IWTBTFUG!

September 6th 2025

On this day, five years ago, I came to terms with the fact that I am transgender. A lot in my life has changed since then. 

However, I'm still very far from where I wish to be. 

I'm not on estrogen yet, I don't wear traditionally feminine clothing, I'm not even out to a majority of people in real life. Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually trans or if I just enjoy living a sort of "double life"

The fact that I have so much social anxiety and I live in a pretty unaccepting part of the country, and the fact that everything went to even worse shit the minute I became a legal adult and started college feels like fate has not been kind to me. 

These first five years have had their ups and downs, and I have a long journey ahead of me. It's honestly nobody's business but I don't plan on getting surgery because that's fucking terrifying. Also I feel like a girl regardless of what's in my pants. 

I've always been weird about my gender because I wasn't too dissatisfied with being a boy but I feel happier as a girl. It's things like this that have made me question if I'm some flavor of non-binary but that's something I honestly don't understand.

Gender identity and expression are very confusing, and even though I still struggle with dysphoria a lot due to a clusterfluff of reasons that I'm not ready to talk about, I'm pretty happy with my gender expression online and I hope I can be the same person in real life. "I want to be that fucked up girl" like in Noel's Lament. Song of the Day perhaps?

This is going to be the first of, not many but a few journal entries in which I reflect on everything. I have a lot more I want to talk about but it only feels appropriate to address them on later dates. It's stupid but there's a method to my madness. 

Song of the Day: Kholby Wardell - Noel's Lament

I WANT TO BE THAT FUCKED UP GIRL!

not sure abt my favorite pokemon of all time

September 5th 2025

I'm not sure what my overall fav pokemon is... I did my favorites of every type and I've been trying to consider the candidates from those obviously.

Grass: Leafeon (Easily my favorite eeveelution, but I'm not sure)

Fire: Victini (Was my favorite at one point but I don't know if it still is)

Water: Whiscash (It's silly and I really like it a lot, but I'm not entirely sure about all time favorite)

Normal: Lopunny (I LOVE HER!!! People are weird abt her though...)

Electric: Luxray (Was also my favorite at one point but I don't know if it still is)

Psychic: Reuniclus (Possible Candidate 1)

Fighting: Hitmontop (Dr. Bustdown is cool but I'm not sureee???)

Rock: Cradily (Pete Ness)

Ground: Flygon (Was my first ever favorite Pokemon of all time)

Flying: Staraptor (Absolutely fucking sick)

Bug: Heracross (badass scarab was briefly my favorite but after reconsidering it not really)

Poison: Muk (I don't even know if I prefer Kantonian or Alolan Muk)

Dark: Umbreon (I know for sure that I prefer Leafeon in terms of Eeveelutions)

Ghost: Chandelure (Shauntal reference... woah)

Ice: Lapras (That's my mom's favorite pokemon we cant have the same favorite pokemon)

Steel: Tinkaton (Possible Candidate 2)

Dragon: Goodra (IT'S AWESOME but I don't know for sure 100%)

Fairy: Togekiss (Possible Candidate 3)

In conclusion, my favorite Pokémon of all time is a three way tie between Reuniclus, Tinkaton, and Togekiss. 

Song of the Day: Jimmy Eat World - The Middle

One time this came on the car radio shuffle and my dad skipped it for Nickelback, I cried myself to sleep that night

5 YEARS OF NORA TOMORROW

rough day

September 4th 2025

rough day

i wanna take a nap

Song of the Day: Danny Brown - Ain't It Funny

god dammit

2 days until my tranniversary

LIVIN LA VIDA LOCAAAA

September  3rd 2025

I'm saying it again, there are songs that I fucking love that get a lot of hate. If you hate Livin La Vida Loca, Mambo No. 5, Kokomo, etc. I can't trust you.

I'm working on some new stuff for youtube perhaps... I want to keep my promises. #StayTuned.

