Wednesday, October 15, 2025

Long Distance Relationships

October 15th 2025

I don't think I talked about it much, but I was in a long distance relationship for 6 months, from April to October. I say was because as of today we've decided to break things off. I knew going in that it was going to be tough for me because of the distance, but I wasn't sure just how difficult it truly would've been. I'm glad we came to the agreement though and we can still remain friends. I've tried long distance relationships before in the past, and historically they haven't worked out all too well for me, so I'm not sure why I thought it would be different this time. I guess I was just thinking it was worth a shot, y'know? In the words of Lee Harvey Oswald, you miss 100% of the shots you don't take. I don't think he said that actually, it was John Wilkes Booth. I dunno, I just felt like it wasn't right for either of us, and we were trying too hard to make it work to no avail, on top of that I was always busy with school or something else.

I don't think I was really over my previous IRL relationship either, it's been almost a year and it still leaves a pit in my stomach. That was my first and to this day only irl relationship, and it was a disaster. I think about the letters she sent me, and how she treated me at first, it was so confusing. I think deep down she truly did care about me but was too immature to actually show it.

I still have the letters, I can't bring myself to get rid of them. I know it was all a ruse but I just felt so...right with her... I miss the person I thought she was, to put it simply. It seemed like that person cared about me, cared about me beyond just viewing me as a sex object, a nervous lost confused sex object. She seemed genuinely interested in me at first but that all just...changed. I'm not sure what happened. At some point it just kind of felt like she only kept me around out of pity. It's bizarre, really.

I am in my third semester attending this community college and I am only JUST NOW finding out they have a journalism/writing website. That seems perfect for someone like me... I don't know how to feel, uuuughh.... I love writing so much but I'm not sure what I would even write about. Also my academic reputation isn't the best because I've been struggling to keep my grades acceptable. I promise I'm smart, and I want to prove myself to everyone, it's just hard. It's hard trying to find myself while also balancing these assignments that don't really feel like they're helping me "find myself" I guess it's just a tedious and arduous journey, and I have to have determination and grit to get through this. 

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Eleanor Rigby
Probably my favorite Beatles song and that's not just because my name is Eleanor.

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

yeahhh

October 14th 2025

Finally, less than 100 until I'm done... GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO BE DONE WITH REUPLOADING ALL OF THESE OLD ENTRIES...

Classes were cool today, we started Citizen Kane in Film and I guess it's pretty interesting but idk if it's really the "best film of all time" That title goes to Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure :3

I just wanna get my grades up now too because I've been struggling there too... blehhh.... I'm gonna be goated soon.

Song of the Day: Silk Sonic - Fly As Me
The song that made Anthony Fantano cream his jorts bro 

Monday, October 13, 2025

almost done here

October 13th 2025

I'm really almost done with reuploading all the old posts. Thank the Heavens! It's starting to get tiring after a while. I saw my birthday post from 2024 talking about my "Mulch Gang" shirt and I was like where the hell is my old mulch gang shirt? I found it and I'm wearing it tomorrow :3 Classes start up again tomorrow but hopefully on my off time I can get some more posts reuploaded. I can't wait to be done with all of this.

Also, Dan and Phil were dating this whole time?? WTF? Maybe those shippers had a point. :O

Song of the Day: Tyler, the Creator - I THINK
I love this album so much one of my all-time favorites.

Sunday, October 12, 2025

oops

 October 12th 2025

Entered a competitive pokemon tournament for a discord server I'm in. I don't know too much about Comp Pokemon but I've played the games casually for years and it's only random battles, shouldn't be too bad... It's on the 25th so I have time to learn everything I need to.

Song of the Day: Talking Heads - Once in a Lifetime
SAME AS IT EVER WAS

Saturday, October 11, 2025

The week of dread has ended.

October 11th 2025

What an absolute nightmare of a week this has been, but it finally seems to be over. Fall Break has never been more hectic. Damn. I'm kinda missing school. I don't really have much to talk about tbh I've been way too tired for anything...This kinda sucks. 

Oh yeah!!! I've been playing a lot more Skullgirls again, I fw Annie heavy but some of the other characters are pretty great. 
Here's a ranking because I love doing those as I'm sure y'all know.
  1. Annie
  2. Robo-Fortune
  3. Parasoul
  4. Ms. Fortune
  5. Squigly
  6. Beowulf
  7. Filia
  8. Peacock
  9. Marie
  10. Eliza
  11. Fukua
  12. Cerebella
  13. Big Band
  14. Valentine
  15. Double
  16. Umbrella
  17. Black Dahlia
  18. Painwheel
They're all pretty great though agghhh it's tough y'know?
I'm not sure how to feel about Parasoul, because I really like her character and she's really pretty but there's some uncomfortable history with her character and it's slowly being retconned and being taken out of the game and I don't think it was in the webtoon at all but still I'm not sure how to feel about her because of it. I really do want to like her though... Bluh

