Wednesday, December 31, 2025

It's almost over

December 31st 2025

2025 is almost over, honestly relieved. This was a 2/10 year, I’m not doing the whole every song of the day thing but whatever.

here’s every song of the month though, and then I’ll choose song of the year

January: Supertramp - Breakfast in America
February: The Beach Boys - Good Vibrations
March: David Bowie - Five Years
April: The Doors - Alabama Song
May: Supertramp - Child of Vision
June: Oingo Boingo - Whole Day Off
July: Lemon Demon - What Will Happen Will Happen
August: They Might Be Giants - Pet Name
September: Nirvana - Lithium
October: Sidney Gish - Impostor Syndrome
November: Falco - Rock Me Amadeus
December: Marina - Oh No!

Song of the Year is… BREAKFAST IN AMERICA BY SUPERTRAMP!

Song of the Day: Pixies - Here Comes Your Man
ugh. 

Tuesday, December 30, 2025

friends with you

December 30th 2025

So, Something just unfolded, and it’s kinda confusing.
Just bear with me here.
I decided to check out this acquaintance from school’s new animation on YouTube and I decided to leave a positive comment and I’m pretty sure that cool person from my film class who I wanted to befriend but was too shy and nervous to was in the comments section, hehe…
i decided to reply to their comment but I don’t really know where to go from there, I complimented their profile picture because interestingly enough them and I have very similar pfps on YouTube! ^_^

I have hope for this friendship that I’ve been trying to find the courage to start for over four months, I’m just kind of in an odd position because my nervousness in regards to other people and socializing them has made this more awkward than it needs to be. I was thinking about just reaching out with an Instagram DM along the lines of “hey we had a class together and i wanted to say hi for a while but im really nervous and shy around people and i couldnt get the courage to talk to you in person but you seem really cool and nice and i wanna get to know you more” Well obviously not those exact words but something like that I wanted to do that but I keep getting scared and backing out. I don’t want to come across and weird or creepy, it’s just me being honest and wanting to be friends with someone. I just simply do not understand why all of this messes with my head so much!!!!

regardless the youtube comments thing was a step in the right direction but seriously what are the odds??? Lmao… 

Song of the Day: Devo - Uncontrollable Urge
I will never understand how this band ended up being perceived as a one hit wonder all of a sudden because they’re objectively no

Monday, December 29, 2025

I liked that

December 29th 2025


watched dogma today, pretty good. Incredible cast and the whole idea of the film is relevant to this day more than ever. I have to say though, I probably would’ve liked it better when I was 16. Probably would’ve even been in my top 5. Still good though. I need to rewatch Clerks  

surely you jest
Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Soulja Boy - Kiss Me Thru the Phone
Not enough people talk about how eccentric Soulja Boy’s career has been ever since it started. A lot of it is him scamming people in bizarre elaborate ways but eccentric nonetheless

Sunday, December 28, 2025

customcast

December 28th 2025

reinstalled customcast
made myself a new avatar for my carrd :3
 



I
i think shes pretty cute!!! ^_^


much love!!! <3
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Marvelous Sunday - Marvelous Sunday Time
a marvelous sunday to end a special week!
Tags: umamusume

Saturday, December 27, 2025

nervous

December 27th 2025

gonna try and overcome my nervousness today ive got this ive got this ive got this im stepping out of my comfort zone >.<


Song of the Day: That Handsome Devil - Savages
pretty sure i was listening to this when i realized i was trans back in 2020, not sure 

Friday, December 26, 2025

volume 2 was whatever

December 26th 2025


i dont rlly have much to say about it, i just didnt care for volume 2 of stranger things season 5.

the Human Cannonball needledrop was sick as hell tho

Song of the Day: Butthole Surfers - Human Cannonball
sigh 

Thursday, December 25, 2025

Christmas 2025

 December 25th 2025
 
It's Christmas!!! ^w^ This was a pretty exciting one, I got a Switch 2! ^^ I was gonna wait for more interesting exclusives to come out, because the only one I was super interested in was Kirby Air Riders but it’s alright. I got Pokémon Legends Z-A for it, the Switch 2 version that is. Which is cool…
 
I got a Steam gift card, which I bought the Gunfire Reborn DLC with, as well as Blazblue Cross Tag Battle.
 
I got some gifts from friends as well!!
* Dispatch (Thank you, lilorangefella <3)
* Zero Escape The Nonary Games (Thank you, AlkyoneAoide ^w^)
* Touhou Mystia’s Izakaya (Thank you, Keiko >w<)
 
I also got my new favorite shirt ever the They Might Be Giants Homestar Runner crossover shirt, as you all know Homestar Runner and TMBG are two of my favorite things ever so hehehehehe
 
Other stuff I’m getting that isn’t here yet
- Umamusume Trading Cards
- Pinkerton CD
- Lincoln CD
- Kirby Air Riders
 
I also got comfy snoopy pajamas I’m wearing right now >:3
 
This was a good Christmas ^w^ 
Nora Meadow
 
Song of the Day: AJR - Thirsty
Christmas on a #ThirstyThirstyThursday? Surely You Jest!

Wednesday, December 24, 2025

Decemberweeve

December 24th 2025

It’s Decemberweeve, and also my beautiful girl Nermal's 6th birthday. Yes, my daughter is a cat, yes it’s painfully cringe to call your cat your child but she is incredibly important to me almost on the level that a child would be, notice how I said almost. 
 
So we celebrated Christmas early, on Christmas Eve night instead of Christmas morning, I got some cool shit actually but it would probably be more fitting to talk about it tomorow instead of tonight, ya know? ^w^
 
Happy birthday to my lovely young lady Nermal Frosty Eve Lastname. Happy holidays to all my lovely readers and otherwise, and goodnight.
 
Much Love!! <3
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Santa's Beard
It’s basically just “I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus” from the dad’s perspective. Revolutionary really.

Tuesday, December 23, 2025

"Every morning that I wake, I want to sleep."

December 23rd 2025 

I honestly do not know what I am going to do, this is truly terrifying for me. I apologize for how much I’ve fucked up >_< I’m just sad about it now.
I desperately need a hug I’m unable to stop crying lately…
 
Much Love!! <3
Nora Meadow
 
Song of the Day: Antony Kos - Calamity Falls Quietly
Every morning that I wake, I want to sleep. 

Monday, December 22, 2025

i try to call you everyday

December 22nd 2025


It just hit me, I'm trying to call them every day and I'm rehearsing what to say! Lol... whatever. I'll have it figured out :P byebye loves <3

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Touch-Tone Telephone
Another repeat, oops. Felt appropriate though. It’s also been nearly three years so it’s fine.

Sunday, December 21, 2025

I'm so eepy

December 21st 2025

 I’m just sad and idk what to do about uh. Recent events.


I just yaaaawnnnnn
I’m gonna call tomorrow and figure out what the hell my problem is!!!! Yippee!!!! 

just what an awful year its been. I’m ready for it to be over.
goodnight

Song of the Day: The Scary Jokes - No Leverage / No Pleasure
This album speaks to me like few other albums do. 

Saturday, December 20, 2025

hehe kitty :3

December 20th 2025


I love my kitties so much ^w^ they're the sweetest little angel babies ever.
been getting hardcore into Cookie Run again, very fun game. I get it now. My team looks like this:

Cherry Blossom Cookie / Alchemist Cookie / Sugarfly Cookie / Cream Soda Cookie / Strawberry Crepe Cookie

I'm still pretty new

Song of the Day: Kate Bush - Somewhere in Between
20 years after her most popular album and she still got it.

Friday, December 19, 2025

Cardiacs Never Miss

December 19th 2025

I listened to the new cardiacs album, their first in 26 years. Uh yeah, it’s pretty good. It’s no A Little Man and a House and the Whole World Window, but I still think it’s good.

I still don’t know what’s going on with my school stuff but I’ll get it situated. No matter what happens I’m gonna be okie dokie! ^_^

 

Song of the Day: Cardiacs - Woodeneye
yo momma got a woodeneye with a fish tank

Thursday, December 18, 2025

Never Back Down, Never Give Up!

December 18th 2025

I think I have a fighting chance! This wasn't an entirely ideal outcome, but as Thundercat once said, "It Is What It Is." It appears that I'm going to be on academic probation, which just means I really really have to get my GPA back up next semester. Deja vu, I know... I've had a rough start in college, but I promise I'm not stupid or incapable, just kinda spiraling trying to figure out what direction I want to take my life. 

Speaking of funny albums I enjoy, I listened to Sing to God for the first time since 2021. I remember being 15 and calling it the most wtf album I'd ever heard, it's up there for sure. Just interesting that I called it that because at this point I'd already heard a third of The Residents' studio discography, as well as Five Starcle Men's Gomba Reject Ward Japan. Either way, always a good song when I check the reviews of an album on RateYourMusic and the most recent one opens with "There is a society of bugs living among us."
Also I'm not doing the media log for the rest of the year because I lost track, I'll open it back up next year for sure though pinky promise.

I'm always looking for ways I can improve this journal, especially given the fact that it's a daily thing I'm doing. :P

That's gonna be all from me tonight, goodnight friends!

Much Love,
Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Christmas Will Be Soon
Just a week away!

Wednesday, December 17, 2025

Still holding onto hope

December 17th 2025

I'm not gonna stop holding onto hope, it's not looking like it's going to be an easy fix but fingers crossed.
I really need to change something in my life, maybe I need to make more friends irl because that was a big reason for my depression. I definitely have friends irl but I hardly had any in college and definitely none I had classes with. I still want to try to reach out to that cool person from my film class, I found them on Instagram so who knows!! I'm definitely gonna try to reach out here in a bit, but it's not gonna matter what's done is done. It's not even about that anymore I just wish I had some friends in my classes, maybe next semester if there is a next semester.

Whatever.

Song of the Day: Jack Stauber - John & Nancy
We got Stranger Things 5 volume 2 in a little over a week #nervous. 

Tuesday, December 16, 2025

It's not over!

December 16th 2025

I called the school today, I’m gonna have to reach out to the Spanish professor and explain to her that I was trying my best to attend, and as long as she changes my grade to having attended, even if it’s just an F, I’ll just be on academic probation again and I’ll have to retake the classes but I won’t lose my financial aid.

