Getting Better (not the song)

November 11th 2026

Been working harder on improving my life. I feel well rested today, I got a long hot shower, I’ve been trying hard to get out of my depression for a while now and it finally feels like I’m getting there. I’m happy.

Been doing a Beatles discography dive. I’ve only done like half of the albums today, I might pause it and come back to it either tomorrow or this weekend. Depends on how busy I end up being. 

Burnt my dinner today. Not even hungry now. Sigh. 

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: The Beatles - I Am the Walrus

I was listening to this one a lot in 2020 while questioning my gender. Thank you…Paul? 

16 days until Shinola Vol. 2 

JD VANCE MORE LIKE THEY/SHE VANCE BITCH

November 4th 2026

I have a lot to say.

First off. Crazy to think that Texas went blue, never seen that before in my life. I’m disappointed in Tennessee but I know it’s the gerrymandering doing it’s job there. Alabama electing a trans woman is a major surprise. Tennessee next please? 

I was 18 when Trump got elected for a second term in 2024. I was scared an unsure what was going to happen to me as a trans person who’s already spent several years hiding her identity, having to hide it for a few more. I know I’m still probably going to have to hide it here, but I have a glimmer of hope, a small glimmer of hope just for a little bit.

The fight is not over, the fight has barely even begun. We joke about all these things like yeah Arabic pronouns in the email signatures, making JD Vance go by she/they pronouns but we need actual change in this country. Change that won’t happen with Hakeem Jeffries as the speaker of the house. 

We need ICE abolished. Not defunded, ABOLISHED. There is no place for a gestapo in America. Too many innocent lives have been taken, too many families have been separated. Enough is enough. 

We need to stop funding Israel. Israel has been committing a genocide since 1948. I do not want to live in a country that’s complacent in such genocide anymore. Palestinians are dying, and American politicians, Democrat and Republican, are funding it. 

A lot of democrats threw trans people under the bus to get elected. We can’t let any of them continue to do so if we want change in this country. We need elected officials that protect queer rights, protect indigenous rights, protect the rights of people of color, protect the rights of the American people instead of the billionaire Epstein class. 

I do feel hopeful today for the first time in a while. It’s a small glimmer of hope, but I feel hope nonetheless. No going “back to brunch.” This shit isn’t over. We can’t sit on our asses and let them not do their jobs like we’ve been doing for the last 20 years. 

The future can be brighter if we work towards it. 

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - She’s An Angel [2]

Happy 40th anniversary to my favorite band’s debut album!

23 days until Shinola Vol. 2

Cancelling out the scorpion.

DONALD TRUMP’S PEANUT FARM WILL WITHER. TRANSGENDER FOR EVERYBODY.

I voted today, and by the time I post this the polls will close, but I’m very happy I voted today. I almost didn’t, but I realized just how important it is.

This is a big one. I do not consider myself aligned with the two party system, but I know that the Pedophile in Chief is scared. I’m scared too, but not for the same reasons as him.

Imagine if Texas turns blue, though. Imagine if “Talafreako” wins. We’ll be seeing a lot of pronouns in email signatures. Transgender will never end. God bless.

Maybe I could finally go by she/her irl and feel comfortable. Finally feel…alive?

Thing is, I don’t necessarily have a problem with he/him, I just feel like I’m living a life that’s not mine forcing myself to be cisgender.

If the dems win today everybody’s getting pronouns! Transgender for everybody transgender forever. 

I think this is lowkey important than the presidential election, and not many people realize that. Also, no electoral college. So our votes actually friggin matter!!!

The future could be a lot brighter for us soon. 

Unfortunately a lot of this country is like the scorpion in the fable of the scorpion and the frog. Willing to take themselves out if it means others will go down with them.

I remember how November 6th 2024 felt. And I don’t want that ever again. I don’t want that for my potential future children or grandchildren or whoever. 

We need a brighter future, a hopeful tomorrow. My state will probably stay red, but I’m happy to have made my voice heard. 