Song of the Day: My Chemical Romance - I Never Told You What I Do For A Living
This song uuuugh <3

Friday, October 10, 2025

bluh

 October 10th 2025
Still not feeling too hot. I've also spent this entire break going through my old blogger journal entries and uploading them on here. This has also just been a rough ass week. Even in Fall Break it seems I never get a break... :(

Something interesting I can talk about is the 15 year anniversary of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. MLP means a lot to me and was one of the first series I ever really fell in love with as a kid. I'm not sure if it was what kickstarted my love for cute things or if I loved it because I love cuteness so much, but either way it's always meant a lot to me. :3

My favorite characters are Twilight, Applejack, Fluttershy, Sweetie Belle, Queen Chrysalis, DJ Pon-3, and that's all that really comes to mind right now. >w< They're all great though. I'm happy that the MLP fandom is still alive, even though it's nowhere near the size of what it used to be.

Song of the Day: Daft Punk - Instant Crush 
Julian Casablancas mentioned

Thursday, October 9, 2025

Michael Prank

October 9th 2025

Got covid vaccine yayaya and flu shot :3
Arm hurts a bit but I'm fine, I always feel really groggy after this and I usually struggle trying to sleep it makes me rlly sick bleh I don't like it... but I understand it's necessary so I'm happy to get it taken care of. 

This happened a couple weeks ago but Exmilitary is finally on Spotify but under the name "michael" lmfao 

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Beware
It was a michael prank

Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Could've been worse.

 October 8th 2025
 
Dentist appointment went by smoothly actually, they recommended I wore headphones to deal with the sound so I put on Fishmans’ Long Season and just chilled out while they did their thing. They didn’t even have to give me anesthetic for the fillings because the cavities were so damn tiny so that was good because I do not do well with needles aha… Didn’t even hurt though. I feel bad for my mom who had to get a root canal today though. 
 
This appointment was supposed to be three months ago but some stuff came up and it was rescheduled to later. I'm kind of an idiot :/
Either way, I’m glad to have gotten it over with. I’m gonna take a nap now. 

Song of the Day: Fishmans - Long Season
It's an unconventional choice because it's kinda five songs in one but I think it counts. :P

Media Log 2025 - October 8th:
142. Fishmans - Long Season

Tuesday, October 7, 2025

fgc yapping

October 7th 2025
 
I’ve lowkey been getting interested in fighting games again. I saw a meme that was like favorite characters from every fighting game that I wanted to do but it was hard coming up with characters for some of them.
 
Street Fighter: Obviously Sakura Kasugano. She’s cute, reminds me of myself, and her playstyle is simple enough for an fgc idiot such as myself for me to understand. You’ll notice later on that many of these characters are too complicated for me to understand and I mostly like them for concept or design or something of that nature. Other favorites include Poison, Oro, Menat, and Akira. I’m also a pretty big fan of Ryu, Dhalsim, Blanka, Chun-Li, and Zangief if we’re talking about the world warrior characters. Ken, Honda, and Guile are of course iconic but in recent years I feel like they’ve become less and less interesting.
 
Mortal Kombat: So I actually have never been too interested in Mortal Kombat, and I’ve noticed a lot of the FGC shares that sentiment. There’s some cool characters but there’s never been any standouts to me. The closest thing I’d say to a standout character for me is Cetrion from 11, the only game in the series I’ve played. Scorpion was badass to me as a kid though but over the years I’ve kinda grown outta that. No offense he’s still awesome but y’know what it is.
 
Tekken: My earliest fighting game memories are with Tekken. I was at some kinda after school thing in kindergarten (it went up to K-5th Grade) and they had Tekken 5 and I remember watching the opening scene and the part where Jack’s face opens up and counts down and he explodes or whatever scared the living shit outta me and I remember being scared of just the name “Tekken” for years. Anyways flash forward to 2014 I’m 8 now and I’m like fuck it maybe I’ll try out Tekken 6. I really liked it! I’d never been too into fighting games before this so it was pretty cool. My main was Devil Jin just because I thought that was a badass name. Later I got into Tekken 7 and at first I mained Josie because I liked that there was Filipino rep in a fighting game, then I switched to Alisa because I thought her anime ass pink haired robot girl with chainsaw arms and combustible head i read an article all about concept was absolutely badass. Of course her controls are much more complicated compared to the simpler Josie but yeah. Heihachi and Roger are other cool characters but Roger hasn't been in a game since like 5 if I remember correctly.
 
