tired

April 6th 2025

I don't know what my problem is. Whenever I try to get something finished I write like a paragraph and I don't know what else to say, I want to cry but I can't even bring myself to. I still wonder what I did to deserve this fate. What I did to have to depend on a bunch of pills to "function." I feel like my creative writing might actually take me somewhere, but I don't even know. I've been discouraged so much by those who claim they'd support me no matter what I choose to do with my life but now I want to do this and it's not enough? Sorry. 

I'm too scared to ask for help because I feel like I'm being degraded every time. I hate it so fucking much. I've had this stuff explained to me but when they're too vague with their explanations and I need help with something it's my fault for not getting it and I'm a worthless, lazy, retarded, I don't care about my future, whatever... I know the learning to drive thing is on me but honestly it really is fucking terrifying. Being in control of a massive death furnace and having to trust that everyone else on the road knows what the fuck they're doing and is fully sober is fucking terrifying! Is that really difficult to comprehend? No I don't want to drive, driving is fucking scary! I've had nightmares about getting into fatal car crashes that felt extremely vivid. That's horrifying. I just have to do it I guess. If it kills me it kills me. :)

Song of the Day: The Living Tombstone - Discord

I LOVE MLP DUDE WAIT

33 days until classes end. 

Repo! The Genetic Opera disappointed me.

April 5th 2025

this'll be fun.

So it's been about 10 months since I decided to watch Repo! The Genetic Opera. A weird science fiction horror musical with Paris Hilton. Fun fact! The budget for this film was like $8.5 million, and they only made less than $200k of that in the box office. Now that's just sad. Either way the movie isn't good, I don't know why I'm talking about it 10 months after watching it... it just lives rent free in my head lol. Zydrate Anatomy was a really good song. I liked the premise and it looked cool visually, but man it was so corny for lack of a better word im fuckin tired ok but it was corny as shit and kinda hard to watch at times. There's a song called Mark it Up, just listen to the song honestly I think it illustrates everything I dislike about this musical in one song. I love excessively edgy campy bullshit but this is just so corny. Also the guy behind it is allegedly a huge creep, and when you have that information in your brain while watching it makes it feel a lot more uncomfortable than it is without the context. I don't know much about the allegations and I'm not gonna get into that because it's not really what I want to talk about here, I just think it's important to bring up to contextualize my grievances with this mess of a musical. I wanted to like it, I even gaslit myself into liking it back in June. I even wanted to cosplay one of the characters, Blind Mag at one point. I'm not saying liking this movie makes you a horrible person, there were a few things I loved about it and I can definitely understand why someone would be into this and that's good for them but this is just something I haven't been able to get into because there's so much that bothers me about it. There's also honestly some really cool ideas here. This could've been a really interesting and unique commentary on the American healthcare system, I even liked the often criticized comic strip exposition! The bad still outweighs the good with this movie. Don't even get me started on the fucking ending. 

Anyways 4/10. I really tried to like it but fuck man. This just sucks. 

Song of the Day: Nicki Minaj - Only

nicki minaj asexual moodboard yo i never fucked i never fucked on my life man fucks sake my anaconda dont want none in general 

Media Log - April 5th:

41. Boris - Flood [8/10]

I love Spring but...

April 4th 2025

I'm going to be honest, Spring is kinda my favorite season. It's pretty, very pretty, I like the flowers and baby animals. That being said, I hate how bad my allergies get this time of year. I feel so damn sick and I have so much shit to do and it's hard to do shit when my allergies are fucking with my head. I love spring but this is so horrible. Winter and Autumn might be better to be honest. Not Summer though. Summer is very pretty and all but damn the heat is hard to deal with most days. Doesn't help that it's only getting hotter because of global warming... 

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Your Racist Friend

Very relevant song 35 years later. Lmao.

I EAT MORE CHICKEN THAN ANY MAN EVER SEEN

April 3rd 2025

I still can't believe Val Kilmer is gone. I've only seen Tombstone, but it truly is an incredible film. I've also been meaning to watch The Doors movie with him as Jim Morrison. The Doors is a great band by the way. Everyone talks about Jim but their keyboardist Ray Manzarek went something wacky on the self-titled album. Also he has a solo album called The Golden Scarab which is an awesome album name and I think I need to listen to that album lowkey. THE DOORS SELF TITLED IS PEAAAAK. I EAT MORE CHICKEN THAN ANY MAN EVER SEEN. I love my shitty cia funded circus music.