Song of the Day: Oingo Boingo - Home Again

idk about this one actually. I guess it’s fine

24 days until Shinola Vol. 2

TAKE ME BACK

November 1st 2026

Damn. It’s really November? 

I had a lot I wanted to say about the Resident Evil movie but I’m not really sure how to put it into words. Without spoiling anything, I liked it up until the ending. There.

I wanted to see Wildwood instead but there weren’t enough seats and my parents wanted to see it too.

Guess that’s a pretty good sign, huh?

I’ll try to go see it next weekend maybe. I dunno. 

I finally have an external disc drive for my laptop. I hate that laptops don’t come with disc drives anymore. That’s something that does piss me off, but I guess it kinda makes sense. It just makes me a little sad.

Song of the Day: Green Day - Basket Case

Been going through my CD collection, I love Green Day.

26 days until Shinola Vol. 2

car seat is a menace to the public

October 30th 2026

listened to all of car seat headrest’s numbered albums today so i’m gonna type in all lowercase because uhh idk the aesthetic i guess lol.

ok really though, all of those albums are interesting. i forgot how much i loved csh. 1 and 2 are decent, 3 is a masterpiece, and 4 is pretty good. 

as for their other albums? well, twin fantasy makes me cry a lot too. 

here’s a ranking

1. twin fantasy (face to face)
2. twin fantasy (mirror to mirror)
3. 3
4. teens of style
5. how to leave town
6. my back is killing me baby
7. teens of denial
8. nervous young man
9. monomania
10. living while starving
11. 4
12. the scholars
13. 1
14. 2
15. making a door less open
16. teen of denial (joe’s story)

idk how i feel about these. maybe i should switch teens of denial and style’s ranking? would that make me feel better? i have no idea. i do really like vincent and cosmic hero… maybe… i’ll think about it

i also listened to cojum dip self titled today and that’s an interesting one too. i think i like it better than the two main tally hall albums. 

also what do you mean both andrew hussie and joe hawley are credited on this? i didn’t know you could have a nightmare blunt rotation with only two people. damn. 

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: Cojum Dip - Jabberwocky

This is kinda Homestuck if you think about it. Andrew Hussie even did the art for this album. 

28 days until Shinola Vol. 2

uber nightmare

October 29th 2026

Been working on an essay for class. The uber situation was a nightmare today. 

I’m working on some new stuff for youtube. Keep a look out. I don’t know what I’m doing ever anymore actually aha… I’m happy though. I think. I don’t know, this whole ethics class makes me question a lot of things. Am I truly happy? I like to think so. John Lennon said happiness is a warm gun. I actually referenced that song in my paper lol. I went on about it a little too much actually, I probably should’ve cut down that part. It’s a good song though. I hope the professor doesn’t think that’s me trying to appeal to him because he’s old or something because that’s not what I’m doing. I just really like the beatles.

Song of the Day: Da Vinci’s Notebook - The Gates

More relevant now than it was when it was written lmao. Who woulda thought?

29 days until Shinola Vol. 2

boiled alligator prostate and fried tarantula throat

October 27th 2026

boiled alligator prostate and fried tarantula throat

I LOVE BEING ALIVE SO MUCH YALL I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I FEEL SO GREAT RIGHT NOW. 

i miss sylvester and steve cash though i just remembered them again. 

their videos are still really funny though. 

I love cats so much

Every day since I’ve turned 19 the military tests weapons on me. This is what happens when you turn 19. 

Song of the Day: Bloodhound Gang - Magna Cum Nada

Glad I got out of my phase of thinking I was too sophisticated for them. I love BHG. 

31 days until Shinola Vol. 2

College is awesome!

October 25th 2026

Watched “The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals” for class today. It was really funny and the songs were good. I don’t think I related to it as much as “Stupid Fucking Bird”, but it got more of a laugh out of me. I also weirdly enjoyed the romance plot? I dunno, it did kinda feel forced but it was sweet to watch. Maybe that’s the hopeless romantic in me talking.

I don’t really have a particular favorite song, I enjoyed most of them. 