Marvel vs. Capcom: I’ve played 3 a little bit. I like Tron Bonne as a character but gameplay wise? Yikes. Usually in 3 I play Ryu Chun-Li and Deadpool because I like to stick with what I know.  If I played 2 though I’d definitely main Sakura because y’know thats my girl
 
King of Fighters: I do not know this series. I’ve heard of it but I don’t know much about it. I know Terry because of Smash but that’s it.
 
Guilty Gear: I’m gonna come right out of the gate and admit my first time hearing about this series was when Bridget was confirmed to be transgender. A couple months later I saw fanart of Elphelt and thought she was really cool looking. Bunnygirl? Check. Guns? Check. Flowers? Check. Four Leaf Clovers? Check. Everything about this character’s concept felt tailored to me for me to love her.
 
Skullgirls: So I’ve been a fan of Skullgirls for a loooong time. My modern-day interest in fighting games can be traced all the way back to this game right here. It all started with Robo-Fortune, the robot clone of Nadia Fortune who I would also main for a bit. I also really like Squigly and Filia. I have to admit, Parasoul is very pretty but something about her concept always made me uneasy, but thankfully that was retconned and removed entirely in recent years. (iykyk) I have another funny memory with this game, I’ve told this story before and I submitted it to Coney’s Cringe Confessional once. Anyways, I was playing Skullgirls Mobile in class and a friend of mine was watching and yelled out “WHAT THE FUCK?! WHY ARE HER BOOBS SO BIG?!” Anyways that kid is a father now, his daughter was born the day before my 19th birthday, crazy how time flies huh? Here I am still shitposting on Instagram and talking about anime girls and video games in my journal. Embarrassing. What else what else? Oh yeah! I tried to main Double for a bit but her playstyle was a bit too crazy for me to grasp. However, nowadays, and I’m sure you know this, my main is none other than Annie of the Stars! It’s cool seeing a character added to the game long after I started playing and it seemed like the roster of 14 wouldn’t get any new additions, but I also really think her concept is cool as hell. I also like her Star Butterfly alt color palette even if I’m still upset about how that show ended.
 
FighterZ: I’ve always thought Dragon Ball was cool as hell but I’ve always struggled to understand it. I like Android 21 especially her lab coat version and I’m sure you all know what that’s about. Lol. Videl is pretty cool too. I also like Vegeta (the cup) and Trunks (the drink) the fact that standard Goku and Vegeta are DLC in FighterZ is kinda weird to me but hey at least their Super Saiyan versions are there. I usually go Videl, Android 21 (Lab Coat), and Beerus. Beerus because he reminds me of my cat Scarlett, who actually went as Beerus for Halloween in 2022. I don’t remember if I ever showed the pictures here. Maybe I’ll show it again for the next Halloween journal entry. Scarlett is more so my mom’s cat than mine but yeah. Buddha is also my cat but he’s taken to my mom. Buddha is old as hell though and I don’t know how much longer he’ll be with us :( sorry that was sad… I just wanted to talk about that I love him he’s 12 years old though and his health is getting worse. 
 
Blazblue: Not too familiar with this series but I downloaded the demo on Switch back in 2018 because I heard the game had RWBY characters, that’s about all I know regarding Blazblue. 
 
Smash: I don’t know honestly. I’d say Kirby from 2014-2018, Pikachu from 2019-2021, and from there I’ve been rotating between Meta Knight, Lucas, and Isabelle. Smash has a lot of characters though so who knows really. Lol :3 as of recent I’ve had a bit of fun with Robin, please don’t get mad at me for that one though I know how the Smash community feels about Fire Emblem’s representation and I’d honestly agree with them for the most part. Actually lemme go on a side tangent here for a bit on who I think should stay and who should get outta here. 
Marth - Obviously needs to stay. That’s John Fire Emblem right there
Roy - Your time is up buddy. No hard feelings
Ike - Ike who? Yeah same with you.
Robin - Awakening saved the series everyone knows this you can stay.
Lucina - Marth clone. Bye bye.
Corrin - FUCK OUTTA HERE. Fates was the bad one, and Smash 4 had SIX Fire Emblem characters at this point. Fates wasn’t even out yet in the west when they were announced lmao.
Chrom - Not sure because Roy clone but also a very important character to Awakening, which again saved the series? Neutral on this one.
Byleth - HEAR ME OUT. They can stay. Represents the weapon triangle well,giving them a unique playstyle compared to others, also Three Houses was the best selling FE game. I think they deserve to stay and the only reason they were negatively received was because they were the 8th Fire Emblem character. Five of which have blue hair, pronouns and swords. If we replaced Roy, Ike and Corrin with Lyn, Edelgard, and Anna I think that would be much better.
So yeah, that’s what my FE Smash Bros roster looks like: Marth, Lyn, Anna, Robin, Edelgard, Chrom, and Byleth. I think that’s pretty good.
 