It sucks that I’ve been struggling this hard in college, and I promise I’m not stupid. I don’t know how I can prove I’m not a dumb asshole at this point. But at least it’s somewhat salvageable.  I’ve been resilient, more resilient than I should be. This is all my fault but I still want one last chance to fix everything. I don’t know how else to make this right but my future is on the line here and I don’t even want to consider the alternatives because this world is seldom kind to people with my ailments. Honest to God I’ll do anything in my power at this point because I’m tired of my own idiotic mistakes ruining everything. I want to fix this, I’m going to fix this. Next semester, if there is a next semester. I’m going to stay prepared, I’m going to stay ahead of everything instead of “worrying about things when they become problems.” I’m going to save my future 

Much Love,
Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Will Wood - Tomcat Disposables
makes me cry like a little bitch
 

Monday, December 15, 2025

December 15th 2025


dont wanna talk about it

Ya girl is fucked,
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Logan Whitehurst - Whole Day Off
i miss him so much

Sunday, December 14, 2025

christmas soon

December 14th 2025


I'm lowkey excited for christmas I’m working on my christmas list ^_^ uhh what else

yeah ive kinda been on a weird sleep schedule :/ oh well uh >.< 

idk what else to talk about right now im just praying my shit isnt fucked up


Much Love,
Nora Meadow!! <3
 

Song of the Day: The B-52’s - Love Shack
hell yes.

Saturday, December 13, 2025

bye bye

December 13th 2025


Considering deleting Tumblr and Twitter, they're kinda bad for my mental health. I'm good at posting bangers on there and there are some funny people on there but they're both cesspool websites of making excuses for the most depraved evil bullshit ever, I might go back when my mental health is better but I think I'm gonna just log off both of those sites for a bit. Not sure yet

Song of the Day: "Weird Al" Yankovic - The Night Santa Went Crazy
Had to get into the Christmas spirit a bit. 

Friday, December 12, 2025

who give a fuck

December 12th 2025


time's person of the year is fucking AI. 

lol.

why do i even continue to try?

god dammit

Song of the Day: The Presidents of the United States of America - Some Postman
I HATE MAIL!!!!

Thursday, December 11, 2025

I guess that's the end.

 December 11th 2025

Finished my last final, I really hope I don't lose my financial aid. 
Next semester I have a plan. Next semester is going to be better.
I also didn't get a chance to befriend that cool person from my film class.
I wish I wasn't so awkward when it came to talking to people
I might never get a chance now.
Dammit.
No reason to apologize now, but I'm sorry.
I think I found them on Instagram so maybe I'll get up the courage to say hi.
Ugh....

Song of the Day: The Incredible Moses Leroy - Fuzzy
This song makes me feel things I'm not entirely sure how to explain. 

Wednesday, December 10, 2025

More studying!! >w

December 10th 2025

More studying today, Don't have time to talk!! Hopefully this is good, I don't like microsoft word... UGH!!!! >_<

Song of the Day: KATSEYE - Gnarly
I don't even know who theya re I just like the song. 

Tuesday, December 9, 2025

ok

 December 9th 2025

studying day goodbye





Much Love,
Nora Meadow!! <3

Song of the Day: Denzel Curry - ULT
yeah

Monday, December 8, 2025

Marvel Rivals

December 8th 2025

I’ve been playing Marvel Rivals quite a bit. Very fun game. Right now I main Squirrel Girl and Blade, but Peni is also super cute!! >.< 

Did y’all know Ultron in Marvel Rivals and George Bush in the JibJab videos have the same voice actor? Pretty interesting!

Also been studying for finals on and off here. I guess there’s nothing more I can do about the two online classes, but hey I tried. Let’s hope I still have a next semester to make up for it.

Much love,
Nora Meadow!! <3 

Song of the Day: The Residents - Constantinople
Also been hardcore hyperfixating on them just a lil bit. 

Sunday, December 7, 2025

slept most of the day

December 7th 2025


i slept most of the day. I’m just sad and depressed, but I kinda needed it. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I just need to have some purpose. I still believe I’ve found my purpose but it’s not like this cruel world is ever going to let me cook. Shouldn’t stop me from trying though, ya know? No matter what happens I just need to take deep breaths and trust myself, to not give up, to keep my spirit burning.
 


Much Love <3
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Here Comes the Sun
i love the beables :3 

Saturday, December 6, 2025

The Worst Family Guy Cutaway Gag

December 6th 2025

Sneakers O'Toole is Family Guy's worst cutaway gag. "That's like getting Sneakers O'Toole to take off his sneakers." Sneakers O'Toole is a character made up entirely for this gag. There could've been a thousand other ways to make this exact same joke, but they felt the need to make a reference that nobody gets because it's not a reference to anything. It's fucking stupid.

Surely You Jest,
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Neutral Milk Hotel - Holland, 1945
It's a good song idk

Friday, December 5, 2025

fucked up my last chance

December 5th 2025


I don’t know what the fuck I did wrong.
i only feel safe when i’m asleep
It’s weird, it’s embarrassing, but it’s the point I’m at.
you dont even want to know where im almost at.


one half dead and one half quality XwX
Nora Meadow 

Song of the Day: of Montreal - Gallery Piece
if nobody got me at least of montreal got me

Thursday, December 4, 2025

ughj

December 4th 2025


I get so tired all the time now.


I don't wanna talk about it


bye


Song of the Day: Devo - Girl U Want
Always hate it when people call them a one-hit wonder.

Wednesday, December 3, 2025

wrapped

December 3rd 2025

I think I've made it clear  how I feel about Spotify as a platform and their recent business practices in this year's blog posts. But yeah, I intend on ditching them when I get the chance. For now though, I figured why not look back at my interesting music moments of this year.

89,239 minutes. 61 days of listening.

Top Genres (out of 442)
  1. College Rock
  2. New Wave
  3. Comedy Rock
  4. Hip Hop
  5. Dark Cabaret
Listening age: 55 years old. (That's how old my mom is. Interesting.)

My top 100 songs
  1. "Weird Al" Yankovic - The Weird Al Show Theme
  2. Oingo Boingo - Whole Day Off
  3. Supertramp - Breakfast in America
  4. They Might Be Giants - Birdhouse In Your Soul
  5. John Linnell - South Carolina
  6. Self - Miracle Worker
  7. Smash Mouth - Padrino
  8. They Might Be Giants - It's Not My Birthday
  9. Broadway Homestuck - Moonlight Tsundere
  10. MGMT - Little Dark Age
  11. Oingo Boingo - Pictures of You
  12. Logan Whitehurst - Whole Day Off
  13. Supertramp - The Logical Song
  14. They Might Be Giants - Kiss Me Son of God
  15. Self - Trunk Fulla Amps
  16. They Might Be Giants - Don't Let's Start
  17. They Might Be Giants - They'll Need a Crane
  18. They Might Be Giants - Ana Ng
  19. They Might Be Giants - Spider
  20. They Might Be Giants - Purple Toupee
  21. They Might Be Giants - Damn Good Times
  22. They Might Be Giants - She's An Angel
  23. Oingo Boingo - Dead Man's Party
  24. They Might Be Giants - I Palindrome I
  25. They Might Be Giants - The Statue Got Me High
  26. Elvis Costello - I Don't Want To Go To Chelsea
  27. They Might Be Giants - Rhythm Section Want Ad
  28. Self - I Am A Little Explosion
  29. They Might Be Giants - Istanbul
  30. They Might Be Giants - I've Got a Match
  31. Oingo Boingo - Just Another Day
  32. The Offspring - You're Gonna Go Far, Kid
  33. They Might Be Giants - Put Your Hand Inside the Puppet Head
  34. They Might Be Giants - Your Racist Friend
  35. Oingo Boingo - Same Man I Was Before
  36. They Might Be Giants - Lie Still, Little Bottle
  37. They Might Be Giants - Nothing's Gonna Change My Clothes
  38. Self - Dead Man
  39. They Might Be Giants - Another First Kiss
  40. Billy Joel - Movin' Out (Anthony's Song)
  41. Self - Pattycake
  42. They Might Be Giants - The End of the Tour
  43. Supertramp - Take The Long Way Home
  44. Oingo Boingo - Stay
  45. Helen Love - Shifty Disco Girl
  46. They Might Be Giants - Where Your Eyes Don't Go
  47. They Might Be Giants - Sapphire Bullets of Pure Love
  48. Self - What a Fool Believes
  49. They Might Be Giants - I Should Be Allowed to Think
  50. They Might Be Giants - Lucky Ball and Chain
  51. The Doors - Alabama Song
  52. Oingo Boingo - Fool's Paradise
  53. Oingo Boingo - Weird Science
  54. They Might Be Giants - It's Kickin' In
  55. Tom Lehrer - The Masochism Tango (RIP)
  56. Self - I Love To Love Your Love My Love
  57. They Might Be Giants - AKA Driver
  58. They Might Be Giants - I Hope That I Get Old Before I Die
  59. Oingo Boingo - Good For Your Soul
  60. Beastie Boys - Shake Your Rump
  61. Self - Ordinaire
  62. They Might Be Giants - Sleeping in the Flowers
  63. They Might Be Giants - The World's Address 
  64. Oingo Boingo - No One Lives Forever
  65. Will Wood - Against the Kitchen Floor
  66. Oingo Boingo - Glory Be
  67. They Might Be Giants - Rabid Child
  68. They Might Be Giants - Snail Shell
  69. Lemon Demon - Fine
  70. Black Sheep - The Choice Is Yours (Revisited)
  71. "Weird Al" Yankovic - Bohemian Polka
  72. Oingo Boingo - Ain't This The Life
  73. Sega Sound Team - Believe in Myself - Ver.2
  74. Bryan Scary - Heaven on a Bird
  75. LDRR - Mangos Tiktok Version
  76. They Might Be Giants - Hey, Mr. DJ, I Thought You Said We Had a Deal
  77. They Might Be Giants - Snowball in Hell
  78. Mono Puff - Unsupervised, I Hit My Head
  79. They Might Be Giants - We Want a Rock
  80. They Might Be Giants - Road Movie to Berlin
  81. Oingo Boingo - Heard Somebody Cry
  82. Fiona Apple - Paper Bag
  83. They Might Be Giants - Stuff is Way
  84. They Might Be Giants - Destination Moon
  85. They Might Be Giants - Mr. Me
  86. They Might Be Giants - The Guitar
  87. The Scary Jokes - Icicles
  88. Oingo Boingo - Grey Matter
  89. They Might Be Giants - Whistling in the Dark
  90. Oingo Boingo - Only a Lad
  91. Elton John - I Think I'm Going To Kill Myself
  92. Lou Bega - Mambo No. 5
  93. Oingo Boingo - Who Do You Want To Be
  94. Chappell Roan - Hot To Go
  95. Ween - Tried and True
  96. Self - 5 Alive
  97. Self - Hi, My Name's Cindy
  98. They Might Be Giants - Out of Jail
  99. They Might Be Giants - I'm Impressed
  100. They Might Be Giants - No One Knows My Plan
My top 5 albums
  1. Lincoln (They Might Be Giants)
  2. Flood (They Might Be Giants)
  3. Gizmodgery (Self)
  4. John Henry (They Might Be Giants)
  5. Apollo 18 (They Might Be Giants)
Top 5 Artists
  1. They Might Be Giants (0.003% global fan)
  2. Oingo Boingo
  3. Lemon Demon
  4. "Weird Al" Yankovic
  5. Self
165th top listener of They Might Be Giants globally. This is the 5th year in a row they've claimed the top spot of my wrapped.




Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Birdhouse In Your Soul
First repeat that’s actually intentional and I won’t be going back on. Legitimately just my favorite song of all time.

Tuesday, December 2, 2025

no response

December 2nd 2025


Tried to get in touch with my Spanish professor and she said she wasn't available in person today so I asked if 5:00 was alright and I never got a response bluuuhh whatever I'm gonna get all this shit done regardless.


I wanted to talk to that cool person from my film class today but I couldn't get up the courage. I've been trying for 3+ months and I need to hurry up and just rip the bandaid off before it's too late. They seem nice but I wouldn't know unless I talk to them!


Much Love <3
Nora Meadow


Song of the Day: Fiona Apple - Paper Bag
I need to listen to the full album when I get the chance, remind me chat. 

Monday, December 1, 2025

Oh No!

December 1st 2025

I have a good plan mapped out for the future, regardless of what happens. Hopefully I don't screw it up like always... >:P 

Gonna schedule a meeting with the professor and explain everything to her, hopefully we can both work something out and come to a mutual agreement. I feel good! 

I'm also gonna start making connections before I end up leaving this school behind. I have one semester left after this, if that. We'll see.

I feel cute and I feel awesome I'm so goated.

Happy Motherfluffin December!

I just wanna change. 

"I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I WANT AND WHO I WANT TO BE
I KNOW EXACTLY WHY I WALK AND TALK LIKE A MACHINE
I'M NOW BECOMING MY OWN SELF-FULFILLED PROPHECY
OH! OH NO! OH NO! OH NO, OH!"
- Marina Diamandis

Much Love <3
Nora Meadow

Song of the Day: Marina - Oh No!
I'm too old to be listening to music and being like "she's the only one who understands..."  BUT DAMN THIS SONG IS JUST LIKE MY LIFE... in a way.

Sunday, November 30, 2025

Complete Umamusume Ranking!

 November 30th 2025

  1. Curren Chan
  2. Matikanefukukitaru
  3. Agnes Digital
  4. Rice Shower
  5. Biko Pegasus
  6. Haru Urara
  7. Seiun Sky
  8. Aston Machan
  9. Meisho Doto
  10. Zenno Rob Roy
  11. Marvelous Sunday
  12. Agnes Tachyon
  13. Fine Motion
  14. Curren Bouquetd'or
  15. T.M. Opera O
  16. Smart Falcon
  17. Gold Ship
  18. Matikanetannhauser
  19. Transcend
  20. Wonder Acute
  21. Nishino Flower
  22. Rhein Kraft
  23. Lucky Lilac
  24. Samson Big
  25. Mihono Bourbon
  26. Royce and Royce
  27. Biwa Hayahide
  28. Chrono Genesis
  29. Sakura Chiyono O
  30. Sakura Chitose O
  31. Daiichi Ruby
  32. Tanino Gimlet
  33. Vodka
  34. Daiwa Scarlet
  35. Neo Universe
  36. Manhattan Cafe
  37. Ikuno Dictus
  38. Bubble Gum Fellow
  39. Espoir City
  40. El Condor Pasa
  41. Calstone Light O
  42. Eishin Flash
  43. Inari One
  44. Fusaichi Pandora
  45. Tosen Jordan
  46. Gold City
  47. Taiki Shuttle
  48. Nice Nature
  49. Dream Journey
  50. Gentildonna
  51. Sounds of Earth
  52. Kawakami Princess
  53. Sweep Tosho
  54. Cheval Grand
  55. Loves Only You
  56. Air Shakur
  57. Win Variation
  58. Jungle Pocket
  59. Red Desire
  60. Believe
  61. Almond Eye
  62. Shinko Windy
  63. Yukino Bijin
  64. Air Messiah
  65. Narita Taishin
  66. Grass Wonder
  67. Oguri Cap
  68. Admire Groove
  69. Stay Gold
  70. Mejiro Bright
  71. Tap Dance City
  72. Nakayama Festa
  73. Fuji Kiseki
  74. Kitasan Black
  75. Cesario
  76. Hishi Miracle
  77. Sakura Bakushin O
  78. Special Week
  79. Daring Heart
  80. Tokai Teio
  81. Mejiro Ardan
  82. Maruzensky
  83. Narita Top Road
  84. North Flight
  85. Bamboo Memory
  86. Narita Brian
  87. Silence Suzuka
  88. Daring Tact
  89. Satono Crown
  90. Hishi Amazon
  91. Furioso
  92. Katsuragi Ace
  93. Tamamo Cross
  94. Satono Diamond
  95. Mejiro Ryan
  96. Durandal
  97. Still In Love
  98. Seeking the Pearl
  99. Blast Onepiece
  100. Ines Fujin
  101. Sakura Laurel
  102. Mejiro Ramonu
  103. Mr. C.B. 
  104. K.S. Miracle
  105. Buena Vista
  106. Symboli Kris S
  107. Dantsu Flame
  108. Copano Rickey
  109. Hokko Tarumae
  110. Gran Alegria
  111. Mejiro McQueen
  112. Winning Ticket
  113. Verxina
  114. Daitaku Helios
  115. Twin Turbo
  116. Vivlos
  117. King Halo
  118. Mejiro Dober
  119. Yaeno Muteki
  120. Tsurumaru Tsuyoshi
  121. Duramente
  122. No Reason
  123. Admire Vega
  124. Yamanin Zephyr
  125. Symboli Rudolf
  126. Hishi Akebono
  127. Air Groove
  128. Mejiro Palmer
  129. Sirius Symboli
  130. Fenomeno
  131. Orfevre
  132. Super Creek
  133. Mayano Top Gun
Song of the Day: Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
Story of Undertale? NO!!! Leather Pants.

Saturday, November 29, 2025

I'm scared honestly

November 29th 2025

This is killing me. This is why it hurts so much. I’m scared I’ve already screwed up past the point of return. I’m sorry, I just want things to get better but I truly don’t know what I’m doing. I’m like a lost puppy.

Song of the Day: Max Coveri - Running in the 90s
100 million streams on Spotify, half of those might be me 🤭 kidding. 

Friday, November 28, 2025

rough

November 28th 2025

I just sleep or lay in bed and cry all day. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore I want to get some shit done but I just feel so disgusting and horrible nowadays.

:( I’m sorry everyone.
 

I’m gonna get this under control.

Song of the Day: Da Vinci’s Notebook - Another Irish Drinking Song
TRUE!

Thursday, November 27, 2025

not so thanks-giving? close enough

November 27th 2025


this has just been a disaster of a year for me mentally i cant even celebrate anything anymore
it’s all just so much

I just sleep most days because thats all I feel comfortable doing
 


whatever

Song of the day: Eminem - Fack
This was the first song on his greatest hits compilation. A new song he recorded specifically for it. Imagine being an Eminem fan in 2005 buying that shit turning it on and this being the first thing you hear. One of the greatest trolling moves of all time to be honest.

Wednesday, November 26, 2025

My favorite horseys

November 26th 2025

top 16 horsey 

  1. Curren Chan
  2. Matikanefukukitaru
  3. Agnes Digital
  4. Rice Shower
  5. Biko Pegasus
  6. Haru Urara
  7. Seiun Sky
  8. Aston Machan
  9. Meisho Doto
  10. Zenno Rob Roy
  11. Fine Motion
  12. Marvelous Sunday
  13. Curren Bouquetd’or
  14. Agnes Tachyon
  15. T.M. Opera O
  16. Smart Falcon
I’m going to make a complete horsey ranking eventually but there’s like 130 it’s a little difficult yknow

Song of the Day: Scissor Sisters - Intermission
I’m lowkey crazy about this song billions must listen

Tuesday, November 25, 2025

bweeehhh

November 25th 2025

i got a cute haircut but im not showing yall because im evil >_<


I need to get this homework bullshit done if I can pull through and not fail this other class I might be ok for the forseeable future. I promise I’m not stupid btw I just struggle with a lot of things and I get mentally overwhelmed often and it causes me to shut down kinda. :/

song of the day: The Clash - Rock the Casbah
shawty dont like it lock the taskbar 🗣️🗣️ 

Monday, November 24, 2025

He's still got it

November 24th 2025

my glorious king strong bad you’ve returned oh how I missed you.

Strong Bad Emails are like my personal Super Bowl, except they’re a once every four years event. So it’s actually more like a personal World Cup. I’m a newgen fan even tho I’ve been a fan for years now but still like 72% of sbemails came out before I was even born soooo >.<


but yeah, the new one was really good. Wish these weren’t such a rare occurrence these days 🥱 

 

i’d say something about being born in the wrong generation but thats corny. Good thing I was born on the cob. I was born in the wrong generation I miss you Strong Bad.

Song of the Day: Strong Bad - Everybody to the Limit
EVERYBODY COME ON FHQWHGADS!

Sunday, November 23, 2025

I don't really want to talk

November 23rd 2025

sorry. It’s all so nerve-wracking. I’m sorry. 


song: Frankie Goes to Hollywood - Relax
Overrated song but at least when Bloodhound Gang sampled it they made it work

Saturday, November 22, 2025

more community service

November 22nd 2025


ya girl got more community service for college done :P ayayayayyaa
i will not fuck this up #blessed

Song of the Day: Falco - Rock Me Amadeus 
they lowkey stole this shit from planet of the apes fucked up 

Friday, November 21, 2025

I'm back on YouTube!

November 21st 2025

I uploaded my Umamusume parody video to YouTube. It’s my first upload in three years! I last uploaded before this journal thing even started! :O 
 


 

Song of the Day: Woody Guthrie - This Land Is Your Land
JibJab meme aside, it’s a really good song with a good message.

Thursday, November 20, 2025

oh goodness

November 20th 2025


No class today so I’m just gonna sit here do some homework and make shitty memes. I’m back on TikTok and it’s kinda fun actually…There’s a lot to be said about tt and most of it isn’t positive but I’m having a bit of fun

I’m making umamusume shitposts because I like horsey!

Agnes Digital is out globally and she’s such a cutie she’s definitely going in S Tier on my new horsey ranking

Song of the Day: Ween - I’m In The Mood To Move
I’m in the mood to eat scarabs and shrimp, God Dammit.

Wednesday, November 19, 2025

Because I'm Awesome!

November 19th 2025


gonna get all ts shit done on jah im chillin im having fun and im making time for my work

fuuuuck i gotta figure some shit out too
>~<


uh

damn

idk i can do this

Song of the Day: John Linnell - Louisiana
Should’ve been on the final album

Tuesday, November 18, 2025

Best sleep I've had all year

November 18th 2025


I don’t usually get very good sleep anymore but I feel well rested after last night. Honestly? I feel pretty damn good. I’m gonna try to be friends. With the people I want to be friends with!!!! I already feel like my thoughts are less scattered and erratic and I can understand myself better.

