusume

nervous

December 27th 2025

gonna try and overcome my nervousness today ive got this ive got this ive got this im stepping out of my comfort zone >.<

Song of the Day: That Handsome Devil - Savages

pretty sure i was listening to this when i realized i was trans back in 2020, not sure 

volume 2 was whatever

December 26th 2025

i dont rlly have much to say about it, i just didnt care for volume 2 of stranger things season 5.

the Human Cannonball needledrop was sick as hell tho

Song of the Day: Butthole Surfers - Human Cannonball

sigh 

Christmas 2025

 December 25th 2025

 

It's Christmas!!! ^w^ This was a pretty exciting one, I got a Switch 2! ^^ I was gonna wait for more interesting exclusives to come out, because the only one I was super interested in was Kirby Air Riders but it’s alright. I got Pokémon Legends Z-A for it, the Switch 2 version that is. Which is cool…

 

I got a Steam gift card, which I bought the Gunfire Reborn DLC with, as well as Blazblue Cross Tag Battle.

 

I got some gifts from friends as well!!

* Dispatch (Thank you, lilorangefella <3)

* Zero Escape The Nonary Games (Thank you, AlkyoneAoide ^w^)

* Touhou Mystia’s Izakaya (Thank you, Keiko >w<)

 

I also got my new favorite shirt ever the They Might Be Giants Homestar Runner crossover shirt, as you all know Homestar Runner and TMBG are two of my favorite things ever so hehehehehe

 

Other stuff I’m getting that isn’t here yet

- Umamusume Trading Cards

- Pinkerton CD

- Lincoln CD

- Kirby Air Riders

 

I also got comfy snoopy pajamas I’m wearing right now >:3

 

This was a good Christmas ^w^ 

Nora Meadow

 

Song of the Day: AJR - Thirsty

Christmas on a #ThirstyThirstyThursday? Surely You Jest!

Decemberweeve

December 24th 2025

It’s Decemberweeve, and also my beautiful girl Nermal's 6th birthday. Yes, my daughter is a cat, yes it’s painfully cringe to call your cat your child but she is incredibly important to me almost on the level that a child would be, notice how I said almost. 

 

So we celebrated Christmas early, on Christmas Eve night instead of Christmas morning, I got some cool shit actually but it would probably be more fitting to talk about it tomorow instead of tonight, ya know? ^w^

 

Happy birthday to my lovely young lady Nermal Frosty Eve Lastname. Happy holidays to all my lovely readers and otherwise, and goodnight.

 

Much Love!! <3

Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Santa's Beard

It’s basically just “I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus” from the dad’s perspective. Revolutionary really.

"Every morning that I wake, I want to sleep."

December 23rd 2025 

I honestly do not know what I am going to do, this is truly terrifying for me. I apologize for how much I’ve fucked up >_< I’m just sad about it now.

I desperately need a hug I’m unable to stop crying lately…

 

Much Love!! <3

Nora Meadow

 

Song of the Day: Antony Kos - Calamity Falls Quietly

Every morning that I wake, I want to sleep. 

i try to call you everyday

December 22nd 2025

It just hit me, I'm trying to call them every day and I'm rehearsing what to say! Lol... whatever. I'll have it figured out :P byebye loves <3

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Touch-Tone Telephone

Another repeat, oops. Felt appropriate though. It’s also been nearly three years so it’s fine.

I'm so eepy

December 21st 2025

 I’m just sad and idk what to do about uh. Recent events.

I just yaaaawnnnnn

I’m gonna call tomorrow and figure out what the hell my problem is!!!! Yippee!!!! 

just what an awful year its been. I’m ready for it to be over.

goodnight

Song of the Day: The Scary Jokes - No Leverage / No Pleasure

This album speaks to me like few other albums do. 

hehe kitty :3

December 20th 2025

I love my kitties so much ^w^ they're the sweetest little angel babies ever.

been getting hardcore into Cookie Run again, very fun game. I get it now. My team looks like this:

Cherry Blossom Cookie / Alchemist Cookie / Sugarfly Cookie / Cream Soda Cookie / Strawberry Crepe Cookie

I'm still pretty new

Song of the Day: Kate Bush - Somewhere in Between

20 years after her most popular album and she still got it.

Cardiacs Never Miss

December 19th 2025

I listened to the new cardiacs album, their first in 26 years. Uh yeah, it’s pretty good. It’s no A Little Man and a House and the Whole World Window, but I still think it’s good.

I still don’t know what’s going on with my school stuff but I’ll get it situated. No matter what happens I’m gonna be okie dokie! ^_^

 

Song of the Day: Cardiacs - Woodeneye

yo momma got a woodeneye with a fish tank

Never Back Down, Never Give Up!

December 18th 2025

I think I have a fighting chance! This wasn't an entirely ideal outcome, but as Thundercat once said, "It Is What It Is." It appears that I'm going to be on academic probation, which just means I really really have to get my GPA back up next semester. Deja vu, I know... I've had a rough start in college, but I promise I'm not stupid or incapable, just kinda spiraling trying to figure out what direction I want to take my life. 

