October 20th 2026
been big into lemon demon recently
i dont have much else to say there yknow just a fork found in a kitchen
i didnt go to school today. I felt too icky about everything. im not sure what my problem is, i need to get my life together
im trying to finish the rest of this semester off stronger
at this point im just sitting in a room for hours absorbing information about things im vaguely interested in but not sure what im doing
i dug up some old music i would make using some app on my phone. none of it was good but it made me think
what was my goal with this? i was making these to take my mind off of the awful things going on in my life at the time.
around quarantine i slowed down but i wanted to start doing more than messing around with fake instruments for 15 minutes and then posting it online.
it was the perfect time for it but i kinda lost all motivation for some reason. i’d moved onto other things like early creative writing projects that i also didn’t know what i was doing with them but i do know i was having fun
it felt like i had purpose, though
i guess im just trying to find that spark again
none of the stuff i made in the 2019-2021 period was good but i had a drive
my friends were nice
song of the day: the beach boys - let’s go away for a while
If you don’t “get” pet sounds yet, you will. Give it some time.
38 days until shinola vol. 2. heh. 38.
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