Tuesday, October 20, 2026

i still miss you though

October 20th 2026

been big into lemon demon recently
i dont have much else to say there yknow just a fork found in a kitchen

i didnt go to school today. I felt too icky about everything. im not sure what my problem is, i need to get my life together

im trying to finish the rest of this semester off stronger 
at this point im just sitting in a room for hours absorbing information about things im vaguely interested in but not sure what im doing
i dug up some old music i would make using some app on my phone. none of it was good but it made me think
what was my goal with this? i was making these to take my mind off of the awful things going on in my life at the time.
around quarantine i slowed down but i wanted to start doing more than messing around with fake instruments for 15 minutes and then posting it online.
it was the perfect time for it but i kinda lost all motivation for some reason. i’d moved onto other things like early creative writing projects that i also didn’t know what i was doing with them but i do know i was having fun
it felt like i had purpose, though
i guess im just trying to find that spark again
none of the stuff i made in the 2019-2021 period was good but i had a drive
my friends were nice
song of the day: the beach boys - let’s go away for a while
If you don’t “get” pet sounds yet, you will. Give it some time. 
38 days until shinola vol. 2. heh. 38. 

Monday, October 19, 2026

dread

October 19th 2026

I am getting older and that scares me.

At least I’ll always have Lemon Demon.


Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Musical Chairs
I’ve always been confused by this song but I like it. 
39 days until Shinola Vol. 2

Sunday, October 18, 2026

i think im okay

October 18th 2026

all clear. pretty sure it’s because i was running on the treadmill when my body isn’t used to that kind of exercise. i shoulda stretched first too

love you.

i love you

much love!!
nora meadow <3

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Say Hey Kid
DON’T IT FEEL GOOD TO DRIVE A BUS? PEOPLE NEED TO GET PICKED UP
40 days until Shinola Vol. 2

Saturday, October 17, 2026

i'm pretty sure it's not cancer though

yknow its weird because i think exmilitary is a lot better than the money store but theyre both 10/10s so why compare the two and at that point shouldnt tms be a 9 and it’s like fuck u the website’s called rateyourmusic thats what im doing. yknow as much as we rightfully bag on rateyourmusic you really gotta respect how straightforward the name is. like when it comes to websites for rating and reviewing media and shit you have albumoftheyear. letterboxd. glitchwave. (rym’s website for video games) imdb to an extent but that ones the internet movie database which is also straight to the point and most people dont really use it for that purpose anyway rather to see who all’s in a movie (so like an internet movie database) you get the picture. then theres rateyourmusic. like yep. no confusion about what that one's for.

pain in my legs and i peed blood this morning. like yeah it’s bad but i’ve been exercising more recently maybe it’s related. i hope it’s not anything severe because i don’t wanna go to the hospital and have invasive shit done to me. i also don’t want to put my parents through a bunch of bullshit just for it to turn out i did something stupid that fucked up my body a bit and it’s all my fault and i should focus on my schoolwork. "i guess we're doin circles now" amirite

like im in college now and im still going through the “i dont understand how this will help me in my life” phase

i have a lot of stupid shit i wanna do i wanna get into radio i wanna make music in the style of lemon demon or talkshow boy singing about the internet and my friends and tell cute stories through music i want to tell stories through all sorts of mediums but im scared it’ll end poorly and i’m too 

i wanna do bedroom pop type music for sure but i also wanna dabble in some darker stuff to satisfy the side of me that’s really into like meaningful deep shit.

but something doesnt have to be serious or dark to be deep. i think most people can understand it so why do i still feel like a propellor hat wearing child when i say i find dinosaurchestra deep.

all art has meaning or purpose behind it. it might not always be pushing a political agenda but like even a bunch of random squiggles were created because “oh i was bored hehe”

“no reason” is an oxymoron because that in of itself is a reason

art is beautiful man idk im parroting shit people have said for thousands of years i just like to sit and think about all the things that mean something to me

also i won a thing today in a raffle today it was a cool shirt and hat not really my style but i like it. I think it’s the lucky cat thing I got in my room. The Chawowow brings luck. I may already be a winner
Pep-Pep Pepperoni Pizza!
Much Love!!
Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Smell Like a Cookie All Day
This one’s weird but enjoyable
41 days until Shinola Vol. 2

Friday, October 16, 2026

my legs hurt now

October 16th 2026

I am so damn good at Fortnite.

Walked on the treadmill some more today. I need to get more exercise that might be why I’m so hellish rn. Whatever, I think I can get my life together. 

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: Aesop Rock - 100 Feet Tall
That Snakefinger sample oh my gah I didn’t know Aes was tapped into dat Residents.
42 days until Shinola Vol. 1


Thursday, October 15, 2026

absolute bullshit ugh

October 15th 2026

TISM is a weird band because everyone I’ve talked to from Australia knows them but I’ve only known like 3 or 4 people outside of Australia who know about them

Also Justice is doing the score for GTA 6 what the hell?!