Unist: What is this? No genuinely, what is this one? I’ve never even heard this name before. I just looked it up and apparently it’s Under Night in Birth. Yeah, I recognize THAT name. I’ve seen Carmine before and she looks pretty cool. Orie is a cutie, and Nanase is pretty. Vatista looks cool too. I might have to check this out at some point, who knows? :P
 
Melty: Never played it. I only know Neco Arc (IM SORRY) looks a little interesting though 
 

Soul Calibur: I usually play my custom characters teehee. I do think Tira looks cute though but I’m not sure how to feel about her playstyle. Also some of the earlier games have some interesting guest characters for sure. Link? Yoda and Darth Vader? That’s insane!! Heihachi and Yoshimitsu from Tekken are also here if I remember correctly. I don’t play these games much honestly. 
 
GBVS: Granblue Fantasy VS? Yeah I know nothing about this series beyond the name. Oops. Also the fact that in one of the games apparently the word Fagott, a word for bassoon in some other languages, was misspelled as the f-slur in the credits. I haven’t seen any evidence for this beyond one tweet joking about it, but that’s it. 
 
Injustice: Injustice 1’s Story Mode was the first game I ever beat. I mained Doomsday as a kid and in 2 when he was removed I went with Atrocitus instead. Nowadays I main Harley Quinn because she’s my favorite DC character. I’m actually halfway decent with her. I’ve also liked playing as some of my other favorite DC characters such as Batman or Batgirl, who’s only in Injustice 1 but yeah
 
Darkstalkers: These games are so cool, my favorite has to be my girl Q-Bee though. I love bug girls as I’m sure all of you know, and she’s one of the coolest bug girls to ever bug girl. She’s only in the third game so I don’t really play the other two much if at all. I only have the Capcom Arcade Stadium versions of these games anyway, I’m probably gonna get the fighting collection at some point though. It’s sad that Darkstalkers is essentially a dead franchise because it’s really cool. I’d never heard of it until like two years ago. I'd seen Felicia before but I never knew who she was or where she was from. 
 
Dead or Alive: This is the gooner game right? I don’t know anything about it.
 
Samsho: Another name I’ve never heard before.
 
Touhou: Originally it said “Waifu” but that word makes me physically recoil so I’ve chosen Touhou instead here. I main Aya and Patchouli in the older Touhou fighting games, and in the newer ones I main Sumireko and Mamizou. Phantasmagoria games too uhh, Dim Dream Rikako, Flower View Tewi, and Unfinished Dream Seiran or Mamizou. 
 
Killer Instinct: Originally it said “SNES” but I don’t really know much about SNES fighting games aside from the previously mentioned franchises. Killer Instinct is a game I haven’t played since I was a kid, but there’s some sick ass characters I remember from these games. Cinder, Glacius, Orchid, Hisako, Spinal, etc. I should get back into this series fr. 
 
Anime Arena: Apparently this is a whole type of fighting game and idk much about it but I’ve heard they tend to be ass so idk. 

Brawlhalla: Originally said childhood main but I think I’ve talked in enough detail about those, so I’ll just choose a game I haven’t played since childhood, haha. I like Yumiko. Well, liked. Fait is pretty too… actually… Sigh. 
 
Rivals of Aether: My personal Indie pick. I’m a Maypul girlie! I haven’t played Rivals 2 but it looks absolutely sick. A new character dropped today I think :P it’s cool how the game has no DLC and every new character is free now, more games should do that *wink wink*
 
All-Time Favorite: Sakura. It’s Sakura. No contest. Lmao. 

Song of the Day: Jack off Jill - Vivica
I hate bands with names like this I just wanna recommend them to people but no it's gotta be a whole "You listen to a band called WHAT?!" type deal. 

Monday, October 6, 2025

guhhh

October 6th 2025

Yeah, this is not going well.

Worst fall break ever.

I'm going to be so fucked up especially on Wednesday.

much love i guess?

Song of the Day: Sidney Gish - Impostor Syndrome
This album is incredible I really need to listen to it. Teaching a parakeet to talk is fun!

Sunday, October 5, 2025

Texas Roadhouse For Dinner Again!

October 5th 2025

Went out to Texas Roadhouse for Dinner today. Nice to have a little break from reuploading all these old journal entries.

I also had an insane dream where people were giving me money because they thought I was soooo damn funny because of a shitpost I made that was a CD of a nonexistent "Gangnam Style 2" next to a DVD of The Godfather Part II with the caption "why tf they make a sequel 💀" 

it's so fucking stupid lmfao

Song of the Day: PSY - Gangnam Style
Still kind of a banger

Saturday, October 4, 2025

Wow lmao

October 4th 2025

I've been rereading some of these journal entries from 2023-2024 and wow I don't really understand what the hell I was doing, it's kinda sad honestly. I was 16 and stupid. I'm 19 and stupid now, I'm gonna see this post again in 2027 and be like "Wow I was an idiot" and the cycle is going to continue forever and ever because that's the way things go in life, character development although I don't think I was a bad person at 16 just a lot more immature and I still am pretty immature but I am continuing to learn more and more every day and I'm going to be okay... Much love!! <3


Song of the Day: Gwen Stefani - The Sweet Escape
She kinda ate this up ngl.  