Song of the Day: Ricky Martin - Livin la Vida Loca

SUCH A BANGERRRRRRR

3 days until Nora tranniversary.

what the hell

September 2nd 2025

What the hell is going on with Trump? Is he dead or not?? Either way he's probably dying soon... Crazy.

Song of the Day: The Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling

I miss these days

4 days until the Noraversary

Todaybor Day is Labor Day!

September 1st 2025

I love Homestar Runner....

Anyways Here's My Favorite Pokémon of every type.

Grass: Leafeon

Fire: Victini

Water: Whiscash

Normal: Lopunny

Electric: Luxray

Psychic: Reuniclus

Fighting: Hitmontop

Rock: Cradily

Ground: Flygon

Flying: Staraptor

Bug: Heracross

Poison: Muk

Dark: Umbreon

Ghost: Chandelure

Ice: Lapras

Steel: Tinkaton

Dragon: Goodra

Fairy: Togekiss

Song of the Day: Homestar Runner - Todaybor Day is Labor Day

Puyo Puyo official twittter account posted a reference to this.

5 days until 5 years of Nora 

Month in review August 2025

August 31st 2025

This month was not very good. 5/10

I think brighter days are on the horizon though

I don't know how to feel about any of this stuff anymore :/

I'm just so tired 

Song of the Day: Oingo Boingo - Sweat

why did they do a country rendition of this lmao

6 days until Eleanor 5 Year Tranniversary

DIE BRU DIE

August 30th 2025

Trump hasn't been seen in days... please please please I don't even care anymore if JD Vance is going to be president now I'll take anything over Pedophile Donald.

JD Vance is a fucking idiot who doesn't have the cult of personality like Trump does, I doubt he'll be able to get anything done. 

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - When Will You Die?

TMBG = Trump Might Be Gone 

day off so sleepy

August 29th 2025

I'm so sleepy I'm glad I have the day off.

I've been playing Pokemon tho when I have the time, funny how I suck at games made for literal children. Fuck my chudette life. 

Song of the Day: The Dresden Dolls - Shores of California

Rare Dresden Dolls W

Soul Knight Aura and Hype Moments

August 28th 2025

Picked Soul Knight back up after a few years, they added so many new characters and they're pretty damn cool. 

Also the anime style looks so cool with some of the older character designs. I do have to unlock everyone back again but yknow it is what it is.

Philosophy class attendance question today was favorite flavor of ice cream. Decided to play it safe by answering strawberry when the truth is my favorite is cotton candy >:3

Soul Knight Unlocks:

01. Knight

02. Witch

Song of the Day: Tyler the Creator - Where This Flower Blooms

TYLER MY GOAT

Worst Songs Ever?

August 27th 2025

Going through a wikipedia list of worst songs

Harry Kari - Yes Sir, That's My Baby

Yeah, this is just racist. 

Napoleon XIV - They're Coming To Take Me Away, Ha-Haaa (Reversed)

Original is good why did they release it reversed though?

Legendary Stardust Cowboy - Paralyzed

lmao

The Beatles - Ob-La-Di Ob-La-Da

HEY WHAT THEFUCK

Reginald Bosanquet - Dance With Me 

this is so funny 

The Tweets - The Birdie Song

evil autism

Starship - We Built This City

uuuuugh

The Beach Boys - Kokomo

ok im done this list is bullshit maybe i'll pick this back up for a youtube video where i rank them all but i'd lowkey be stealing that idea from coney :/

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da

life goes on brah

Classes were cool

August 26th 2025

Didn't get much sleep last night but my classes were pretty fun. I like philosophy so far. My professor does attendance questions which is pretty cool. He asked us what artist we've been listening to lately and I of course answered, "They Might Be Giants" he actually said he was a fan of them as well which is cool. 

I love cats and old technology this is random but I can't stop thinking about this phone commercial from 2011, it's so cute and it actually makes me wanna buy one of these old phones , it reminds me of the phone my mom used to have that I would watch LPS Popular on. I miss when phones looked cute and stuff like that. Everything is kinda boring now.  :(

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - They'll Need a Crane

I love the music video for this song it's incredible guh I wanna watch it on loop again

Happy Birthday Scarlett!