I might have to check out more of Starkid’s musicals… although I kinda wanna watch this one again because it was so good :D

My friends really like Starkid so i wouldn't be surprised if they've been waiting for me to get into it too. Weird that I got assigned something like this though. College is cool like that. God I love college even though I’m struggling, it’s just so fascinating. Maybe I could be a college professor. All of my professors have been really cool and interesting people and I look up to them a lot. Even if I’m not doing very well in some of their classes. Maybe that’s my calling. Who knows

Song of the Day: The Guy Who Didn’t Like Musicals - Show Stoppin Number

This mightve been my favorite if I had to choose. Although Not Your Seed was pretty damn good too. Whoops!

33 days until Shinola Vol. 2

WE'LL CARRY ON!

October 23rd 2026

It was 20 years ago today.

My Chemical Romance’s “The Black Parade” is such an important album to me. I think I first listened to it in full when I was like 16 and it really started to hit when I was 17. I’m not the biggest MCR fan but I do enjoy their music a fair amount. The song Welcome to the Black Parade is one of my all time favorites. Although I did hate it when I was 13, but I liked the song Teenagers more. God what was wrong with 13 year old me.

Screw contrarians, this album is great.

Song of the Day: My Chemical Romance - Cancer

Still can’t listen to this one all the way through without bawling my eyes out.

35 days until Shinola Vol. 2

WHAT IS IT

October 22nd 2026

Forgot how much Neil Cicierega’s mashups hold up. That’s my damn goat! 

I have a lot I want to say here but I forget most of it. I have a lot in my head and I always forget to write it down I need to stop doing that ughhh… >_<

Sorry

Anyways… i’ll be off now

much love!!

nora meadow <3

Song of the Day: Neil Cicierega - What Is It

Epic + Low Rider is an amazing combo. I’ll always know Low Rider as the George Lopez song though.

36 days until Shinola Vol. 2

napoleon dynamite

October 21st 2026

Had a field trip today, but I couldn’t go for various reasons I don’t feel like getting into right now. 

Thinking about Napoleon Dynamite again, that was such a weird movie wasn’t it?

I don’t really have much to say honestly.

Goodnight.

Song of the Day: Neil Cicierega - Dear Dinosaur

I think this might be the first Neil Cicierega mashup I’ve chosen for song of the day

37 days

i still miss you though

October 20th 2026

been big into lemon demon recently

i dont have much else to say there yknow just a fork found in a kitchen

i didnt go to school today. I felt too icky about everything. im not sure what my problem is, i need to get my life together

im trying to finish the rest of this semester off stronger 

at this point im just sitting in a room for hours absorbing information about things im vaguely interested in but not sure what im doing

i dug up some old music i would make using some app on my phone. none of it was good but it made me think

what was my goal with this? i was making these to take my mind off of the awful things going on in my life at the time.

around quarantine i slowed down but i wanted to start doing more than messing around with fake instruments for 15 minutes and then posting it online.

it was the perfect time for it but i kinda lost all motivation for some reason. i’d moved onto other things like early creative writing projects that i also didn’t know what i was doing with them but i do know i was having fun

it felt like i had purpose, though

i guess im just trying to find that spark again

none of the stuff i made in the 2019-2021 period was good but i had a drive

my friends were nice

song of the day: the beach boys - let’s go away for a while

If you don’t “get” pet sounds yet, you will. Give it some time. 

38 days until shinola vol. 2. heh. 38. 

dread

October 19th 2026

I am getting older and that scares me.

At least I’ll always have Lemon Demon.

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Musical Chairs

I’ve always been confused by this song but I like it. 