Friday, October 3, 2025

This is rough

October 3rd 2025

Not sure if reuploading all these journal entries from my blogger is worth it. 1,000 is quite a lot but this is what I signed up for when I decided to migrate to this platform. This memory restoration project silly idea thing was stupid i dont even know what im doing anymore i love yall thoiugh. im starting to figure out how this platform works though and I really like it!! It's kinda strange getting used to after using Blogger for 2+ years but I'm making it work!!

Just kinda overwhelmed with all the journal entries I have to reupload. 

Song of the Day: Kero Kero Bonito - Only Acting
I've always been into KKB but this song had me extra hooked when I first heard it in 2020. 

Media Log 2025 - October 3rd:
140. Kero Kero Bonito - Time n Place
141. Persefone - Spiritual Migration

Thursday, October 2, 2025

Uber isn't so bad!

October 2nd 2025

I took an Uber home for the first time. I only had one class early in the morning today and I had a test, so when I was finished with that I just went home because I didn't wanna stay at the school for another 6 hours. My driver was nice, I'm gonna have to do this more often. I need to learn to drive though because it's not like I can do this every day lol, I just don't have that kind of money. 

I'm slowly uploading all 1,004 of my old blogger posts to this new journal. I've got 51/1004 so far. The "Memory Restoration Project" is 5.1% complete! I'm being a little silly about it, sorry.

Song of the Day: The Offspring - You're Gonna Go Far, Kid.
RAINBOW DASH THEME SONG
Memory Restoration Project: 5.1% Complete!
Facts:
Rainbow Dash is Jeff
Twilight Sparkle is Abed
Pinkie Pie is Troy
Fluttershy is Annie
Applejack is Shirley
Rarity is Pierce
Sunset Shimmer is Britta
any questions?

Wednesday, October 1, 2025

Welcome Back to My World!

October 1st 2025

Hello, my name is Nora Meadow! Since 2023, I’ve been doing daily blog posts on blogspot/blogger whatever you wanna call it and I’ve recently decided to migrate over to this website. I’m currently working on uploading all of my old posts here, but due to the restrictions in certain areas I’ve considered posting these entries to both Dreamwidth and Blogger.

I don’t really have much to talk about, most of the day I either slept or studied for my tests. 


I’m kinda struggling with a lot of things but I’m gradually improving my life and getting better. Much love!!!


Song of the Day: Nina Simone - Sinnerman

Honestly, this whole album was beautiful but the last two songs were near perfection.

Media Log 2025 - October 1st:

137. Nirvana - Nevermind

138. Nina Simone - Pastel Blues

139. Radiohead - A Moon Shaped Pool

Tuesday, September 30, 2025

Regarding Dreamwidth

September 30th 2025

So... The website I've been planning on migrating to. It's called Dreamwidth, and it seems pretty welcoming and active and fairly decent in terms of discovery and such. There's one miniscule problem and that's the fact that it's blocked entirely in the state of Mississippi, and while the laws on it in my home state of Tennessee are much more lax and the site is actually allowed here new users aren't allowed to create accounts unless they're over the age of 18, and I fear in the future it's only going to be much more strict. 

Here's what I am going to do, I'm going to continue to post my journal entries to this page, as well as Dreamwidth starting tomorrow. New entries will be going up on both sites, while I will be gradually uploading old entries to the latter. If something happens and I am no longer able to access Dreamwidth where I live I will have to resort to using a VPN or abandoning the journal on there entirely, so this one will essentially be a failsafe I guess. 

I'm still figuring out how Dreamwidth works, but it seems like it'll end up being the new home for my journal, while I'll be continuing to post it here for the reasons stated above.

Song of the Day: Will Wood - The First Step
been really into Will Wood lately, not sure why that came about all of a sudden but yeah! ^_^


Monday, September 29, 2025

In Case I Make It

September 29th 2025

I've considered writing a second album review, this time for Will Wood's In Case I Make It. It's an interesting album, I put off listening to it for a year and a half because I thought I would hate it. It's a damn good album, though. It's his most sincere album yet, and I thought that's why I wouldn't be into it but as it turns out that's what makes it so perfect. I'm glad I put off listening to it until last year, because I don't think I would've been mature enough to really comprehend it at first. 