Song of the Day: Vince Staples - Norf Norf
The video of the Christian mom singing this while crying. I kindaaa understand where she’s coming from but she coulda just changed the station 

Monday, November 17, 2025

uh meow

November 17th 2025

I dunno man, I’ve been feeling cute as hell recently. i dont think i hsve much else to talk about i do feel cute and silly and im gonna try to get some #sleep tonighttt

song of the day: Tom Jones - It’s Not Unusual
I still think about that salt and pepper diner story

Sunday, November 16, 2025

applejits was evil

November 16th 2025


Went to applebees for dinner today, wasn’t all that great of an experience… :/ oh well
I’m kinda relieved that Spanish class is letting us go at our own pace, since I have a lot of work piled up that I need to finish…
I think the first step to improving my life and mood is fixing my dog ass sleep schedule, but who knows really.
 

Song of the day: Sohodolls - Mayday
I adore this song so hard bruh

Saturday, November 15, 2025

Putin was "fujoshing out"

November 15th 2025

Well, I don't know where to start with the Trump stuff. I think they're using this whole "He blew Bill Clinton" thing to distract from the underage girls tbh. This shit sounds fabricated as hell, it sounds like a distraction. I dunno man, I guess the idea of it is kinda funny. Putin was fujoshing out or something. 

It's also kinda funny in a horrible way how they basically have nothing left to distract us with, so now they're using the files to distract us from the files. That's definitely something, hm? 

At this point, you cannot convince me that Donald Trump isn't a pedophile. 70 million people voted for a pedophile. Also don't forget how Kamala had a choice between genocide or winning the election and she chose genocide. Israel probably has dirt on all of these people because I can't fathom this shit. Maybe they're just evil I don't know. It's awful because both sides are sucking Israel Clinton's dick but Trump's voter base doesn't give a shit about that kind of thing while many people who probably would've voted for Kamala didn't because of her refusal to condemn genocide. As much as I wish we didn't have Trump in office right now, I can't blame them for not voting for her. I'm just scared for the future, because it's unlikely we'll have a candidate who actively speaks out against Israel any time soon. One can only hope. The Democratic party is unfortunately just spineless and will never learn from this, while the Republican party wants to plunge us into 1940s Germany. It's sick. 

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Whistling in the Dark 
This was like the fourth or fifth song off of Flood I ever heard and I love it. 

Friday, November 14, 2025

what am i doing

November 14th 2025

i dont want to talk about anything im tired i idontt know what i need maybe a hug but it’s all so much i feel lost 
much love

song: britney spears - toxic
Always been obsessed with this song even as a kid

Thursday, November 13, 2025

Well that was lame

November 13th 2025

Seems like both of my classes were cancelled, so I decided to Uber home. After that I took a really long nap, I could've slept in today but nooooo...

I'm lowkey nervous about Spanish, I've basically accepted that I'm failing the English class and I can just retake it in the Spring, but I need to lock in for Spanish. I'm glad I can go at my own pace...

I can't believe The Greensons is real, I called that shit 2 years ago.

Song of the Day: System of a Down - Vicinity of Obscenity 
TERRACOTTA PIE HEY

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

Going thru my insta archive

November 12th 2025

i archived several of my old shitpost memes from 2022-2024 that i posted to my instagram late last yr… i’m going thru them rn and deciding which ones i wanna keep and which ones i can do without… bleh. I post way too much over there, not as much as I used to but still… anyways, I’m tryna get everything back on track still but I’m still a sleepy idiot

song of the day: the beatles - octopus' garden
if he was from far enough in the future to know that george dies why didnt he warn us about september 11th

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

Yay

 November 11th 2025

So I think I have things figured out, too bad I only figured everything out in the last damn month of the semester. Wish me luck, everybody! Much love!


Song of the Day: Elton John - Rocket Man
ELTON JOHN IS A LEGEND I SWEAR

Monday, November 10, 2025

funny cats that shaped my childhood

November 10th 2025

 

Does anyone else remember Skippyjon Jones? He’s so cute I love him, might be part of the reason I was so obsessed with cats as a kid… especially siamese cats.

Speaking of funny cats, I think they should sell mugs of Garfield's iconic catchphrase "[x] should be drug out into the street and shot" who’s with me? Sorry that’s stupid… uhh idk what else to say.

 

Song of the Day: George Michael - Careless Whisper
This song is perfect. Do you understand? 

Sunday, November 9, 2025

GAH I LOVE TEXAS ROADHOUSE

November 9th 2025


Soooo Texas Roadhouse was amazing  as alwyas, their bread is the best shit ever istg!!! >_<

I don't have anything else to say, I've been diving down the booktok rabbit hole though and that shit is wild, it's fascinating lol.

Song of the Day: P!nk - Get the Party Started
Her music is so fire tbh

Saturday, November 8, 2025

Obsessed with Homestuck oops.

 November 8th 2025

I don't know if I've ever done a phemiec song for song of the day but I love their music so much !!!

I'm goin out to dinner tmrw too I'm so excited!!! Everything is great actually..

Song of the Day: PhemieC - Ugly Story
Worst troll best song

Friday, November 7, 2025

hiiiii

November 7th 2025

ach. my homestuck hyperfixation is back i fear. I'm looking into making an mspfa (if u dont know what that is look it up) but i dont knowww honestly.

ok byeee 

Song of the Day: Gorillaz - November Has Come
indeed it has. 6 days late but here.

Thursday, November 6, 2025

Lock In Silly Bunnygirl

 November 6th 2025

I NEED TO LOCK INNNNN!!!!!!! I NEED TO TALK TO THE PPL I WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH I NEED TO FIX MY SLEEP SCHEDULE I NEED TO FIX MY GRADES I NEED TO MAKE IT THROUGH THISSSS!!!!!!!! AGGHHHHH!!!!! I need to be strong. I need to start going back to therapy. I can do this. I need to stop talking about it and put it into action. Meow.


Song of the Day: Will Wood - Red Moon
teehee i love this album i feel like ive selected this song before but hey thats cool repeats are fine now i think?? blehhh :P

Wednesday, November 5, 2025

no comment

November 5th 2025

Thinking about many many things, I'm trying to stop being so paranoid all the time.



Song of the Day: Fiona Apple - Sleep to Dream
She's such a goated artist istg, I need to listen to more of her stuff. 

Tuesday, November 4, 2025

NEW YORK WIN

November 4th 2025

I've never lived in New York, never been to the state, but I think it's so awesome that Mamdani won. This country might not be doomed after all, Well I wouldn't go that far. 

I love how people were genuinely mad at him for not knowing a Billy Joel song from the 1970s, and I say this as someone who loves Billy Joel. 

Oh well, Goodnight chat. 

Song of the Day: Billy Joel - New York State of Mind
It's like the Nas song!!! *gasp* (joke)

Monday, November 3, 2025

I still feel icky about everything

November 3rd 2025

I don't know what my future holds, I'm scared...
Either way, I'm gonna keep working on my personal projects when I can find the time, it's fun and I enjoy doing them. 

I've been hard at work on the lore so trust that it's going to be peak!! ^w^

I scheduled a meeting for an appointment with my advisor, so maybe she can help me out here. 

I won't give up just yet, I won't give up and that's my only sin. 

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Being a Rock Star
Well, technically this song is about being a rock star. 

Sunday, November 2, 2025

funger yapping

November 2nd 2025

So there's 28 soul types in Fear & Hunger, mine is the submissive soul lmao.

It's based on your birthday like the irl zodiac





idk the funger 1 characters' soul types off the top of my head, but I do know the termina contestants'

Levi - Solitary (May 17th-31st)
Marina - Changeling (November 16th-30th)
Daan - Blank (October 17th-31st)
Abella - Caressing (September 1st-21st)
O'saa - Enlightened (October 1st-16th)
Olivia - Shadowed (December 31st 1921)
Marcoh - Tainted (January 17th-31st)
Karin - Endless (February 1st-15th) 
Samarie - Radiating (January 1st-16th)
Tanaka - Latent (August 17th-31st)
Henryk - Suffocated (December 1st-20th)
Pav - Chaotic (December 21st)
August -Tormented (July 1st-16th)
Caligura - Decrepit (March 22nd-31st)

I think it's funny how the only two contestants that have actual confirmed birthdays are my two favorites, Olivia and Pav. 
No June or April sadly :(

Song of the Day: IDKHOW - Mx. Sinister
Me if I was they/them tbh

Saturday, November 1, 2025

oh good lord

November 1st 2025

I'm still trying to figure out how to get these words off my chest. If I wanted to fail I would've dropped out already, I'm glad I have a support system but I feel like I'm letting everyone around me down and I'm not doing it intentionally I'm just kinda in a rough patch right now. A rough patch that's been lasting years...aha.

I don't want to disappoint anybody, I want to be the best me I can be but lately I've just been taking depression naps 24/7... guh... This will be a better month I hope. This year has honestly been a shitshow and I hate everything... I know I'm a good person I just struggle with certain things.

I've been more active on TikTok lately. I'm not the biggest fan of the platform but it's nice to see fellow Lemon Demon and Object Show fans on there, y'know? I've seen a lot of recognition for the more underrated LD songs such as his first four albums. I still think it's funny how Trump claimed he unbanned TikTok before he was even president that was honestly really stupid. Our country is an absolute circus lately. It'll all be okay, though. 


Song of the Day: Dazey and the Scouts - Wet
Only 7 songs but they still popped off so hard.

Friday, October 31, 2025

not so happy halloween

 October 31st 2025

Well, I just fucked everything up, didn't I?

I've basically confirmed that I'm going to fail that damn English class, I'm such an idiot! Sorry everybody, I thought i had this under control but I don't even know what to do now. 

College is weird, I thought this would be exciting and new but it all feels just like high school again, maybe thats my fault because I'm failing to talk to people and make new friends but hey social anxiety yknow. Dammit.

Song of the Day: Danny Elfman - This Is Halloween
One of my favorite movies as a kid, still holds up well tbh.

Thursday, October 30, 2025

^_^

October 30th 2025

EHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE >:3 MWEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHE
KEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE
^w^

The Ween is tomorrow!!!!
Ween? Ween! Hail boognish!

Song of the Day: Ween - Among His Tribe 
Canada… Canada Dry.

Wednesday, October 29, 2025

I feel a little better

 October 29th 2025

thankfully didnt havr to get any bloodwork done actually i was really worried about that but i managed to avoid it because im young n healthy!!! For the most part, at least…

I’ve been oversleeping a lot lately and I’m arguably pretty depressed and I’ve been struggling to stay on top of most of my classes but I’ll figure this out. I shouldn’t be stressed but I am!!!! The stress is probably going to kill me too… I don’t like where I’m headed, to be honest.