39 days until Shinola Vol. 2

i think im okay

October 18th 2026

all clear. pretty sure it’s because i was running on the treadmill when my body isn’t used to that kind of exercise. i shoulda stretched first too

love you.

i love you

much love!!

nora meadow <3

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Say Hey Kid

DON’T IT FEEL GOOD TO DRIVE A BUS? PEOPLE NEED TO GET PICKED UP

40 days until Shinola Vol. 2

i'm pretty sure it's not cancer though

yknow its weird because i think exmilitary is a lot better than the money store but theyre both 10/10s so why compare the two and at that point shouldnt tms be a 9 and it’s like fuck u the website’s called rateyourmusic thats what im doing. yknow as much as we rightfully bag on rateyourmusic you really gotta respect how straightforward the name is. like when it comes to websites for rating and reviewing media and shit you have albumoftheyear. letterboxd. glitchwave. (rym’s website for video games) imdb to an extent but that ones the internet movie database which is also straight to the point and most people dont really use it for that purpose anyway rather to see who all’s in a movie (so like an internet movie database) you get the picture. then theres rateyourmusic. like yep. no confusion about what that one's for.

pain in my legs and i peed blood this morning. like yeah it’s bad but i’ve been exercising more recently maybe it’s related. i hope it’s not anything severe because i don’t wanna go to the hospital and have invasive shit done to me. i also don’t want to put my parents through a bunch of bullshit just for it to turn out i did something stupid that fucked up my body a bit and it’s all my fault and i should focus on my schoolwork. "i guess we're doin circles now" amirite

like im in college now and im still going through the “i dont understand how this will help me in my life” phase

i have a lot of stupid shit i wanna do i wanna get into radio i wanna make music in the style of lemon demon or talkshow boy singing about the internet and my friends and tell cute stories through music i want to tell stories through all sorts of mediums but im scared it’ll end poorly and i’m too 

i wanna do bedroom pop type music for sure but i also wanna dabble in some darker stuff to satisfy the side of me that’s really into like meaningful deep shit.

but something doesnt have to be serious or dark to be deep. i think most people can understand it so why do i still feel like a propellor hat wearing child when i say i find dinosaurchestra deep.

all art has meaning or purpose behind it. it might not always be pushing a political agenda but like even a bunch of random squiggles were created because “oh i was bored hehe”

“no reason” is an oxymoron because that in of itself is a reason

art is beautiful man idk im parroting shit people have said for thousands of years i just like to sit and think about all the things that mean something to me

also i won a thing today in a raffle today it was a cool shirt and hat not really my style but i like it. I think it’s the lucky cat thing I got in my room. The Chawowow brings luck. I may already be a winner

Pep-Pep Pepperoni Pizza!

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Smell Like a Cookie All Day

This one’s weird but enjoyable

41 days until Shinola Vol. 2

my legs hurt now

October 16th 2026

I am so damn good at Fortnite.

Walked on the treadmill some more today. I need to get more exercise that might be why I’m so hellish rn. Whatever, I think I can get my life together. 

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: Aesop Rock - 100 Feet Tall

That Snakefinger sample oh my gah I didn’t know Aes was tapped into dat Residents.

42 days until Shinola Vol. 1

absolute bullshit ugh

October 15th 2026

TISM is a weird band because everyone I’ve talked to from Australia knows them but I’ve only known like 3 or 4 people outside of Australia who know about them

Also Justice is doing the score for GTA 6 what the hell?!

I hate my computer

gn

Song of the Day: ZUN - Lunatic Eyes ~ Invisible Full Moon

Reisen Udongein Inaba was the original asshole rabbit trans woman. Fuck Jax. 

43 days until yeah

SHE GET HIIIIGH

October 14th 2026

Been really into The Doors recently. 

Also been getting into chess again too.

I think it helps my mind stay healthy. I dunno though -_- 

Also I have some thoughts regarding Deadlock’s approach to adding new heroes. While I appreciate every hero in the bunch getting added because they're all really cool I still think things would be way more interesting if they dropped a batch of six characters and were like "ok only four out of these six are getting in and the other two will never see the light of day good luck." There’s just no stakes to it especially at the rate they've been getting added

Much Love!! <3

Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: The Doors - Riders on the Storm

Oh my gawwwwwddddd I get it now so peak

44 days until Shinola Vol. 2

NONE SHALL PASS.