August 25th 2025

Scarlett is now four years old! She's the youngest person EVER.

I found my throne wishlist again and some of the clothes in there are really really cute >_<

I know it's kinda cringe but yeah.

Cranidos is the worst Pokemon ever I hate how I keep losing nuzlockes on the first gym because of that fucking headbutt ughhh...

Song of the Day: bo en - My Time

First heard about Omori because of this song, even back then I thought it was kinda ehh. Maybe some day I'll get into it. The creator is gross though. 

Homestuck is...back?

August 24th 2025

So, the Homestuck website is apparently getting fixed properly. I'll believe it when I see it. Not sure how to feel about the whole rerelease update culture thing but whatever, it's kinda cool I guess.

Also I just remembered that old ass Fate Grand Order gacha game I used to play when I was 12. The character Mashu or Shielder or whatever her name is was one of my biggest anime crushes for a while lol. She's still pretty cute I think.

IDK why I continue to attempt nuzlockes when I suck so hard at them, guess the only way I'm gonna get better is to keep playing.

Song of the Day: King Gizzard - Rattlesnake

This goes crazy actually 

Happy birthday Neil

August 23rd 2025

Happy 39th birthday Neil Cicierega!!!

I don't have anything else to say I'm sleepy im gonan play pokemon and maybe take a nap

Song of the Day: August Greenwood - Taroko

RIP Taroko the Whale Shark

follow limit again

August 22nd 2025

I hit the instagram following limit yesterday

Probably gonna go on an unfollowing spree as a result but it's kinda lame.

im sleepy

Song of the Day: Eminem - Just Lose It

probably my favorite eminem song lol

First day of classes (in person that is)

August 21st 2025

I like my classes so far. Philosophy and film. The professors seem cool, and some of the students seem nice I should maybe try talking to people. Too bad I have horrible social anxiety :/

I have like nearly four hours in between classes though I guess I could work on the online stuff but it's not like it'll take four damn hours.

Also a couple of my irl friends from high school are going to the same college as me now yayyyy :3

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Pet Name

This song is awesome especially when you consider some of the interpretations of it. 

ok thank you mom

August 20th 2025

Mom let me borrow her laptop for school, I greatly appreciate that 

Lenovo laptops suck btw, that's the laptop I had before lol.

i love moths

Song of the Day: Mono Puff - Hello Hello

it's good to be back <3

change of plans

August 19th 2025

I've been messing around with RPG Maker MV again, but my laptop is so fucked up I'll have to postpone this project already. :/

I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do when classes start. 

I also forgot how much I hate the character creation thing in RMMV, it has the same problem as most Picrews where the "dark skinned" options are fucking grey. This isn't Homestuck bitch come on now. 

Song of the day: Hugh Jackman & Zac Efron - The Other Side

is this the circus musical ive never seen it :P

classes tomorrow im so screwed

address me twin

August 18th 2025

I wanna reconnect with irl friends from before covid, but I'm lowkey not cisgender anymore. 

I guess I have a bit of a platonic crush... apparently it's called a "squish" lol. I don't know anymore. I'm just so confused and ill thinking about it all.

Song of the Day: Faith No More - Epic

There's a horsey named Faith No More apparently. 

2 days until class

touhou 20

August 17th 2025

erm... touhou 20 just dropped. idk anything about it ive lowk been trying to avoid shit uhhh

what else.

damn thats all i really have to say today,,, oops.

Song of the Day: Sandy Marton - Camel By Camel

michigan

3 days until classes start

20th cant come sooner

August 16th 2025

I love love love cute stuff so so much >.<

I went to the mall today but honestly I didn’t find anything interesting or cute I just ended up feeling dread as always… not sure what’s happening with me lately.

I guess I’m just ready to start my sophomore year of college. 

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Help!

Used to hate this song for some reason, it’s okay.

4 days until classes begin.