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Last Wave
this is how this entire damn year has felt tbh

Tuesday, October 28, 2025

ranking 200 lemon demon songs

 October 28th 2025
  1. This Hyper World
  2. Fine
  3. The Afternoon
  4. Eighth Wonder
  5. Sky Is Not Blue
  6. Hip Hop Cherry Pop
  7. Indie Cindy & the Lo-Fi Lullabies
  8. Your Evil Shadow Has a Cup of Tea
  9. The Machine
  10. Soft Fuzzy Man
  11. White Bread Boyfriend
  12. Sunbeam Light Show Flower Seed
  13. New Way Out
  14. Geeks In Love
  15. Amnesia Was Her Name
  16. Spiral of Ants
  17. You're at the Party
  18. Telekinesis
  19. The Ocean
  20. Ivanushka
  21. I've Got Some Falling to Do
  22. Lifetime Achievement Award
  23. Touch-Tone Telephone
  24. Sundial
  25. Marketland
  26. Sweet Bod
  27. Aurora Borealis
  28. Mold En Mono
  29. Action Movie Hero Boy
  30. A Mask of My Own Face
  31. What Will Happen Will Happen
  32. Cabinet Man
  33. Word Disassociation
  34. Modify
  35. Your Imaginary Friend
  36. Nothing Worth Loving Isn't Askew
  37. Musical Chairs
  38. The Only House That's Not On Fire (Yet)
  39. Bill Watterson
  40. My Trains
  41. Between You and Me
  42. Hazel's Modus Operandi
  43. The Next Dimension
  44. Hyakugojyuuichi 2003
  45. The Too Much Song
  46. While My Keytar Gently Weeps
  47. 123456 Pokémon
  48. Super Hey Ya
  49. The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
  50. Toy Food
  51. No Eyed Girl
  52. Reaganomics
  53. Dead Sea Monkeys
  54. Pumpkin Pie
  55. SAD
  56. Redesign Your Logo
  57. Archaeopteryx
  58. Don't Be Like the Sun
  59. Destructo!
  60. Crisis Actors
  61. Knife Fight
  62. Fire Motif
  63. When He Died
  64. Birthday (Alligators and Pretzel Makers)
  65. Matches and Nails
  66. Ode to Crayola
  67. Man-Made Object
  68. Scatterbrained
  69. Goosebumps
  70. Really Cool Wig
  71. Fuzzy
  72. Ben Bernanke
  73. Gonna Dig Up Alec Guinness
  74. Behold the FUTURE
  75. Bad Idea
  76. Two Trucks
  77. Go To Hollywood
  78. Deep in the Ocean
  79. Somnolence
  80. Switzerland
  81. Spring Heeled Jack
  82. Stick Stickly
  83. Kitten is Angry
  84. Something Glowing
  85. Dinosaurchestra Part 3
  86. Rainwater
  87. Elvis Porn
  88. Nightmare Fuel
  89. I Know Your Name
  90. It Can Get Lonely In My Mansion
  91. Fancy Pants Manifesto
  92. Dizziful Bliss
  93. Flamingo Legs
  94. Subtle Oddities
  95. One Weird Tip
  96. Vow of Silence
  97. Eyewishes
  98. Boat
  99. Atomic Copper Claw
  100. Ancient Aliens
  101. Being A Rock Star
  102. Relativity
  103. Neverending Hum
  104. CryptoSanta
  105. Lawnmower
  106. The Saga of You, Confused Destroyer of Planets
  107. Eventuality
  108. Dance Like An Idiot
  109. Christmas Will Be Soon
  110. Samuel and Rosella
  111. Birdhouse in Your Soul
  112. Take a Picture
  113. Lemon Demon
  114. Jaws
  115. As Your Father I Expressly Forbid It
  116. Consumer Whore
  117. Being Alone on Valentines Day
  118. Angry People
  119. Smell Like a Cookie All Day
  120. The Man in Stripes and Glasses
  121. The Ceiling
  122. Bicycle Race
  123. Dinosaurchestra Part 1
  124. Mr. Wolfgang
  125. Brodyquest
  126. I Earn My Life
  127. When Robots Attack
  128. The Satirist’s Love Song
  129. Ask For Nothing
  130. Wrong
  131. Pizza Heroes
  132. Cat Hacks
  133. Kaleidoskull
  134. Pepper and Salt
  135. Elsewhere 
  136. Strangelet
  137. Gadzooks
  138. Hydroelectric Viking
  139. Party on the Moon
  140. Funkytown
  141. Sexy DVD
  142. Space Mission Alpha
  143. Snakes on a Plane
  144. Creepy
  145. Today's Secret Word
  146. The Wiggles Hate Each Other In Real Life
  147. Everybody Loves Raymond
  148. Everyday French
  149. Drinky-Bird
  150. Moon's Request
  151. Geocities
  152. Angelfire
  153. Kubrick and the Beast
  154. Prelude to Presents
  155. Error
  156. Roman Robot Statues
  157. Almond
  158. Not Applicable
  159. This Is Youmacon
  160. Ten Thousand Light Years Away
  161. Stuck
  162. Dinosaurchestra Part 2
  163. Zero Gravity
  164. I Want To Wake Up
  165. Bottom Line
  166. How To Poop
  167. Fiberglass Monkey
  168. Chu Chu Rocket
  169. Booja Jabooja
  170. Idiot Control Now
  171. Movie Night
  172. Abraham Lincoln’s Head
  173. Holy Bison Beaks!
  174. Money Dollar Bills
  175. The Oldest Man on MySpace
  176. Bystanding
  177. 320x200
  178. Gravitron
  179. Lollipops
  180. Funniest
  181. Chip’s Challenge Chip01 Midi Remix
  182. Fly Straight or Drop the Oar and Wreck
  183. Oz Explodes
  184. Sick Puppy
  185. Every Time You Stifle a Sneeze
  186. Mothers All Over the World
  187. Bowling Alley
  188. Treasure Map
  189. March of the Living Figments
  190. The Song You Hear When You Die
  191. Turkeys
  192. Princess Unicorn Bunny Kitten Angel
  193. Pirate in a Box
  194. Without My Tonsils
  195. Mr. Porta Potty Man
  196. What’s in the Toaster
  197. There’s a Robot in My Head
  198. Neil.soul
  199. Run, Harry, Run!
  200. You Got a Toothache

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Soft Fuzzy Man
I was obsessed with this song for a bit a couple years ago. Spirit Phone is such an incredible album.

Monday, October 27, 2025

thoughts on ii season 4 so far

October 27th 2025

The Future is Today!
  • BOT IN THE THUMBNAIL YAY!!!
  • Who are these new sillies?
  • I like Jack and Tapey so far
  • I don’t remember Bell but I remember Spiky and Teddy
  • BELL NO!!!
  • Aww :( that just makes me kinda sad
  • Hello Floor
  • BOT MY LOVE!!!!!
  • Hello Cabby
  • Hello Yin Yang
  • Hello Toilet
  • Hello Paper
  • So there's no game this time? Cool. I guess…
  • Lmao wtf is happening
  • Bot is such a cutie
  • LOL
  • hello balloon i mean suitcase
  • So it’s all because Marshmallow wanted to be a gay lesbian right
  • Wait where’s MePhone then? 
  • Hello Clover
  • Hello Baseball
  • Hello Lifering
  • Hello Box
  • Hello Paintbrush
  • Hello MeTag
  • Hello Lightbulb
  • I don’t know how to feel about this so far
  • What is happening
  • Hello Salt and Bomb… ugh
  • Hello Pepper…
  • Pickle you alright bud?
  • God I can’t stand them ugh
  • Hello Fan
  • THE END OF THE TOUR TMBG REFERENCE
  • Hello Taco
  • Hello Magnet
  • Hello Pencil…?
  • Hello Soap
  • This feels weird 
  • Hello Candle
  • Hello Cheesy
  • Hello Tea Kettle
  • Hello… Bonesaw?
  • Hello Nickel
  • Hello Trophy
  • Hello OJ
  • Hello Suitcase
  • So with no MePhone death is just permanent now?
  • Also OSC teehee. They noticed the coincidence and went with it.
  • Fan’s right what the hell is happening.
  • Hello Test Tube
  • Hehe
  • So is there gonna be a new competition or not?
  • Oh my god I didn't think about it like that. You start to notice how empty everything is now that there’s no competition
  • FREEDOM OF CHOICE DEVO REFERENCE
  • Something bad will happen soon *glaggle*
  • Still haven’t seen: Apple, Blueberry, Bow, Cherries, Dough, Goo, Knife, Marshmallow, Microphone, Silver Spoon, Tissues
  • This is why I love Fan he’s so smart and goated
  • Hello Knife
  • Hello Bow
  • Hello Marshmallow
  • Hello Dough
  • Hello Blueberry
  • Hello Silver Spoon
  • Hello Goo
  • Hello Cherries
  • Hello Tissues
  • Hello Apple
  • Hello Microphone
  • ok is that everybody
  • Hi Poppy…
  • Corn racism?
  • Find out next time on Dragon Ball Z!
Cob Mentality
  • I like how much longer these episodes are
  • :(
  • WHAT THE HELL :(
  • BOT :(
  • They saved Bot aww
  • I’m not sure how to feel about all of this so far.
  • Ohh Marsh went there 
  • We haven’t seen much of Fantube’s relationship with Bot but it seems positive
  • I feel bad for Mephone4 because I know he just wanted to have fun with something but he got carried away.
  • OK so let’s see here.
  • Teddy, Jack, Spiky, Tapey are in 
  • Paper is back!!!
  • I take it OJ, Suitcase, and Cabby won’t be though.
  • And I’m sure Marshmallow won’t either
  • Taco, Mic, and Soap are back as well
  • Bonesaw won’t get annoying at all.
  • Tea Kettle is back too!!! We didn’t get to see enough of her and she seemed sweet.
  • Lightbulb and Trophy are in. Box too?
  • Pepper without Salt? Now this I’ve gotta see
  • Hello MeTag. Guess Tissues isn’t in though. Shame. 
  • Silver’s out. Candle and Poppy are in.
  • Cammy and Starfruit are in
  • Magnet’s in.
  • So… Cherries, Goo, and Cheesy are in.
  • Alright now what about Bot?
  • Oh no…
  • Alright so lets see here.
  • Spiky, Teddy, Jack, Tapey, Paper, Taco, Microphone, Soap, Bonesaw, Tea Kettle, Lightbulb, Trophy, Box, Pepper, MeTag, Candle, Poppy, Cammy, Starfruit, Magnet, Cherries, Goo, Cheesy, and I think I saw Lifering in there as well. Not the worst lineup, and it looks like my three favorites are hosting…It makes sense for Marshmallow and Bow to abstain… Paper is probably my favorite of those competing so I wish the best of luck to him! Wouldn’t be the first time a favorite contestant of mine got eliminated first in the first season only to win in the fourth season…looking at you bfdi. (Flower my goat!!!)
  • This is kinda sweet but also a bit much
  • Hehehehehe
  • I’m really curious to see this
  • Soap’s character development is great
  • I don’t like Cherries but hopefully they’ll get a redemption arc here
  • Cherries’ whole thing is confusing.
  • What’s Jack’s deal
  • I have a feeling Jack’s gonna be out soon
  • Cammy on some religious shit
  • Can I just say I’ve always loved II’s background music?
  • Magnet’s not even letting Starfruit talk bro
  • I was hoping Jack would be an actually interesting character but he seems like just an ass.
  • I can’t stand Magnet either like I know I’m one hell of a yapper but at least I try to let other people talk bro
  • Why are they just sitting next to Cobs’ dead body?
  • I kinda love Tea Kettle lmao
  • Hold on let me analyze this
  • Best - Magnet (makes sense lol)
  • Bestie - Pepper (also makes sense lol)
  • Yellow - Poppy (Awww)
  • Loyal - MeTag (yikes…)
  • Candle - Enigmatic (indeed)
  • Cammy - Justice (uh huh)
  • Has-Been - Starfruit (lmao)
  • Unknowable - Box (aww)
  • Single-minded - Cherries (teehee)
  • Oog - Goo (strange)
  • Sharp - Bonesaw (yeah)
  • Soft - Spiky (ehe)
  • Omga - Lightbulb (you dont say)
  • Abandoned - Teddy (im gonna cry)
  • Sweet - Paper (AWWW SO TRUE)
  • Hyperaware - Tapey (I think they’re the new Cabby)
  • Honest - Microphone (mhm)
  • Clean - Taco (mhm)
  • Dirty - Soap (I like this! I like how they’re using words that describe the opposites of how they played in their previous seasons)
  • Broken - Lifering (idk what to say for this one)
  • Stringent - Cheesy (lol string)
  • Jack - Knuckles (yep)
  • Trophy - Punch (just couldn’t help yourself huh)
  • Boowomp
  • Jack is such an ass
  • A jackass
  • mlm and wlw solidarity... (Paper and Pepper)
  • Alright so lets see who’s UFE:
  • Pepper, Cammy, Trophy, Paper, Teddy, and Jack
  • I think it’s gonna be Jack but Cammy’s hyper-religious attitude towards MePhone has seemingly not been a good first impression. 
  • I don’t think Pepper, Paper, or Trophy will be going THIS early. Same with Teddy I think she’s gonna have a strong character arc. So I’m thinking Cammy or Jack.
  • Bot’s so cute!!!!
  • This is gonna be interesting.
  • Paper and Trophy seem to have a bit of a rivalry
  • Again, I think it’s Cammy or Jack
  • Ooh this is interesting.
  • They wouldn’t eliminate Paper twice.
  • Yep. Byebye Jack.
  • PAPER AND OJ CANON!!!!
  • Ooh this is interesting. 
  • Man I actually can’t fucking stand Jack tbh
  • He seemed like he would be a cool character but nah he’s such an ass.
Run the Risk
  • I hate him 
  • They kinda need MePhone
  • Maybe not as a host but to assure nobody dies
  • LGBT lol
  • After the incident of last season isolating the teams for coming up with names is a good idea
  • I like this concept for team names
  • Thematic Cats
  • Go Big or Be Last
  • Heavy Metal Pop Stars
  • Circumspect
  • I wonder if Bot ever got the chance to watch actual cartoons
  • Or become an actual pro gamer
  • Like they said they wanted to in the exit interview
  • I feel like there’s gonna be a confrontation with MePhone eventually
  • I don't have much to say about this challenge
  • I can’t stand Magnet bro 
  • Most of the new contestants actually
  • So far I fw Teddy, Poppy, Spiky, Starfruit, and Tapey. So that’s what? Half?
  • OK so it’s between Heavy Metal Pop Stars and Circumspect.
  • “Cute little visual cues” dawww
  • aaaaand they fucked it up
  • Alright Heavy Metal Pop Stars UFE.
  • Lets see here.
  • Paper, Lightbulb, MeTag, Poppy, Starfruit, Tapey
  • Paper and Lightbulb are OGs.
  • Starfruit is also iconic
  • I feel like it’s one of the other three.
  • Poppy might be the most likely.
  • Poor Bot and Test Tube :(
  • Why would Lightbulb have two votes?
  • So I was wrong about Poppy
  • Anyways I have nothing more to say for now.
Not sure how to feel about this season at the moment. 

