I'm so smart! ^_^

February 10th 2026

I'm so smart!! I've been studying my Spanish for tomorrow's test! I'm gonna ace this shit let me tell ya. I'm not going to give up I'm going to try to reach out to Financial Aid tomorrow because I've only got 2 or 3 more days to do it. I should probably try to do it tonight actually, I just couldn't find the office last night. I have so much stuff I need to do I need to get on my shit. My future is in my hands and I'm not gonna give up.

"There is no way I can win, I won't give up and that's my only sin!" in the words of 16 year old Neil Cicierega.

I love Lemon Demon's older stuff so much. I have a lot of nostalgia for Lemon Demon in general because I was really into his music when I was around 13 or so and I kinda miss being 13, I have a lot of regrets from 8th grade thanks to covid. That was almost 7 years ago and I need to let it go at this point, maybe there will be a resolution between me and that friend I talked about someday but for now there's not much I can do. But back to Lemon Demon, people call his first 2 albums mid or whatever and while I'm on the fence about them myself I have to admit they do have some bangers. Boat, the one I just quoted is a good example. I also really like Destructo, Mold En Mono, Switzerland, etc. These are all from what's considered his worst album, Live From the Haunted Candle Shop, It's my least favorite album of his too, like a 6/10 for me but I still really like it. I'd be lying if I said I didn't. 

Clown Circus is another one that doesn't get a lot of love or appreciation, Don't Be Like the Sun was Neil's first song under the Lemon Demon alias he made when he was 16 and while it definitely shows, I still think it's a banger. Hyakugojyuuichi 2003 is of course iconic although I could do without Shmorky's part and that's not even because Shmorky is a terrible person, their part just kinda derails the song I feel. I remember hearing it and being like "who the hell is this shmorky fella" then I googled them and went down an insane rabbit hole. I know the Shmorky = Stonetoss theory was disproven but I still think it's really funny. 

I have so much bullshit from 2022 in my Instagram archive I've been cleaning out recently, I was such a weird 16 year old. There's a lot of interesting MeadowHeart lore prototype ideas here that I should show y'all, and maybe I will. We'll see ;)

Song of the Day: Nine Inch Nails - Only

My first exposure to this song was a meme of the tbh creature dancing to it.

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