Song of the Day: Will Wood - Against the Kitchen Floor
UUGHHH I LOVE THIS ALBUMMMM 

Media Log 2025 - September 29th:
136. Will Wood - In Case I Make It 
2022 album, rating: Magnificent
I could go on about why I like this album so much, I think it's beautiful and sincere and shows so much growth and maturity compared to his earlier albums it brings a tear to my eye. 

Sunday, September 28, 2025

So…Homestuck, Huh?

September 28th 2025

I haven’t watched the pilot yet, but I’ve seen some clips on my Instagram feed and it doesn’t look very good. Don’t get me wrong, the voice actors did a good job and it’s well animated. But the excessive swearing problem other Vivziepop shows suffer from is present here too. Yes, I’ve read Homestuck. I know there’s a lot of swearing in Homestuck. It wasn’t THIS bad, though. Maybe I’m misremembering but I don’t remember John saying “Little Fucking Monsters” ever. I get that certain things are gonna change from the webcomic to the actual animated adaptation, but it feels like they’re trying to put in swearing as much as they can even when it wasn’t therr originally, but what do I know?

I should probably watch it before really judging it, and I’m not saying it’s definitively bad just that it doesn’t look all that promising from what I’ve seen. I’ll probably give it a chance tomorrow though because I’m really sleepy and wanna go to bed now so…Goodnight!

Song of the Day: “Weird Al” Yankovic - The Alternative Polka
I first heard this in April of 2022 and it introduced me to a bunch of songs I would later become obsessed with. I went through a bit of a phase for music like this during that time, teehee… ^_^ 

Saturday, September 27, 2025

You Learn Something New Everyday

September 27th 2025

You really do learn something new everyday. So I kinda always knew that wikis had been a thing since the 1990s, and Wikipedia came out in 2000 and the name came from internet wikis, but I never knew where the term Wiki came from. Apparently it comes from the Wiki Wiki Shuttle in Hawaii, the name translating to “Very Fast Shuttle!” I think that’s pretty interesting.

Song of the Day: Miracle Musical - Murders
I still really like this album oopsies…

Friday, September 26, 2025

Day #1,000

September 26th 2025

Today is the 1,000th day of doing this blog. It's kinda crazy. I'm 7,057 days old so I've been doing this for like 14% of my life. That's kind of crazy to me.

Anyways, I've been thinking about moving this journal blog thing whatever ya wanna call it to a platform called Dreamwidth for a while now. I'm still not 100% sure about it, but I thought I'd get that out there. Blogger just doesn't have much for discovery, and no one really reads these so you gotta wonder what the point is. Also the customization is a lot better. 

So, I wanna talk about the whole Song of the Day thing. I've made a couple mistakes in the past with reusing song of the days a couple times but going back and changing them later on (even if it was a couple months later. sorry...) But I'm like 99% sure at this point there's been 1000 unique songs of the days now. 

I might've brought this up before but I've also had plans to allow it where if I wanna reuse a Song of the Day, I can! As long as a year has passed since the last time I selected it. I don't plan on doing this much, I'm not doing it today, but I thought I'd just get that out there! ^_^

I think that's all from me, Here's to thousands more days of silly lady journaling!

Song of the Day: Nirvana - Lithium
My middle name Lilith is short for Lithium, I got it from this song. Happy day 1,000 everyone!


Thursday, September 25, 2025

Revolution 999

September 25th 2025

Today is day 999. I was unsure what the song of the day should be for today, but I settled on The Beatles' Revolution 9. 

Numba nine. Numba nine. Numba nine.

I hope I did well on my test, but it's pretty doubtful... I studied quite a bit...

I have big plans for this journal blog thing going forward, but I'm not sure yet. They're only plans. 

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Revolution 9
Kinda fire actually. 
TOMORROW!

Media Log 2025 - September 25th:

135. Top Hat
1935 film, rating: Good
They’re all just ragebaiting and gaslighting each other it’s honestly incredible.

Wednesday, September 24, 2025

Here's My Horsey Tier List

September 24th 2025


I had to consult the wiki to do some horsey research because I'm still new to this whole thing. But yeah!! ^_^

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - The Famous Polka 
I'm a famous horsey!
2 days until the big 1K!

Tuesday, September 23, 2025

Rapture Hype

September 23rd 2025

New hyperfixation incoming, Umamusume Pretty Derby!!! I'll make a horsey tier list tomorrow yayyaaya....I'm kinda shocked by how much my Instagram page is blowing up. I've got 22,000 followers now and my page has gotten 14 something MILLION views in the last 30 days. What the hell?! The rapture didn't happen today which was lame, now I have to take my English test tomorrow. Yikes...

Song of the Day: Nirvana - Something in the Way
My Dad hates The Batman movie, not sure why. Great song though. 
3 days until Nora Meadow 1000

Monday, September 22, 2025

Daft Punk In Fortnite!