Media Log 2025 - August 16th:

125. LCD Soundsystem - 45:33

2006 album, rating: Good

Nike's Long Season

Steam History

August 15th 2025

Saw a BlueSky trend that was like "Post your first five Steam purchases from your account history" here's my first 6 or so because I think it's funny.

1. Tattletail (06/01/17)

2. Undertale (06/01/17)

3. There's a Genie In My Szechuan Sauce (12/24/17) (Refunded a day later)

4. Hatoful Boyfriend (12/25/17)

5. Five Nights at Freddy's (12/31/17)

6. Sonic Adventure DX (01/14/18)

I would've been like 11 ok I know this is cringe lol.

Probably gonna go to the mall tomorrow but I doubt the stores I go to will have anything interesting. I usually go to fye to find cool CDs but I can never find anything. Oh well. 

Then there's this game store that has mostly used stuff, pretty cool but I rarely ever find anything too interesting, a lot of it tends to be overpriced too. That's how it is with old games though sadly. 

Song of the Day: Barenaked Ladies - The King of Bedside Manor

hype moments and aura

5 days until classes start.

Media Log 2025 - August 15th:

123. Talkshow Boy - Testosterone

2006 Album, Rating: Magnificent

Apparently this album came out the day I was born, according to RYM. On Bandcamp it has a different date though. One of my all-time favorite albums though. Was an important album to me throughout high school. 

124. Barenaked Ladies - Gordon

1992 Album, Rating: Good

It's alright. My mom likes the If I Had $1,000,000 song from here. Calls it "the one with the monkey"

i need to get over it

August 14th 2025

Yeah I think I’m done with Homestuck. I’ll reread it some other time when I really have the motivation. Right now I’d rather write MeadowHeart lore mwehehehehe :3 listening to hella evil ass music too I hope this doesnt inspire me to write evil lore I feel too cute >~< also my friend has a new discord server that you know I had to join :P

I might replay Fire Emblem Three Houses if I can find the time because Bernadetta is just so so cute ehehehe…she’s kinda me if you think about it? Hmm… 

This month is going by a bit fast. Not sure if this month is going by fast or if I’ve just slept through too much of it. I need more irl friends tbh. I have a few but I need more who live closer and I can hang out with outside of classes and stuff. I don’t really have any friends at college yet. I went through my first year under the radar. Theres some people I would’ve liked to gotten to know better but I’m a damn coward. This year needs to be different. I’ve been saying for years that "this year is the one" but I’m still the same antisocial dumbass I’ve been since 9th grade. I’ve just been waiting for people to talk to me first and that hasn’t been going well for me… damn…  I need to make the first move clearly God or whatever higher power there is out there is telling me to make the first move lol. 

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Culture Shock

YOU NEED TO VIBRATE HIGHER

Media Log 2025 - August 14th:

120. Death Grips - Ex-Military

2011 Mixtape, Rating: Magnificent

It's a mixtape but I think it's better than all of their albums. Maybe it's because it was my introduction to them in like 2018 and I'd never heard anything like it before but yeah, absolutely fire.

121. Nick Drake - Five Leaves Left

1969 Album, Rating: Amazing

Finally finished his discography after three years. Great artist, Pink Moon is still my favorite of his, but this is pretty great too.

122. Leo Ferre - Il n'y a plus rien

1973 Album, Rating: Good

Again, nothing much to say about this one but I like how it sounds.

I love Cardiacs

August 13th 2025

A Little Man and a House and The Whole World Window is still one of the best albums I've ever heard. Cardiacs and Supertramp are peak British music. The Beatles and Radiohead are great but I personally prefer Cardiacs and Supertramp. I haven’t listened to Sing to God by Cardiacs in a while but I remember it in particular being quite the banger album. 

Whatevs.

Song of the Day: Cardiacs - Is This The Life?

oingo boingo 2

7 days until Norx classes.

Media Log 2025 - August 13th:

117. Francois Rabbath - The Sound of a Bass

1963 Album, Rating: Okay

It's cool, I don't have much else to say.