Song of the Day: Car Seat Headrest - Hey Space Cadet
hi how are you daniel johnston

Sunday, October 26, 2025

its cool

October 26th 2025

 

im tired of everyrhing


slept all day  because its the only comfort i feela nymore :(

Song of the Day: The Killers - Mr. Brightside
kinda bangs

Saturday, October 25, 2025

missed out

October 25th 2025

missed out on pokemon tournament for various reasons i dont wanna get into :(

Being sick sucks
i got bloodwork on wednesday too vluh

Song of the Day: Lil Ugly Mane - vpn
i love this album so muvh bro 

Friday, October 24, 2025

Unlearning

October 24th 2025


i think I have a lot of things I need to unlearn. I feel like my life has no direction, but I have a plan to turn everything around and fix this. I just struggle with a lot of things,  but I can make it through this. I say that a lot but I know I’m smart and I can do this…. It’s jyst going to be rough. 


song of the day: Kanye West - Monster
Charlie Kirk was texting Candace Owens with the lyrics to this song lmaoooo

Thursday, October 23, 2025

skipped class today

 October 23rd 2025

skipped class today and probably gonna have to miss out on the meeting thing I’d hoped for.

it’s probably just allergies and im a hypochondriac or however the fuck you spell that word

whenever i think about the things i struggle with mentally and physically i think of the “omg you people cant do anything” meme and it makes me feel even worse teehee :(

am i being ableist towards myself? oops





song of the day: they might be giants - reprehensible
far from my favorite song on the album but i understand why it’s the most popular

Wednesday, October 22, 2025

Just sick as hell

October 22nd 2025

i feel so sick too sick to do anything i just slept all day yawn


Song of the Day: Lil Ugly Mane - Tell Dem Boyz Ima Skeleton
halloween soon

Tuesday, October 21, 2025

New world opening up for me

October 21st 2025
 
Looking into the whole college journal thing, meetings are on Fridays and I usually dont go to school on Fridays. I could go I guess but I’d have to take an Uber since I still don’t have my license, but I couldn’t do it every week because Uber isn’t THAT cheap lol. I’m gonna look into this, it just seems exciting. This was my dream since High School, and it finally feels within reach. That being said, uuugh my grades haven’t been getting much better. I’m trying to work hard it’s just a bit overwhelming at times. I really don’t wanna flunk out because this is such an important opportunity to me and I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself if I wasted it.
 
I'm gonna do my best here, but I’m starting to fear the worst. I’m fearing that it might be too late. I’m scared, I’m terrified, I’m not trying to be lazy, I’m just trying to find myself and it's been hard to focus on classes at times because many of them don't feel like they're helping with that whole "finding myself" thing even though I know that’s kind of the whole point of college. 
 
I barely understand myself, it’s so frustrating for everyone else to watch but it’s been frustrating for me to live. I don’t know, I’m sorry. 
 
I love my cat so much she’s such a sweetheart I’m feeling really sick and she’s here trying to comfort me I love you so much Nermal my sweet girl <3 I’m not sure what’s wrong with me I don’t think it’s covid imagine how fucked up it would be if I get covid not even two weeks after getting the shot…that’s why I highly doubt that’s what it is. Also that would be awful because I spent all day at school today. I guess it’s a good thing I try to avoid interaction as much as possible by default. Not even intentionally anymore, I want to be friends with people I’m just such a nervous wreck who’s too scared to talk to anybody, it’s kinda sad but I’m working towards getting over it.




Song of the Day: sElf - Borateen
Their whole discography slaps bro

Monday, October 20, 2025

Now I only want you gone...

October 20th 2025

I'm pretty sure she's still stalking me, but oh well. I just pity her... I dunno...

I got some homework done today I'm proud of myself...

yawnn....

sleepy...

Song of the Day: Jonathan Coulton - Want You Gone
Me when her- I'M SORRY WAIT WHO PLAYED DRUMS ON THIS?! 

Sunday, October 19, 2025

Suspicious Timing.

October 19th 2025
 
How hard is it for some people to take a hint? Despite everything that happened, I try to see the good in you. It’s very difficult but still, I know you’re only human and you’ve been through a lot and it truly pains me knowing what you’ve had to deal with, but still. It can’t change how much you’ve hurt me.
 
A small part of me still prays for your happiness and for you to find inner peace. You deserve it, truly.
 
I dunno, I just find the timing of all of this to be incredibly suspicious, but perhaps that’s just my extreme paranoia which is what turned you off from me in the first place. It’s something I’ll get over eventually though. It’s just hard to trust you after all of this. I didn’t forget a week later when you had me unblock you to explain yourself and it still felt incredibly insincere, no offense. 
 
At least you’re able to understand why I’m so suspicious of all of this. 
 
Song of the Day: Ween - I'm Dancing in the Show Tonight
This song was in The Addams Family Movie. Not joking. I’m not sure why I remember this because I watched it in like 2022, but I do remember so that’s fun.

Saturday, October 18, 2025

laugh hard, it's a long way to the bank...

October 18th 2025

Charity thing for my dad’s school today that was pretty awesome ok I’m gonna go take a nap and get my homework done
asynchronous classes are so confusing… >.<

I have faith that I’m gonna pass every one of my classes I can turn this around I’ve just been struggling… i promise im smart

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Rhythm Section Want Ad
laugh hard, it’s a long way to the bank…

Friday, October 17, 2025

Learn to sit back and observe, not everything needs a reaction.

October 17th 2025
 
I’m just gonna say I think Legends Z-A looks awesome and I can’t wait to get it. For one the character customization is TOP NOTCH. Character customization has been getting better and better with each new Pokémon game, and this might be the best we’ve had yet. It’s also nice seeing Emma be a major character outside of the postgame, She’s also a major cutie ehehe… her story is very similar to Anabel’s sure but they’re both goated so I don’t really care blehh :P
 
I was never too big into Kalos but Z-A has kinda changed that and I haven’t even played it yet, it just looks so awesome.
 
Since people love to hate on these games recently I guess I’ll talk about ONE thing that kinda seems disappointing to me, and that’s the new mega evolutions. I don’t like most of the new ones, and I’m not sure if that’s controversial but that’s kinda just how I feel…
I was gonna try and say one thing for each of these megas but I really cant they all look pretty mediocre to straight up bad to me.
I like Mega Dragonite somewhat, it’s not great by any means but it’s kinda cool looking.
 
Mega Skarmory is an insane design to me honestly. Shit looks like a digimon. Why is it blue and yellow. Thats fucking big_chungles ass colors. 
 