September 22nd 2025


DAFT PUNK IS IN FORTNITE HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!! I'VE WANTED THIS FOR YEARSSSSSSS DAMNNNNNNNN!!! I may not be as into Daft Punk as I used to be, but I still really love them. 

Doki Doki Literature Club is 8 years old today. I think to call it an important game to me becoming the person I am today is an understatement. Also, I've always seen a lot of myself in Sayori as a character. She's definitely my favorite, but Monika is a close second. Also the release of the game coincides with her canonical birthday so that's cool!

Going back to that worst songs thing Kokomo by the Beach Boys is on there for some reason which is complete bullshit because that song is PEAK.

Song of the Day: Daft Punk - Veridis Quo
God, what a masterpiece.
4 days until ya girl girl 1000

Media Log 2025 - September 22nd 
133. Nirvana - Nevermind
1991 album, Rating: Magnificent
Honestly such an iconic album, slowly becoming my favorite album of theirs even though Bleach has been my favorite for over two years. 

134. The Cardigans - Emmerdale
1994 album, Rating: Good
Alright album, but a lot of these songs are on a better album.


Sunday, September 21, 2025

I wanna talk about a song

September 21st 2025

So, there's a song on the worst songs of all time list called MacArthur Park by Richard Harris.
The fact it's on there is honestly bullshit because it's an incredible song. "Someone left the cake out in the rain, I don't think that I can take it cause it took so long to bake it and I'll never have that recipe again" is kind of a weird lyric but it's cool actually and also It's Not My Birthday by TMBG references it so uhhh two big ones. 

Song of the Day: Richard Harris - MacArthur Park
GREAT SONG 
5 days until ya girl's 1000th post!

Saturday, September 20, 2025

The Origins of Horror

September 20th 2025

Just doing some homework, I decided to watch this old ass horror movie for the screen report, actually it's considered the first horror movie ever. I had a hard time paying attention and staying awake honestly. I've been really tired recently. Also, silent films aren't really my thing personally. Oops! Anyways, I don't have much else to say so I'm probably going to bed now goodniiiiiiiight!!! I'll see you later!!! I'm just so so tired of everything it all gets so tiring at times. 

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Cage & Aquarium
Anyone else feel like this song was supposed to have a second verse? I'm not sure why there isn't one.
6 days until day 1000!

Media Log 2025 - September 20th:
132. The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari
1920 film, Rating: Good
Oh my god bruh.


Friday, September 19, 2025

It’s just depressing tbh

September 19th 2025

The world is just depressing nowadays. Everything is so dangerous and evil and it’s getting increasingly more and more difficult to stay distracted. I tell myself that I’m going to put myself out there and work towards achieving my goals but then I remember just why it’s all been so rough for me. I believe that we are in fact in charge of our own destiny and whatnot but I also believe that some circumstances may be out of our control. Living in America ever since November has honestly felt bleak. This country is dangerously heading towards fascism, if we aren’t there already. 

Perhaps it’s better than most other countries, since I’m allowed to speak out against these kinds of things, sure. I am for now. 

It just keeps getting scarier and scarier, I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t understand who this benefits except for the 1%

Song of the Day: Justice - Phantom Pt. II
fuuuuuuh what a song
7 days until day 1000!

Media Log 2025 - September 19th:
131. Justice - Justice
2007 album, rating: Magnificent
Also called Cross or stylized as a cross but I’m too lazy to copy and paste the symbol. I just adore this album so damn much. This was one of the first albums that truly made me fall in love with music beyond just listening to songs in playlists and stuff. What I’m trying to say is this was one of the first albums I listened to in full and adored.


Thursday, September 18, 2025

OKAYYYYY

September 18th 2025

So in that film class we finished that "Lola rennt/Run Lola Run" film I was talking about in the other post. It was pretty cool actually. Also the soundtrack was incredible too.

I think things are starting to get better for me honestly. I'm not sure, I just feel like I've gotten more confident and I can actually communicate with people irl. 

I don't really have much to talk about, I have a lot of work to get done for some of my classes though >_< okayyy see yall laterzzz....


Song  of the Day: Franka Potente & Thomas D - Wish (Komm zu mir)
Really cool actually I love this shitttt gah
Media Log 2025 - September 18th 2025
130. Lola rennt 
1998 film, Rating: Awesome!
I think I've said enough about why I like this so much in Tuesday's post. :P

Wednesday, September 17, 2025

Who Needs Sleep?

September 17th 2025

This stuff I'm having to do for school is kinda frustrating, but I'm not gonna just give up or anything... 
I just feel stupid doing all of this... I'm struggling a lot this semester but I still have plenty of time to turn it around!! Having to balance online classes and in person classes has proved more difficult than I anticipated but I'm strong and I'm smart I think I've got this!! ^_^

Song of the Day: Barenaked Ladies - Who Needs Sleep?
real
Media Log 2025 - September 17th:
129. Barenaked Ladies - Stunt 
1998 album, rating: awesome
I like this one a lot more than the last BNL album I listened to. 