Speaking of funny albums I enjoy, I listened to Sing to God for the first time since 2021. I remember being 15 and calling it the most wtf album I'd ever heard, it's up there for sure. Just interesting that I called it that because at this point I'd already heard a third of The Residents' studio discography, as well as Five Starcle Men's Gomba Reject Ward Japan. Either way, always a good song when I check the reviews of an album on RateYourMusic and the most recent one opens with "There is a society of bugs living among us."

Also I'm not doing the media log for the rest of the year because I lost track, I'll open it back up next year for sure though pinky promise.

I'm always looking for ways I can improve this journal, especially given the fact that it's a daily thing I'm doing. :P

That's gonna be all from me tonight, goodnight friends!

Much Love,

Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Christmas Will Be Soon

Just a week away!

Still holding onto hope

December 17th 2025

I'm not gonna stop holding onto hope, it's not looking like it's going to be an easy fix but fingers crossed.

I really need to change something in my life, maybe I need to make more friends irl because that was a big reason for my depression. I definitely have friends irl but I hardly had any in college and definitely none I had classes with. I still want to try to reach out to that cool person from my film class, I found them on Instagram so who knows!! I'm definitely gonna try to reach out here in a bit, but it's not gonna matter what's done is done. It's not even about that anymore I just wish I had some friends in my classes, maybe next semester if there is a next semester.

Whatever.

Song of the Day: Jack Stauber - John & Nancy

We got Stranger Things 5 volume 2 in a little over a week #nervous. 

It's not over!

December 16th 2025

I called the school today, I’m gonna have to reach out to the Spanish professor and explain to her that I was trying my best to attend, and as long as she changes my grade to having attended, even if it’s just an F, I’ll just be on academic probation again and I’ll have to retake the classes but I won’t lose my financial aid.

It sucks that I’ve been struggling this hard in college, and I promise I’m not stupid. I don’t know how I can prove I’m not a dumb asshole at this point. But at least it’s somewhat salvageable.  I’ve been resilient, more resilient than I should be. This is all my fault but I still want one last chance to fix everything. I don’t know how else to make this right but my future is on the line here and I don’t even want to consider the alternatives because this world is seldom kind to people with my ailments. Honest to God I’ll do anything in my power at this point because I’m tired of my own idiotic mistakes ruining everything. I want to fix this, I’m going to fix this. Next semester, if there is a next semester. I’m going to stay prepared, I’m going to stay ahead of everything instead of “worrying about things when they become problems.” I’m going to save my future 

Much Love,

Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Will Wood - Tomcat Disposables

makes me cry like a little bitch

 

December 15th 2025

dont wanna talk about it

Ya girl is fucked,

Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Logan Whitehurst - Whole Day Off

i miss him so much

christmas soon

December 14th 2025

I'm lowkey excited for christmas I’m working on my christmas list ^_^ uhh what else

yeah ive kinda been on a weird sleep schedule :/ oh well uh >.< 

idk what else to talk about right now im just praying my shit isnt fucked up

Much Love,

Nora Meadow!! <3

 

Song of the Day: The B-52’s - Love Shack

hell yes.

bye bye

December 13th 2025

Considering deleting Tumblr and Twitter, they're kinda bad for my mental health. I'm good at posting bangers on there and there are some funny people on there but they're both cesspool websites of making excuses for the most depraved evil bullshit ever, I might go back when my mental health is better but I think I'm gonna just log off both of those sites for a bit. Not sure yet

Song of the Day: "Weird Al" Yankovic - The Night Santa Went Crazy

Had to get into the Christmas spirit a bit. 

who give a fuck

December 12th 2025

time's person of the year is fucking AI. 

lol.

why do i even continue to try?

god dammit

Song of the Day: The Presidents of the United States of America - Some Postman

I HATE MAIL!!!!

I guess that's the end.

 December 11th 2025

Finished my last final, I really hope I don't lose my financial aid. 

Next semester I have a plan. Next semester is going to be better.

I also didn't get a chance to befriend that cool person from my film class.

I wish I wasn't so awkward when it came to talking to people

I might never get a chance now.

Dammit.

No reason to apologize now, but I'm sorry.

I think I found them on Instagram so maybe I'll get up the courage to say hi.

Ugh....

Song of the Day: The Incredible Moses Leroy - Fuzzy

This song makes me feel things I'm not entirely sure how to explain. 

More studying!! >w

December 10th 2025

More studying today, Don't have time to talk!! Hopefully this is good, I don't like microsoft word... UGH!!!! >_<

Song of the Day: KATSEYE - Gnarly

I don't even know who theya re I just like the song. 

ok

 December 9th 2025

studying day goodbye

Much Love,

Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Denzel Curry - ULT

yeah

Marvel Rivals

December 8th 2025

I’ve been playing Marvel Rivals quite a bit. Very fun game. Right now I main Squirrel Girl and Blade, but Peni is also super cute!! >.< 

Did y’all know Ultron in Marvel Rivals and George Bush in the JibJab videos have the same voice actor? Pretty interesting!

Also been studying for finals on and off here. I guess there’s nothing more I can do about the two online classes, but hey I tried. Let’s hope I still have a next semester to make up for it.

Much love,

Nora Meadow!! <3 

Song of the Day: The Residents - Constantinople

Also been hardcore hyperfixating on them just a lil bit.