118. Cardiacs - A Little Man and a House and the Whole World Window

1988 Album, Rating: Magnificent

Love this album so much, one of all-time favorites. 

119. Danny Elfman - So-Lo 

1984 Album, Rating; Good

Before being known as a prolific composer of film scores, Danny Elfman was the frontman of the band Oingo Boingo. This was his first solo album and honestly? It's good. I still prefer OB's 1980-1985 output but still a few bangers on here. The first song on here, Gratitude, is listed as an Oingo Boingo song on streaming for whatever reason, 

yuriful dreams

August 12th 2025

Had another very cute and silly dream that’s definitely gonna inspire MeadowHeart lore!!!

I don’t wanna get into the details because it would be spoilers for future projects but it was very very adorable. Been reading more Homestuck and yeah I don’t know if I’m gonna finish this tbh but I can try I guess. I also hung out with my silly kitties a little bit they’re so sweet I love them. Good cats best friends!!!! ^_^ Nermal fell asleep on me and I was petting her and she was loving it she’s a really sweet kitty most of the time she can be a little evil from time to time but I think it’s silly. 

Somedays I wish I was a cute little moth flying around and being cute i dont knowwwwlike  a rosy maple moth  or something >~<

davejade is the most yuriful het ship ever dave is lowkey a girl i think like yeah therrs june egbert but what about dawn strider have we considered that. I think Strider would be a cute girl and DawnJade would be cute yuri. I’m pretty sure the fanon name for girl Dave is Dove Strider but I prefer Dawn Strider tbh. Either way these two are cuties together wait I just remembered I saw a Talkshow Boy edit to them years ago but I think it’s lost

I saw a Vrisrezi Keith Party edit a while ago which I also havent been able to find again but thats crazy because Keith Party is like "elite ball knowledge" as the kids say. Keith Party is underrated even in Talkshow Boy fan circles from what I’ve seen. I dunno just from what i’ve seen. 

bluh im kinda tired im gonna call it here. See ya tomorrow

Song of the Day: Black Sabbath - Children of the Sea

This Dio guy is alright, but I heard he's an evil ass vampire or something. 

8 days until classes start.

Media Log 2025 - August 12th:

116. Black Sabbath - Heaven & Hell

1980 Album, Rating: Good

First Black Sabbath album with Dio on vocals instead of Ozzy. It's alright. Still prefer Ozzy for sure, though. Still can't believe he's gone.

homestuck beh

August 11th 2025

Realistically do not think I am going to finish Homestuck this time. Maybe I should just listen to the lets reads and follow along.

Here's my character ranking though because I'm bored and I like doing these rankings when I’m out of ideas for things to write about on here:

1. Jade Harley

2. Dave Strider

3. Nepeta Leijon

4. Terezi Pyrope

5. Vriska Serket

6. Jake English

7. Gamzee Makara

8. John Egbert

9. Jane Crocker

10. Roxy Lalonde

11. Calliope

12. Meulin Leijon

13. Aradia Megido

14. Dirk Strider

15. Kanaya Maryam

16. Rose Lalonde

17. Karkat Vantas

18. Tavros Nitram

19. Caliborn

20. Kurloz Makara

21. Aranea Serket

22. Latula Pyrope

23. Equius Zahhak

24. Feferi Peixes

25. Sollux Captor

26. Meenah Peixes

27. Porrim Maryam

28. Rufioh Nitram

29. Eridan Ampora

30. Kankri Vantas

31. Damara Megido

32. Cronus Ampora

33. Horuss Zahhak

34. Mituna Captor

Just the classpected characters lmao. I know Cronus is considered the worst character in Homestuck but I don’t entirely hate him all that much like some people do. 

Maybe I should try to explain these rankings since I have nothing better to do. 

⚠️ Spoiler Warning!!!!!!!! ⚠️

Jade Harley (Witch of Space)

She’s a cutie, plain and simple. I had a bit of a crush on her when first reading… Not much has changed, huh?

Dave Strider (Knight of Time)

I happen to kin this insufferable prick. (Now you understand why I’m a Davejade shipper!) 