Tuesday, September 16, 2025

Pretty Cool Actually

September 16th 2025

Somewhere, someway, somehow I will gain enough confidence to speak to people first.

I think I should try to rehearse what to say, that could be useful. Because to be honest? I have no fuckin clue what I’m doing.  I just need friends…

In film class we started watching this pretty interesting German movie that I forgot the name of. Run Lola Run I think? Yeah… only 30 something minutes in but it seriously is one of the most interesting things I’ve seen. In a way it’s reminiscent of the Community episode "Remedial Chaos Theory" which as you know is one of my favorites for a multitude of reasons, along with being one of the highest praised Community episodes by both the fans and critics. For good reason!!

This semester has been a bit confusing I’m not sure I understand everything when it comes to these classes and I’m terrified I’m gonna fail again and flunk outta college. I’m not stupid or anything I swear I’m just depressed and struggling. I’m barely struggling to write these journal entries blog posts whatever you wanna call it. I’m hardly ever even writing them on time… sometimes I end up with a backlog of an entire month’s worth of entries that I’ve started but never finished. At least I’ve caught up on them and have almost 1,000 entries for every day since the beginning of 2023. I just need to work on doing them on time…I have to finish my screen report for that film class too oops… damn.

ok thats all byeee

Song of the Day: Talkshow Boy - I Cut Myself
One of my top songs on last.fm. I’ve been obsessed with this album and song for years now.
Media Log 2025 - September 16th:
128. Talkshow Boy - Testosterone
2006 album, rating: Magnificent
One of my all-time favorites. Originally checked it out because I saw it was released on the very day I was born (June 1st ‘06) and it was so worth it. Although the Bandcamp release has a different release date so I’m not sure if the release date on RYM that initially was the reason I decided to listen to it is true or not… :O

Monday, September 15, 2025

Despite everything, it’s still you.

September 15th 2025

"Despite everything, it's still you."

10 years ago today marks the release of a video game that's been very important to me. 

I'm sure Undertale needs no introduction, but I feel it's only right to give it one.

UNDERTALE is a role-playing game with elements of bullet hell in there as well. It's heavily inspired by games like Shin Megami Tensei and Earthbound/Mother. The music is also incredible. 

Before Undertale, Toby Fox was known as a composer on the Homestuck music team, and a lot of Homestuck's humor shines through in Undertale as well.

It's the story of a child who falls underground and encounters a society of monsters, and it’s up to the player to kill them or not. The game has been heavily influential on not just me but many others. 

I don't think I talk much about my original story, MeadowHeart's influences but Undertale is a small but significant one I feel. It’s not important though I’ll stop trying to make excuses to talk about my original projects that I’m still in the infancy stage when it comes to figuring it all out.

I never actually finished Undertale, I originally watched someone else play it but I can't remember who it was. I did play it for myself though and I made it pretty far, but never actually finished it.

I’m still finding myself, but Undertale helped me start finding myself when I was a kid. I met a lot of friends both online and offline thanks to Undertale, and they’ve been some of my closest friends. I just realized I haven’t spoken to some of them in a while since they moved away and I’m awkward as hell when it comes to starting conversations… oops…anyways

This is Deltarune and I’m sure I talked about this but in 2019 I made a spinoff account to glutenpee by the name of lancericarlyfan. A strange shitpost account with lots of bizarre lore, with Lancer from Deltarune as a persona. It was stupid, and at one point I’d used it to raid terf hashtags I remember one of them somehow got access to my private account and tried to use posts on there to call me a "pornsick misogynist" or whatever. Keep in mind I would’ve been like 14 or 15 or whatever lmao. Lancer is still probably my favorite Deltarune character, but I don’t roleplay much anymore sadly. I need to get back into it I miss roleplaying it was fun


Undertale also inspired me to try to get into creating music. I wasn’t very good at it and I’ve unreleased everything I’d initially put out  but I might get back into it someday.


That's all I really have to say. I've always loved Undertale and unsurprisingly still do. Here's to 10 more years. ^_^


Thank you, Toby Fox. 

Song of the Day: Toby Fox - Undertale
"tomorrow my life may change forever. i feel like a pokemon with 1 level left before i evolve." - Toby Fox, September 14th 2015.

Media Log 2025 - September 15th

127. That Handsome Devil - The Heart Goes to Heaven, The Head Goes to Hell
2011 album, rating: Awesome
I like this a lot more than I used to. For a while I would’ve called this a mid album but it is really good. Charlie's Inferno is easily the best song on here. 

Long Distance Relationships

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