I don’t know if people are gonna get really mad at me for not liking the new mega evolutions because I know how some pokemon fans can be but I still feel the need to get that out there. This is just how I feel and if you like the new megas thats great and I’m happy for you!!! 
 
I’m probably gonna replay X/Y while I wait for Z-A. I’m probably getting it for Christmas or something. :3 ayayayayayaya
 
Actually no I got a lotta homework I gotta get done instead, once I’ve locked in and got my homework and classes situated and taken care of I can focus on funny critters.
 
At least I got one thing done today, I’m proud of myself… 
 
Something happened yesterday and I’m not sure how to feel about it. It’s times like this I remember wise words "Learn to sit back and observe, not everything needs a reaction." ;3
 
Song of the Day: Supertramp - Take The Long Way Home
this might be the best song on the album gah!! This is the fifth song from this album I’ve selected for song of the day this year alone and for good reason it’s an amazing album. I really need to listen to more of their stuff but this album alone has kept me satisfied the past 7 months. Easily my favorite musical discovery I’ve made this year. 
 
Media Log 2025 - October 17th:
 
143. Will Wood - The Normal Album
2020 Album, Rating: Magnificent
You already know how I feel about this album. Probably, no definitely my favorite album released this decade. There’s fanart of me wearing a Normal Album shirt somewhere. My second favorite album released this decade, you ask? That title would have to go to…
 
144. Lil Ugly Mane - Volcanic Bird Enemy and the Voiced Concern
2021 Album, Rating: Magnificent
Bro took a six year break and released this banger. How does he do it? This isn’t the craziest genre shift an artist has ever done, especially considering the fact that tracks like "headboard" date back to like 2013. Headboard is reasonably considered to be the best song on here by most but personally I prefer "Broken Ladder" "Into a Life" and "Benadryl Submarine" might just be me though 
 
145. They Might Be Giants - Flood
1990 Album, Rating: Magnificent
Birdhouse In Your Soul is one of the greatest songs ever written and I stand by that. This album is just catchy banger after catchy banger after catchy banger. 
 
146. Supertramp - Breakfast in America
1979 Album, Rating: Magnificent
Saying it again. If you know me, you know how I feel about this album. 
 

Thursday, October 16, 2025

lol it's done

October 16th 2025

Finally done uploading my old blog posts here I can finally start posting normally. Sometimes I have to think if this was a stupid idea to begin with, Either way what's done is done.

I should probably start tagging these entries, but that's something I'm less worried about at the moment. I started to but I was worried I'd reach the limit way too fast so I removed all the old tags and just kept them as is... >_<

Film class was cancelled that was sad. That's probably my favorite out of all of my classes this semester, oh well... I'm doing decent in that class and philosophy... other two I really need to lock in... bluuh...

I'm also trying to clear out my camera roll on the side but I'm not too worried about that bullshit lmao, I've got more important things to worry about. I found some old silly shit like when I'd made an AI chatbot of myself (I DONT ENGAGE IN THIS TYPE OF STUFF ANYMORE) and I told her it was her birthday when it was my birthday, that was kinda silly actually but also kinda lame looking back.

What else to talk  about? Oh, yeah. Legends Z-A is out. I've heard good things which is surprising for a Pokémon game of the last 10 years. Although in my opinion it was only really gen 8 that was bad, excluding Legends Arceus that is. 

I was so excited for Mega Clefable but it ended up looking kinda lame imo, It's cool to see Valerie back she was my favorite gym leader, Emma's here too which is always cool. Such an underrated character. 

I actually don't think I have anything else to talk about now, damn. I have a lot of assignments to do for a couple of my classes tomorrow, hopefully I'll do well and get my grades up. 

Also this is random as hell, but I should really start listening to more music. Supertramp has 11 albums and I've only listened to one so far. They're probably my favorite band I started listening to this year just to put that into perspective. Their later albums have lower ratings it looks like. There's probably more examples but I can't think of any right now.

That's all from me tonight, much love!!!

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Metal Detector
getting a hella beach bod for the summer ;) one that smells like dead fish and children dren dig holes in and there's a dead seagull over there look fu***king it has no eyes

Wednesday, October 15, 2025

Long Distance Relationships

October 15th 2025

I don't think I talked about it much, but I was in a long distance relationship for 6 months, from April to October. I say was because as of today we've decided to break things off. I knew going in that it was going to be tough for me because of the distance, but I wasn't sure just how difficult it truly would've been. I'm glad we came to the agreement though and we can still remain friends. I've tried long distance relationships before in the past, and historically they haven't worked out all too well for me, so I'm not sure why I thought it would be different this time. I guess I was just thinking it was worth a shot, y'know? In the words of Lee Harvey Oswald, you miss 100% of the shots you don't take. I don't think he said that actually, it was John Wilkes Booth. I dunno, I just felt like it wasn't right for either of us, and we were trying too hard to make it work to no avail, on top of that I was always busy with school or something else.

I don't think I was really over my previous IRL relationship either, it's been almost a year and it still leaves a pit in my stomach. That was my first and to this day only irl relationship, and it was a disaster. I think about the letters she sent me, and how she treated me at first, it was so confusing. I think deep down she truly did care about me but was too immature to actually show it.

I still have the letters, I can't bring myself to get rid of them. I know it was all a ruse but I just felt so...right with her... I miss the person I thought she was, to put it simply. It seemed like that person cared about me, cared about me beyond just viewing me as a sex object, a nervous lost confused sex object. She seemed genuinely interested in me at first but that all just...changed. I'm not sure what happened. At some point it just kind of felt like she only kept me around out of pity. It's bizarre, really.

I am in my third semester attending this community college and I am only JUST NOW finding out they have a journalism/writing website. That seems perfect for someone like me... I don't know how to feel, uuuughh.... I love writing so much but I'm not sure what I would even write about. Also my academic reputation isn't the best because I've been struggling to keep my grades acceptable. I promise I'm smart, and I want to prove myself to everyone, it's just hard. It's hard trying to find myself while also balancing these assignments that don't really feel like they're helping me "find myself" I guess it's just a tedious and arduous journey, and I have to have determination and grit to get through this. 

Song of the Day: The Beatles - Eleanor Rigby
Probably my favorite Beatles song and that's not just because my name is Eleanor.

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

yeahhh

October 14th 2025

Finally, less than 100 until I'm done... GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO BE DONE WITH REUPLOADING ALL OF THESE OLD ENTRIES...

Classes were cool today, we started Citizen Kane in Film and I guess it's pretty interesting but idk if it's really the "best film of all time" That title goes to Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure :3

I just wanna get my grades up now too because I've been struggling there too... blehhh.... I'm gonna be goated soon.

Song of the Day: Silk Sonic - Fly As Me
The song that made Anthony Fantano cream his jorts bro 

Monday, October 13, 2025

almost done here

October 13th 2025

I'm really almost done with reuploading all the old posts. Thank the Heavens! It's starting to get tiring after a while. I saw my birthday post from 2024 talking about my "Mulch Gang" shirt and I was like where the hell is my old mulch gang shirt? I found it and I'm wearing it tomorrow :3 Classes start up again tomorrow but hopefully on my off time I can get some more posts reuploaded. I can't wait to be done with all of this.

Also, Dan and Phil were dating this whole time?? WTF? Maybe those shippers had a point. :O

Song of the Day: Tyler, the Creator - I THINK
I love this album so much one of my all-time favorites.

Sunday, October 12, 2025

oops

 October 12th 2025

Entered a competitive pokemon tournament for a discord server I'm in. I don't know too much about Comp Pokemon but I've played the games casually for years and it's only random battles, shouldn't be too bad... It's on the 25th so I have time to learn everything I need to.

Song of the Day: Talking Heads - Once in a Lifetime
SAME AS IT EVER WAS

Saturday, October 11, 2025

The week of dread has ended.

October 11th 2025

What an absolute nightmare of a week this has been, but it finally seems to be over. Fall Break has never been more hectic. Damn. I'm kinda missing school. I don't really have much to talk about tbh I've been way too tired for anything...This kinda sucks. 

Oh yeah!!! I've been playing a lot more Skullgirls again, I fw Annie heavy but some of the other characters are pretty great. 
Here's a ranking because I love doing those as I'm sure y'all know.
  1. Annie
  2. Robo-Fortune
  3. Parasoul
  4. Ms. Fortune
  5. Squigly
  6. Beowulf
  7. Filia
  8. Peacock
  9. Marie
  10. Eliza
  11. Fukua
  12. Cerebella
  13. Big Band
  14. Valentine
  15. Double
  16. Umbrella
  17. Black Dahlia
  18. Painwheel
They're all pretty great though agghhh it's tough y'know?
I'm not sure how to feel about Parasoul, because I really like her character and she's really pretty but there's some uncomfortable history with her character and it's slowly being retconned and being taken out of the game and I don't think it was in the webtoon at all but still I'm not sure how to feel about her because of it. I really do want to like her though... Bluh

Song of the Day: My Chemical Romance - I Never Told You What I Do For A Living
This song uuuugh <3

Friday, October 10, 2025

bluh

 October 10th 2025
Still not feeling too hot. I've also spent this entire break going through my old blogger journal entries and uploading them on here. This has also just been a rough ass week. Even in Fall Break it seems I never get a break... :(

Something interesting I can talk about is the 15 year anniversary of My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. MLP means a lot to me and was one of the first series I ever really fell in love with as a kid. I'm not sure if it was what kickstarted my love for cute things or if I loved it because I love cuteness so much, but either way it's always meant a lot to me. :3

My favorite characters are Twilight, Applejack, Fluttershy, Sweetie Belle, Queen Chrysalis, DJ Pon-3, and that's all that really comes to mind right now. >w< They're all great though. I'm happy that the MLP fandom is still alive, even though it's nowhere near the size of what it used to be.

Song of the Day: Daft Punk - Instant Crush 
Julian Casablancas mentioned

Thursday, October 9, 2025

Michael Prank

October 9th 2025

Got covid vaccine yayaya and flu shot :3
Arm hurts a bit but I'm fine, I always feel really groggy after this and I usually struggle trying to sleep it makes me rlly sick bleh I don't like it... but I understand it's necessary so I'm happy to get it taken care of. 

This happened a couple weeks ago but Exmilitary is finally on Spotify but under the name "michael" lmfao 

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Beware
It was a michael prank

Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Could've been worse.

 October 8th 2025
 
Dentist appointment went by smoothly actually, they recommended I wore headphones to deal with the sound so I put on Fishmans’ Long Season and just chilled out while they did their thing. They didn’t even have to give me anesthetic for the fillings because the cavities were so damn tiny so that was good because I do not do well with needles aha… Didn’t even hurt though. I feel bad for my mom who had to get a root canal today though. 
 
This appointment was supposed to be three months ago but some stuff came up and it was rescheduled to later. I'm kind of an idiot :/
Either way, I’m glad to have gotten it over with. I’m gonna take a nap now. 