I hate my computer
gn

Song of the Day: ZUN - Lunatic Eyes ~ Invisible Full Moon
Reisen Udongein Inaba was the original asshole rabbit trans woman. Fuck Jax. 
43 days until yeah

Wednesday, October 14, 2026

SHE GET HIIIIGH

October 14th 2026

Been really into The Doors recently. 

Also been getting into chess again too.
I think it helps my mind stay healthy. I dunno though -_- 

Also I have some thoughts regarding Deadlock’s approach to adding new heroes. While I appreciate every hero in the bunch getting added because they're all really cool I still think things would be way more interesting if they dropped a batch of six characters and were like "ok only four out of these six are getting in and the other two will never see the light of day good luck." There’s just no stakes to it especially at the rate they've been getting added

Much Love!! <3
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: The Doors - Riders on the Storm
Oh my gawwwwwddddd I get it now so peak
44 days until Shinola Vol. 2

Tuesday, October 13, 2026

NONE SHALL PASS.

October 13th 2026

God, I’m so nervous about that essay. I hope I did well :P :3 ^_^ I have my next test soon too

Also I tried playing Deadlock again today and holy shit my ping was so ass. Actually fuckin horrendous, I’m gonna cry. I don’t know why that happened. This is why I don’t play video games much even though I love them. Always some bullshit

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: Aesop Rock - None Shall Pass [2]
Aesop Rock just says shit and it goes hard i think
45 days until Shinola Vol. 2

Monday, October 12, 2026

I survive

October 12th 2026

Today was odd. I’ve been prescribed a new medicine that’s like the stuff I took before, Trazodone. Hopefully it’ll help me out just as much. I feel hopeful. Also I had IHOP for breakfast I love them yayayaya

Gonna try to start getting more exercise too, maybe? I dunno yet. <3 teehee

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: COOL&CREATE - Help Me, Help me, ERINNNNNN!!
I don’t want bottom surgery but if Eirin Yagokoro was my surgeon I’d consider. 
deltarune tomorrow

Sunday, October 11, 2026

that's the dog

10/11: seamus

bewh im tooo tired for it today yawwnnnn wht the hell

god. 
im sorry.

imtrying to write and shit but wtf 

song of the day: pink floyd - seamus
(that’s the dog)
2 days until classes start

Saturday, October 10, 2026

I talk to the wind

October 10th 2026

It’s the 57th anniversary of King Crimson’s In the Court of the Crimson King. One of the first as well as one of the most important albums in prog rock.


My parents came back home. I’m so happy right nowwwww ^.^ goodnight

That’s all I wanted to say today :3 I have homework to do and it’s killing me :(

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: King Crimson - I Talk to the Wind
Just an incredible album all around. This is one of my personal favorites I think
Classes start in 2 days

Friday, October 9, 2026

MSI IS GONE!

October 9th 2026

MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE IS FINALLY OUT OF MY TOP 50 ON LAST.FM GOD BLESS!!!!

I should listen to more They Might Be Giants (I say as if they aren’t my top artist of all time by a longshot) 
I listened to a bunch of Elvis Costello albums today. He’s alright. My Aim Is True and This Year’s Model are still his best albums. 

My parents should be getting home tomorrow I miss them.

The cover for Elvis Costello’s “Imperial Bedroom” fucking sucks man

Also I listen to M.I.A.’s new album today. What a disaster. 

I hate that fucking losercore playlist shit especially even more knowing that the tv girl characters in the AI generated slop videos came from stolen marilevi fanart. 

whatever.

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow<3

Song of the Day: System of a Down - Cigaro
MY COCK IS MUCH BIGGER THAN YOURSS!!!!!!!
4 days until classes start

Thursday, October 8, 2026

I get it now Fleetwood Mac is peak

October 8th 2026

Going thru the Fleetwood Mac discography now. Not the whole thing, just a few notable albums. None of y’all told me they were this good. I mean of course y’all have, it just took me 5 or 6 years to actually listen. 

I’m trying to listen to more new music lately because I haven’t been into it like I used to. I go through phases, ya know? I have so many discographies I need to complete though, aha. I should probably just go at my own pace but idk. 

I still need to listen to that new Weezer album… 
I’ll get to it when I get to it. 

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Fleetwood Mac - Sara
Oh My GODDDDDD they’re so goated. 
5 days until classes start.

Wednesday, October 7, 2026

turn on dat losercore playlist

October 7th 2026

Still working on my next YouTube video. I don’t know when I’m gonna finish it or anything, though. :( I always get sidetracked. 
I found out about this app called Reprised, and it’s like Letterboxd for music. Not in a “Don’t you mean RateYourMusic” way. I mean it’s look very much imitates Letterboxd. Their Instagram account is kinda interesting, though. 

I also kinda wanna start using Tumblr more. Even though I can’t stand most of the userbase there’s some cool things on there. 

Meow

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Hustle Bones
HUSTLE BONES COMIN OUT MY MOUTTHHHHHH
God I love that song so much. 
6 days until classes start. 