Really though, I think him and Jade are cute together. Also he's easily responsible for some of the funniest, most quotable lines in the entire comic. 

I’m kinda like the transfem Dave Strider if you think about it. Except I’m a Sylph of Blood because that’s a badass title. 

Nepeta Leijon (Rogue of Heart)

The roleplay queen herself. She deserved so much better. She didn’t do anything relevant  or have any meaningful character development and died pretty early on but the fans still adore her, and for good reason. At least she lives on in Davepetasprite who actually kisses Jade!!!!! Closest thing we get to DaveJade/JadeNep. I love Davepetasprite if we were including sprites in the ranking they’d be like fourth

Terezi Pyrope (Seer of Mind)

Her interactions with Dave are so flippin peak. I kinda ship her with Nepeta too. I think they’d be cute girlfriends and go on little roleplay dates together. Nepeta and Tavros is another cute ship but this isn’t about them it’s about Terezi. She says "Surely you jest" shortly after her introduction and as you know surely you jest is my catchphrase so I gotta give her bonus points for that. 

Vriska Serket (Thief of Light)

The best written character in Homestuck, full stop. Some people don’t like her, but I’d argue you should finish the comic before adamantly expressing your opinion on her. She did a lot wrong, absolutely. But I think she’s a very morally grey and complex character. Her interaction with John after killing Tavros, chills. I ship her and John too I  think they’d be cute together.

Jake English (Page of Hope)

There’s a lot that can be said about the alpha kids. I do kinda have issues with their dynamics and how they’re written but that doesn’t change the fact that I find them kinda interesting. My reasoning for Jake English being a favorite of mine is simple actually. I think the "double pistols and a wink" thing is badass and it reminds me of my sona. But I would never ever ever kin Jake English I "promise"

Gamzee Makara (Bard of Hope)

He sucks. I know he sucks. He’s awful and I should hate him. He’s the worst. That’s why I love him though. I love the clown bastard. Even if he killed my silly girl Nepeta. I probably shouldn’t like him that much for that reason but he’s such an unapologetically shitty evil murderous character it’s hilarious so I can’t be mad about it. MoThErFuCkInG MiRaClEs

John/June Egbert (Heir of Breath)

No matter what I call them it’s going to leave people upset so I’m just gonna go with John since he’s never been referred to as June or with she/her in any canon media. 

I mean he’s basically the main character of the comic it’s not surprising that I like him lol. As for the June Egbert headcanon, I’m not entirely against it (I’m a trans woman myself) and the fanart of her is really cute but again I don’t think it’s going to amount to anything canon since it’s been like damn near six years and we still haven’t seen anything regarding Egbert’s supposed transition in canon yet. 

Jane Crocker (Maid of Life)

I also had a huge crush on her when I was first getting into Homestuck. Can you tell I have a type? Also like Roxy said I love how she says things like "shucks buster" it’s so cute and also has kinda hijacked my vocabulary and yeah she kinda… has some issues near the end of the comic that are hard to watch to say the least. Still she’s a silly cutie and I’m a big fan of silly cuties

Roxy Lalonde (Rogue of Void)

Gay wine mom who likes cats. She’s living my dream life and I’m jealous. She’s also really pretty and again she likes cats and I like cats so I see a lot of myself in her also I ship her with Jane and Calliope. And speaking of Calliope!

Calliope (Muse of Space)

SHES SO CUTEEE I WANNA HUG HER!!! Her interactions with the alpha kids are so so so sweet ^u^ She’s just such a sweetheart and she deserves the world and then some 

Meulin Leijon (Mage of Heart)

Aside from Aranea, Meenah, and maybe Kankri, the dancestors are a bit overlooked. Meenah and Kurloz are my favorites though because I think their relationship is absolutely adorable!

Aradia Megido (Maid of Time)

She’s very clearly an important character and I like her a lot but she also fell for the most mid man on Alternia. Tragic. She would’ve had goated yuri with literally any of the girls idk. Also her god tier outfit is sick as hell I love it probably my second favorite behind Jade's (Godtier Nepeta would’ve been sick too) Also if we’re talking about Homestuck characters Megalovania is her theme if anyone’s even though it’s most associated with Vriska. 