Song of the Day: Fishmans - Long Season
It's an unconventional choice because it's kinda five songs in one but I think it counts. :P

Media Log 2025 - October 8th:
142. Fishmans - Long Season

Tuesday, October 7, 2025

fgc yapping

October 7th 2025
 
I’ve lowkey been getting interested in fighting games again. I saw a meme that was like favorite characters from every fighting game that I wanted to do but it was hard coming up with characters for some of them.
 
Street Fighter: Obviously Sakura Kasugano. She’s cute, reminds me of myself, and her playstyle is simple enough for an fgc idiot such as myself for me to understand. You’ll notice later on that many of these characters are too complicated for me to understand and I mostly like them for concept or design or something of that nature. Other favorites include Poison, Oro, Menat, and Akira. I’m also a pretty big fan of Ryu, Dhalsim, Blanka, Chun-Li, and Zangief if we’re talking about the world warrior characters. Ken, Honda, and Guile are of course iconic but in recent years I feel like they’ve become less and less interesting.
 
Mortal Kombat: So I actually have never been too interested in Mortal Kombat, and I’ve noticed a lot of the FGC shares that sentiment. There’s some cool characters but there’s never been any standouts to me. The closest thing I’d say to a standout character for me is Cetrion from 11, the only game in the series I’ve played. Scorpion was badass to me as a kid though but over the years I’ve kinda grown outta that. No offense he’s still awesome but y’know what it is.
 
Tekken: My earliest fighting game memories are with Tekken. I was at some kinda after school thing in kindergarten (it went up to K-5th Grade) and they had Tekken 5 and I remember watching the opening scene and the part where Jack’s face opens up and counts down and he explodes or whatever scared the living shit outta me and I remember being scared of just the name “Tekken” for years. Anyways flash forward to 2014 I’m 8 now and I’m like fuck it maybe I’ll try out Tekken 6. I really liked it! I’d never been too into fighting games before this so it was pretty cool. My main was Devil Jin just because I thought that was a badass name. Later I got into Tekken 7 and at first I mained Josie because I liked that there was Filipino rep in a fighting game, then I switched to Alisa because I thought her anime ass pink haired robot girl with chainsaw arms and combustible head i read an article all about concept was absolutely badass. Of course her controls are much more complicated compared to the simpler Josie but yeah. Heihachi and Roger are other cool characters but Roger hasn't been in a game since like 5 if I remember correctly.
 
Marvel vs. Capcom: I’ve played 3 a little bit. I like Tron Bonne as a character but gameplay wise? Yikes. Usually in 3 I play Ryu Chun-Li and Deadpool because I like to stick with what I know.  If I played 2 though I’d definitely main Sakura because y’know thats my girl
 
King of Fighters: I do not know this series. I’ve heard of it but I don’t know much about it. I know Terry because of Smash but that’s it.
 
Guilty Gear: I’m gonna come right out of the gate and admit my first time hearing about this series was when Bridget was confirmed to be transgender. A couple months later I saw fanart of Elphelt and thought she was really cool looking. Bunnygirl? Check. Guns? Check. Flowers? Check. Four Leaf Clovers? Check. Everything about this character’s concept felt tailored to me for me to love her.
 
Skullgirls: So I’ve been a fan of Skullgirls for a loooong time. My modern-day interest in fighting games can be traced all the way back to this game right here. It all started with Robo-Fortune, the robot clone of Nadia Fortune who I would also main for a bit. I also really like Squigly and Filia. I have to admit, Parasoul is very pretty but something about her concept always made me uneasy, but thankfully that was retconned and removed entirely in recent years. (iykyk) I have another funny memory with this game, I’ve told this story before and I submitted it to Coney’s Cringe Confessional once. Anyways, I was playing Skullgirls Mobile in class and a friend of mine was watching and yelled out “WHAT THE FUCK?! WHY ARE HER BOOBS SO BIG?!” Anyways that kid is a father now, his daughter was born the day before my 19th birthday, crazy how time flies huh? Here I am still shitposting on Instagram and talking about anime girls and video games in my journal. Embarrassing. What else what else? Oh yeah! I tried to main Double for a bit but her playstyle was a bit too crazy for me to grasp. However, nowadays, and I’m sure you know this, my main is none other than Annie of the Stars! It’s cool seeing a character added to the game long after I started playing and it seemed like the roster of 14 wouldn’t get any new additions, but I also really think her concept is cool as hell. I also like her Star Butterfly alt color palette even if I’m still upset about how that show ended.
 
FighterZ: I’ve always thought Dragon Ball was cool as hell but I’ve always struggled to understand it. I like Android 21 especially her lab coat version and I’m sure you all know what that’s about. Lol. Videl is pretty cool too. I also like Vegeta (the cup) and Trunks (the drink) the fact that standard Goku and Vegeta are DLC in FighterZ is kinda weird to me but hey at least their Super Saiyan versions are there. I usually go Videl, Android 21 (Lab Coat), and Beerus. Beerus because he reminds me of my cat Scarlett, who actually went as Beerus for Halloween in 2022. I don’t remember if I ever showed the pictures here. Maybe I’ll show it again for the next Halloween journal entry. Scarlett is more so my mom’s cat than mine but yeah. Buddha is also my cat but he’s taken to my mom. Buddha is old as hell though and I don’t know how much longer he’ll be with us :( sorry that was sad… I just wanted to talk about that I love him he’s 12 years old though and his health is getting worse. 
 
Blazblue: Not too familiar with this series but I downloaded the demo on Switch back in 2018 because I heard the game had RWBY characters, that’s about all I know regarding Blazblue. 
 
Smash: I don’t know honestly. I’d say Kirby from 2014-2018, Pikachu from 2019-2021, and from there I’ve been rotating between Meta Knight, Lucas, and Isabelle. Smash has a lot of characters though so who knows really. Lol :3 as of recent I’ve had a bit of fun with Robin, please don’t get mad at me for that one though I know how the Smash community feels about Fire Emblem’s representation and I’d honestly agree with them for the most part. Actually lemme go on a side tangent here for a bit on who I think should stay and who should get outta here. 
Marth - Obviously needs to stay. That’s John Fire Emblem right there
Roy - Your time is up buddy. No hard feelings
Ike - Ike who? Yeah same with you.
Robin - Awakening saved the series everyone knows this you can stay.
Lucina - Marth clone. Bye bye.
Corrin - FUCK OUTTA HERE. Fates was the bad one, and Smash 4 had SIX Fire Emblem characters at this point. Fates wasn’t even out yet in the west when they were announced lmao.
Chrom - Not sure because Roy clone but also a very important character to Awakening, which again saved the series? Neutral on this one.
Byleth - HEAR ME OUT. They can stay. Represents the weapon triangle well,giving them a unique playstyle compared to others, also Three Houses was the best selling FE game. I think they deserve to stay and the only reason they were negatively received was because they were the 8th Fire Emblem character. Five of which have blue hair, pronouns and swords. If we replaced Roy, Ike and Corrin with Lyn, Edelgard, and Anna I think that would be much better.
So yeah, that’s what my FE Smash Bros roster looks like: Marth, Lyn, Anna, Robin, Edelgard, Chrom, and Byleth. I think that’s pretty good.
 
Unist: What is this? No genuinely, what is this one? I’ve never even heard this name before. I just looked it up and apparently it’s Under Night in Birth. Yeah, I recognize THAT name. I’ve seen Carmine before and she looks pretty cool. Orie is a cutie, and Nanase is pretty. Vatista looks cool too. I might have to check this out at some point, who knows? :P
 
Melty: Never played it. I only know Neco Arc (IM SORRY) looks a little interesting though 
 

Soul Calibur: I usually play my custom characters teehee. I do think Tira looks cute though but I’m not sure how to feel about her playstyle. Also some of the earlier games have some interesting guest characters for sure. Link? Yoda and Darth Vader? That’s insane!! Heihachi and Yoshimitsu from Tekken are also here if I remember correctly. I don’t play these games much honestly. 
 
GBVS: Granblue Fantasy VS? Yeah I know nothing about this series beyond the name. Oops. Also the fact that in one of the games apparently the word Fagott, a word for bassoon in some other languages, was misspelled as the f-slur in the credits. I haven’t seen any evidence for this beyond one tweet joking about it, but that’s it. 
 
Injustice: Injustice 1’s Story Mode was the first game I ever beat. I mained Doomsday as a kid and in 2 when he was removed I went with Atrocitus instead. Nowadays I main Harley Quinn because she’s my favorite DC character. I’m actually halfway decent with her. I’ve also liked playing as some of my other favorite DC characters such as Batman or Batgirl, who’s only in Injustice 1 but yeah
 
Darkstalkers: These games are so cool, my favorite has to be my girl Q-Bee though. I love bug girls as I’m sure all of you know, and she’s one of the coolest bug girls to ever bug girl. She’s only in the third game so I don’t really play the other two much if at all. I only have the Capcom Arcade Stadium versions of these games anyway, I’m probably gonna get the fighting collection at some point though. It’s sad that Darkstalkers is essentially a dead franchise because it’s really cool. I’d never heard of it until like two years ago. I'd seen Felicia before but I never knew who she was or where she was from. 
 
Dead or Alive: This is the gooner game right? I don’t know anything about it.
 
Samsho: Another name I’ve never heard before.
 
Touhou: Originally it said “Waifu” but that word makes me physically recoil so I’ve chosen Touhou instead here. I main Aya and Patchouli in the older Touhou fighting games, and in the newer ones I main Sumireko and Mamizou. Phantasmagoria games too uhh, Dim Dream Rikako, Flower View Tewi, and Unfinished Dream Seiran or Mamizou. 
 
Killer Instinct: Originally it said “SNES” but I don’t really know much about SNES fighting games aside from the previously mentioned franchises. Killer Instinct is a game I haven’t played since I was a kid, but there’s some sick ass characters I remember from these games. Cinder, Glacius, Orchid, Hisako, Spinal, etc. I should get back into this series fr. 
 
Anime Arena: Apparently this is a whole type of fighting game and idk much about it but I’ve heard they tend to be ass so idk. 

Brawlhalla: Originally said childhood main but I think I’ve talked in enough detail about those, so I’ll just choose a game I haven’t played since childhood, haha. I like Yumiko. Well, liked. Fait is pretty too… actually… Sigh. 
 
Rivals of Aether: My personal Indie pick. I’m a Maypul girlie! I haven’t played Rivals 2 but it looks absolutely sick. A new character dropped today I think :P it’s cool how the game has no DLC and every new character is free now, more games should do that *wink wink*
 
All-Time Favorite: Sakura. It’s Sakura. No contest. Lmao. 

Song of the Day: Jack off Jill - Vivica
I hate bands with names like this I just wanna recommend them to people but no it's gotta be a whole "You listen to a band called WHAT?!" type deal. 

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