Tuesday, October 6, 2026

HAIL BOOGNISH

October 6th 2026

HAPPY TUESDAY.
SHINOLA VOL. 2 WAS ANNOUNCED
HOLY
FUCKING
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT’S COMING OUT FOR RSD BLACK FRIDAY NOVEMBER 27TH
THE BOOGNISH HAS BLESSED US 
The tracklist is interesting too. 
A1. Kim Smoltz
A2. Young Choulin
A3. Britney
A4. She Caught My Fancy
A5. Essex Plaza
A6. Kite Flying Man
B1. Makin’ Love in the Gravy
B2. Planet Fantasy (Horsefly)
B3. Ooh Vah Lah
B4. Hello Johnny
C1. I Wuz Nothing
C2. Opus Fugue Trilogy
C3. The Argus, Pt. 2
C4. Pink Surprise
C5. For So Long
D1. Skycruiser
D2. Put Your Boobs On
D3. The Chancy Boys
D4. Shalom Absalom
D5. You Can Go Shit In Your Hat (Matt)
D6. Weed Whore
D7. The Belvodine

I’m very excited for some of these, mainly I Wuz Nothing and THE ARGUS PART 2?! I know it’s just an older song that Ween made titled Argus that was mislabeled as The Argus Pt. 2 sometimes, but I’m still excited. 

Anyways, that’s all from me.

Song of the Day: Owl City - Fireflies
sorry it’s not ween this time. I had a hard time deciding which Ween song to pick so I was like eh none of em :( 
7 days until classes start.

Monday, October 5, 2026

just creaturing around

October 5th 2026

I am the creature. I am always the creature!!!!!!

I love my mom so much I’m worried abt her though bbluh\
I think she has her surgery today or tomorrow
Hoping for the best for her.

I’m scared…

Anyways, me and ***** are talking again. Not like that. We’ve kinda got a truce now even though I never really recovered from everything and I still feel weird about it. I do believe her when she said that she’s matured though and I hope she’s doing well. 

I feel so cute because I’m the creature rn
just creaturing around

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: sElf - Sassy Britches
ok i take it back this album is really damn good. especially this song. 
Classes start in 8 days!

Sunday, October 4, 2026

bang bang, shoot shoot

October 4th 2026

I’ve been listening to a lot of The Beatles today, man I love their music. I know that’s not a shocker to anyone but yeah. Younger people in 2020-2022 went on a big hate campaign against The Beatles for some reason. I still don’t know what that’s about. 

I don’t like being home alone like this all day, but I can take good care of myself. I just get sad, that’s all. yawn

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Happiness is a Warm Gun
I ended up liking the white album way more than I’d remembered. 
9 days until classes start

Saturday, October 3, 2026

Oh My God, It's Bad Apple!

October 3rd 2026

I got a silly little pony from my friend Twiggy. 
Her name is Bad Apple, and you can see her over on my ToyHouse

Do you guys know that “Oh My God” song? The one by Masta Artisan, also known as the Rap Critic? That song is terrible but I have some history with it. When I was 16 I went through a phase where I would listen to it on repeat while playing World of Warcraft because I thought it was so funny despite how bad it is. I did end up listening to the whole album, and he’s actually a singer when he’s not doing shit like he’s doing on Oh My God. 
It’s still a 3/10 album though. Shit sucks. 

Anyways, that’s all I have to say about that.

Song of the Day: Masta Artisan - Oh My God
Oh my God indeed. 
10 days until classes start. 


Friday, October 2, 2026

I like the beatles

October 2nd 2026

Day 1 of this weird fall break I'm going through

Not much to say, I just listened to The Beatles all day because I like The Beatles

I like The Beatles

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Ticket to Ride
My mom loved playing this one on road trips when I was little, I have so many warm memories attached to it. :)
11 days until classes start.

Thursday, October 1, 2026

Screwy

October 1st 2026

I wish I wasn’t so erratic all the time, I wish everything didn’t feel so fast moving and I wish my brain didn’t make me feel this way.
Depression, ADHD, OCD, and Anxiety is a horrible combo.
I’m working on dealing with it, though. ^^

So, now what?
I’m on Fall Break now, and this is the weirdest Fall Break of my life.
I won’t go into detail, I just feel like I need to take some responsibility in many different aspects of my life.

I’ve been an adult for over 2 years now, but I still don’t feel like it. Maybe this is my ultimate test, though. 
Once I come back I’ll try to salvage my academic performance because I’ve been falling behind like I always do, because my brain just gets so screwy!!! I don’t even know how else to describe what’s going on with me. Just screwy. 

Much Love!!
Nora Meadow <3

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Ana Ng
Can’t believe I haven’t done this one yet.
12 days until classes start.

JD VANCE MORE LIKE THEY/SHE VANCE BITCH

November 4th 2026 I have a lot to say. First off. Crazy to think that Texas went blue, never seen that before in my life. I’m disappointed i...