October 13th 2026

God, I’m so nervous about that essay. I hope I did well :P :3 ^_^ I have my next test soon too

Also I tried playing Deadlock again today and holy shit my ping was so ass. Actually fuckin horrendous, I’m gonna cry. I don’t know why that happened. This is why I don’t play video games much even though I love them. Always some bullshit

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: Aesop Rock - None Shall Pass [2]

Aesop Rock just says shit and it goes hard i think

45 days until Shinola Vol. 2

I survive

October 12th 2026

Today was odd. I’ve been prescribed a new medicine that’s like the stuff I took before, Trazodone. Hopefully it’ll help me out just as much. I feel hopeful. Also I had IHOP for breakfast I love them yayayaya

Gonna try to start getting more exercise too, maybe? I dunno yet. <3 teehee

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: COOL&CREATE - Help Me, Help me, ERINNNNNN!!

I don’t want bottom surgery but if Eirin Yagokoro was my surgeon I’d consider. 

deltarune tomorrow

that's the dog

10/11: seamus

bewh im tooo tired for it today yawwnnnn wht the hell

god. 

im sorry.

imtrying to write and shit but wtf 

song of the day: pink floyd - seamus

(that’s the dog)

2 days until classes start

I talk to the wind

October 10th 2026

It’s the 57th anniversary of King Crimson’s In the Court of the Crimson King. One of the first as well as one of the most important albums in prog rock.

My parents came back home. I’m so happy right nowwwww ^.^ goodnight

That’s all I wanted to say today :3 I have homework to do and it’s killing me :(

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: King Crimson - I Talk to the Wind

Just an incredible album all around. This is one of my personal favorites I think

Classes start in 2 days

MSI IS GONE!

October 9th 2026

MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE IS FINALLY OUT OF MY TOP 50 ON LAST.FM GOD BLESS!!!!

I should listen to more They Might Be Giants (I say as if they aren’t my top artist of all time by a longshot) 

I listened to a bunch of Elvis Costello albums today. He’s alright. My Aim Is True and This Year’s Model are still his best albums. 

My parents should be getting home tomorrow I miss them.

The cover for Elvis Costello’s “Imperial Bedroom” fucking sucks man

Also I listen to M.I.A.’s new album today. What a disaster. 

I hate that fucking losercore playlist shit especially even more knowing that the tv girl characters in the AI generated slop videos came from stolen marilevi fanart. 

whatever.

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow<3

Song of the Day: System of a Down - Cigaro

MY COCK IS MUCH BIGGER THAN YOURSS!!!!!!!

4 days until classes start

I get it now Fleetwood Mac is peak

October 8th 2026

Going thru the Fleetwood Mac discography now. Not the whole thing, just a few notable albums. None of y’all told me they were this good. I mean of course y’all have, it just took me 5 or 6 years to actually listen. 

I’m trying to listen to more new music lately because I haven’t been into it like I used to. I go through phases, ya know? I have so many discographies I need to complete though, aha. I should probably just go at my own pace but idk. 

I still need to listen to that new Weezer album… 

I’ll get to it when I get to it. 

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Fleetwood Mac - Sara

Oh My GODDDDDD they’re so goated. 

5 days until classes start.

turn on dat losercore playlist

October 7th 2026

Still working on my next YouTube video. I don’t know when I’m gonna finish it or anything, though. :( I always get sidetracked. 

I found out about this app called Reprised, and it’s like Letterboxd for music. Not in a “Don’t you mean RateYourMusic” way. I mean it’s look very much imitates Letterboxd. Their Instagram account is kinda interesting, though. 

I also kinda wanna start using Tumblr more. Even though I can’t stand most of the userbase there’s some cool things on there. 

Meow

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Hustle Bones

HUSTLE BONES COMIN OUT MY MOUTTHHHHHH

God I love that song so much. 

6 days until classes start. 

HAIL BOOGNISH

October 6th 2026

HAPPY TUESDAY.

SHINOLA VOL. 2 WAS ANNOUNCED

HOLY

FUCKING

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT’S COMING OUT FOR RSD BLACK FRIDAY NOVEMBER 27TH

THE BOOGNISH HAS BLESSED US 

The tracklist is interesting too. 