Dirk Strider (Prince of Heart)

He’s kinda annoying but he has a cool design I think. Ult Dirk is sick as hell also he’s a brony and I think that’s pretty cool. Idk i feel like hes also a bit of a complex one. Not as much as Vriska but I find it kinda hard to talk about him. I suck at talking about most of these characters I just think they’re all kinda cool yknow?? 

Actually im kinda tired i dont feel like continuing this uh goodnight

Song of the Day: Oingo Boingo - Where Do All My Friends Go

all according to keikaku

August 10th 2025

Mannn I'm tired but hey I went  to the mall today and even though I didn't buy anything it was nice to get out of the house for a bit. I was gonna practice driving (because I still don't have my license after four years and haven't been behind the wheel in over two years) but I'm honestly just scared. I don't know how to explain it. I don't know how to get "un-scared" but I hope I can eventually because this is probably pathetic tbh.

I feel good about this upcoming school year, I have two online classes and two in-person classes this semester which kinda makes for an unusual schedule but I think I can handle it hehe. It's just a little strange. 

I need to learn to drive so I can drive myself to college whenever I need to. If all goes according to keikaku (keikaku means plan) I'll have my license by the time I transfer to uni. A lot can change in a year y'know. I need to find that motivation I haven't had for years now, and I need to let go of my fear. It's been hard on me but I think I can do this.

I keep having... odd dreams. They may or may not inspire future MeadowHeart stories. ;) Keep a look-out for that. Trust me. I lowkey fucking suck but I'm gonna deliver some evil shit fr fr. You cannot stop me I am the queen of the harebrained scheming Meadow domain. Teehee.

Seriously, though. I used to have nightmares. Nowadays, my dreams have become strangely adorable and heartfelt. I'm not sure what happened. There's still some...unsettling things happening in my dreams every now and then, but for the most part they're just adorably silly. I definitely don't miss the nightmares I'll say that much. I'm kinda sleeping a lot too, actually.

I definitely need to fix my sleep schedule before I start back to school again...That shouldn't be too difficult though. 

Instagram's new repost feature is pretty cool, even if TikTok did it first. Their map feature is pretty ugh, and Snapchat did it first. I hate Snapchat by the way I only have it because I have a cool username on there, I don't think it would be a good idea to share what my Snapchat username is but trust me my username kicks ass.

Just trust me on that one. hehe... Snapchat sucks though I'm sorry. I feel really silly as of recent I AM the silly girl I don't think I have anything else to say now goodnight probably ehehehe

Song of the Day: of Montreal - A Sentence of Sorts in Kongsvinger

I slept on this album HARDDD. This is peak.

10 days until classes start <3

Media Log 2025 - August 10th:

115. of Montreal - Hissing Fauna, Are You the Destroyer?

2007 Album, Rating: Awesome

This album is awesome, it's always been wild to me that something like this came out in 2007.

Homestuck Anime Real

August 9th 2025

At first I thought it was an out of season April Fools joke but no actually!! Kinda sucks there's no ideal way to read the original webcomic (sure the books are cool but Homestuck really only actually works in the MSPA format) but I'm still excited to see where this goes, even if Vivziepop is behind it. 

I don't really care about Hazbin or Helluva Boss either way. Tried to get into them I don't really like them all that much but it's whatever honestly. I have faith in the Homestuck animated pilot even if it's probably gonna be ass. Also Jade looks cute as hell which isn't a surprise because she always does GAH I LOVE JADE HARLEY HOMESTUCK

Goodnight

Song of the Day: George Clinton - Not Just Knee Deep

Psych ward dance scene core

11 days until sophomore nora

Media Log 2025 - August 9th:

114. Good Burger (1997)

1997 Film, Rating: Magnificent

Yeah it's still really funny, I don't care. Dan Schneider can rot though. 