A1. Kim Smoltz

A2. Young Choulin

A3. Britney

A4. She Caught My Fancy

A5. Essex Plaza

A6. Kite Flying Man

B1. Makin’ Love in the Gravy

B2. Planet Fantasy (Horsefly)

B3. Ooh Vah Lah

B4. Hello Johnny

C1. I Wuz Nothing

C2. Opus Fugue Trilogy

C3. The Argus, Pt. 2

C4. Pink Surprise

C5. For So Long

D1. Skycruiser

D2. Put Your Boobs On

D3. The Chancy Boys

D4. Shalom Absalom

D5. You Can Go Shit In Your Hat (Matt)

D6. Weed Whore

D7. The Belvodine

I’m very excited for some of these, mainly I Wuz Nothing and THE ARGUS PART 2?! I know it’s just an older song that Ween made titled Argus that was mislabeled as The Argus Pt. 2 sometimes, but I’m still excited. 

Anyways, that’s all from me.

Song of the Day: Owl City - Fireflies

sorry it’s not ween this time. I had a hard time deciding which Ween song to pick so I was like eh none of em :( 

7 days until classes start.

just creaturing around

October 5th 2026

I am the creature. I am always the creature!!!!!!

I love my mom so much I’m worried abt her though bbluh\

I think she has her surgery today or tomorrow

Hoping for the best for her.

I’m scared…

Anyways, me and ***** are talking again. Not like that. We’ve kinda got a truce now even though I never really recovered from everything and I still feel weird about it. I do believe her when she said that she’s matured though and I hope she’s doing well. 

I feel so cute because I’m the creature rn

just creaturing around

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: sElf - Sassy Britches

ok i take it back this album is really damn good. especially this song. 

Classes start in 8 days!

bang bang, shoot shoot

October 4th 2026

I’ve been listening to a lot of The Beatles today, man I love their music. I know that’s not a shocker to anyone but yeah. Younger people in 2020-2022 went on a big hate campaign against The Beatles for some reason. I still don’t know what that’s about. 

I don’t like being home alone like this all day, but I can take good care of myself. I just get sad, that’s all. yawn

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Happiness is a Warm Gun

I ended up liking the white album way more than I’d remembered. 

9 days until classes start

Oh My God, It's Bad Apple!

October 3rd 2026

I got a silly little pony from my friend Twiggy. 

Her name is Bad Apple, and you can see her over on my ToyHouse

BAD APPLE 👀 on Toyhouse 

Do you guys know that “Oh My God” song? The one by Masta Artisan, also known as the Rap Critic? That song is terrible but I have some history with it. When I was 16 I went through a phase where I would listen to it on repeat while playing World of Warcraft because I thought it was so funny despite how bad it is. I did end up listening to the whole album, and he’s actually a singer when he’s not doing shit like he’s doing on Oh My God. 

It’s still a 3/10 album though. Shit sucks. 

Anyways, that’s all I have to say about that.

Song of the Day: Masta Artisan - Oh My God

Oh my God indeed. 

10 days until classes start. 

I like the beatles

October 2nd 2026

Day 1 of this weird fall break I'm going through

Not much to say, I just listened to The Beatles all day because I like The Beatles

I like The Beatles

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Ticket to Ride

My mom loved playing this one on road trips when I was little, I have so many warm memories attached to it. :)

11 days until classes start.

Screwy

October 1st 2026

I wish I wasn’t so erratic all the time, I wish everything didn’t feel so fast moving and I wish my brain didn’t make me feel this way.

Depression, ADHD, OCD, and Anxiety is a horrible combo.

I’m working on dealing with it, though. ^^

So, now what?

I’m on Fall Break now, and this is the weirdest Fall Break of my life.

I won’t go into detail, I just feel like I need to take some responsibility in many different aspects of my life.

I’ve been an adult for over 2 years now, but I still don’t feel like it. Maybe this is my ultimate test, though. 

Once I come back I’ll try to salvage my academic performance because I’ve been falling behind like I always do, because my brain just gets so screwy!!! I don’t even know how else to describe what’s going on with me. Just screwy. 

Much Love!!

Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Ana Ng

Can’t believe I haven’t done this one yet.

12 days until classes start.