Picked the worst time to reread Homestuck

August 8th 2025

Sooooo yeah :/ the Unofficial Homestuck Collection was taken down, or is being taken down. Not sure. I downloaded it just in time but still very disappointing news. 

That's all there really is to say on the matter. No offense but I don't understand why Hussie does everything they can to destroy any good will they have in the fanbase. I dunno. 

Anyways I wrote my first proper album review today and it's not very good but I tried.

Nonagon Infinity - Reviewed by Nora Meadow. August 8th 2025

It's been about four years since my first listen, and I'm still just as in love with this as I was then, if not more. This is easily my favorite album from this band, which is no easy feat considering they've put out 27 of these damn things. Even their weakest releases are at least a little enjoyable.

Few albums have stuck with me quite like this one has. It is without a doubt my personal favorite of 2016, maybe even the 2010s as a whole.

There's not a dull moment on here. While I would consider Wah Wah to be the low point of the album, it's still pretty damn great. I'd also like to bring attention to Mr. Beat and Invisible Face, often considered to be some of Nonagon's weaker points, with the former sort of disrupting the flow a bit, I find them to be overlooked bangers. I would even say Mr. Beat is a much-needed break from the chaos of the first four tracks, bringing in a different type of chaos with the missing beats. (get it?) Unorthodox time signatures are nothing new, especially in genres like psychedelic and progressive rock, but this is the first song I've heard that's entirely built around it, with the title even being a tongue-in-cheek nod to it. It's seriously underrated.

Of course, I have to address the elephant in the room, which is the gimmick of this album being essentially "endless," with each track transitioning into the next, with the final track transitioning into the first one. I did not know about this going into the album. I just kept hearing about this band and wanted to listen to what seemed to be their most popular album, but this was a welcome surprise. Even if this wasn't the case, and it was just a standard album that ended properly, I would still think it's an incredible masterpiece, and no amount of poor mixing can change that for me. I'm really glad that this was the album that introduced me to this band, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Song of the Day: King Gizzard - Mr. Beat

mr breast give me money

12 days until nora classes >_<

Media Log 2025 - August 8th:

112. King Gizzard - Nonagon Infinity

2016 Album | Rating: Magnificent

I think I said everything I can about it there. Here's what I wrote about it on Bandcamp though as an added bonus even though it's not saying anything new. "I wish I could hear this again for the first time. Absolutely blew me away. Still a damn masterpiece honestly. NONAGON INFINITY OPENS THE DOOR!"

113. Black Sabbath - Vol. 4

1972 Album | Rating: Awesome

No one did it quite like Ozzy, I'm not sure if I'd rank this above or below Paranoid but just to be safe I'll say below.

1. Sabbath Bloody Sabbath 
2. Paranoid
3. Vol. 4
4. Sabotage
5. Self-Titled
6. Master of Reality

Fruity Rumpus Asshole Factory

August 7th 2025

Homestuck is so fluffing back??? There's a new website called Fruity Rumpus Asshole Factory and it seems pretty cool I signed up for it yesterday and I haven't been on there much but it seems like a pretty active HS fan community.

It's also home to several officially licensed fan projects which is absolutely sick!! I love when creators do stuff like that and actually work with fans and stuff!!

One of said fan projects goes by the name "Burning Down the House" nice Talking Heads reference teehee >w< Also Vast Error is on there, I've been meaning to read Vast Error for a while. First I wanna finish Homestuck again though ehehehe.... Redownloading the Unofficial Homestuck Collection right now, since I never redownloaded it after factory resetting my laptop last year. 

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Meet the Elements

First TMBG song I ever heard, when I was 7 years old.

13 days until classes start? 

Media Log 2025 - August 7th

110. They Might Be Giants - Here Comes Science

2009 Album, [O]kay

I remember it being better, to be honest. Maybe that's because I was a child when I last heard this album. 

111. Café Tacvba - Revés / Yo soy

1999 Album, [G]ood

Pretty cool Mexican experimental rock double album. The second half is definitely better than the first, in my opinion at least.