Song of the Day: The Doors - Alabama Song (Whisky Bar)

Underrated as hell, one of my favorite songs from this album. 

vyvanse tomorrow

April 2nd 2025

YA GIRL IS BACK ON VYVANSE AND GOT A HAIRCUT IM FEELING CUTE AND AWESOME!!! VYVANSE MY BELOVED!!!! I haven't been on it since like early 2022 and I think it contributed to a lot of my problems the past few years, I had a hard time functioning without it. Is that embarrassing? I dunno, probably. Also the Nintendo Switch 2 direct dropped and I have.... mixed feelings. $90 for physical games?? That aren't even really physical games because they have some weird bullshit thing they're doing with them. On top of that the console is $450 for practically 10+ year old hardware. It's just really bullshit. However I do have a lot of positive things to say about the game announcements so let's get right into that. 

Mario Kart World - Looks absolutely amazing. I've never been TOO into Mario Kart but it always is very much a fun time when I play it and this looks like it's gonna blow most of the previous titles out of the water. You can play as the Moo Moo Meadows cows now? Absolute insanity, I'm excited. Like I said though $90 is outrageous. Also the new Donkey Kong design is... not great. I liked the Mario movie. I called it "peak" when I first saw it. (I strongly disagree with my past self there) but I don't think it was good enough to justify this Donkey Kong redesign. 

Actual game chat was announced as well. It's about damn time too. The competitors have had this for decades. Leave it to Nintendo to be twenty years behind, though. I don't wanna be too pessimistic about this though, I think some of these features are really cool. Especially the camera thing, which I doubt I'll really be using too much personally but hey it's cool that it's an option. 

Also it launches four days after my birthday, so depending on how much money I get for my birthday I might be able to buy it when it comes out. Possibly. Still think the price is kinda bullshit though to be completely real with y'all. 

Welcome Tour - A glorified instruction manual sold separately? You gotta be kidding me lmao. 

I don't really have much to say about the Nintendo Switch 2 versions of a lot of Switch games. The Kirby and the Forgotten Land one looks interesting. New story for a game that was already fantastic? Sign me up!

Drag x Drive - Interesting little tech demo. Kinda reminds me of Rocket League, a game that I have not played lmao.

Elden Ring Tarnished Edition - Honestly? I tried to get into Elden Ring when it first came out and couldn't really. I'm sure it's a great game just wasn't really my thing I guess? Maybe now I have an excuse to give it another shot.

Hades II - I have not played either of the Hades games, definitely on my list though. Feel like I should mention I won't have much to say about the games that aren't Switch 2 exclusives.

Street Fighter 6 - Now for a game I have actually played. I already have it on PS5 so I don't think I'll buy it for Switch 2. I just hope that along with the release of the Switch 2 version we get a season 3 DLC announcement (SAKURA PLEASE IM BEGGING ON MY HANDS AND KNEES)

Daemon X Machina - I don't know what this is. Doesn't really look like something I'd be interested in but I guess it looks cool for someone who does like this type of thing.

Split Fiction - I also don't know what this is. It looks slightly more interesting to me though.

EA Sports - Also not my thing. Happy it's there for those who like it though.

Hogwarts Legacy - Look, I'm not gonna say "this game is bad because jk rowling harry potter" whatever. Honestly? The game looks fine to me. I obviously don't like JK Rowling as a person, and I'm sure you can enjoy this game just fine without liking her as a person. I also enjoyed the first two Harry Potter books I read when I was a kid. (I don't know if I'll still like them nowadays but whatever) It's just for me personally I don't wanna play something with her name attached to it. I dunno. 

Tony Hawk's Pro Skater - HELLL YEAH NOW WE'RE TALKIN ^_^

Hitman World of Assassination - No comment on this because again not really something I'd be interested in.

Bravely Default - These games always looked very interesting to me. Maybe I'll check this one out. I'm very much a sucker for JRPGs, especially Square Enix JRPGs.

Yakuza 0 - The Yakuza series has always intrigued me quite a bit, but I haven't played any of the games. Again, now I finally have an excuse I guess.

Hyrule Warriors - YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS WOOOOOOOO

GameCube - WIND WAKER!!! PATH OF RADIANCE!!! XD GALE OF DARKNESS!!! COLOSSEUM!!! SUPER MARIO STRIKERS!!! OH MY GODDDDDDDD. Also I'm glad the other classics are gonna still be on Switch 2. I don't know where I'd be without my Earthbound or Kirby 64. Which I haven't played in a while because my Switch online expired. I'll probably renew it if I have the money after this (unlikely)

Deltarune - DELTARUNE TOMORROW YESSSSS. In all seriousness I LOVE Deltarune, maybe even more than Undertale. The characters and story have more of an emotional grip on me personally. I still do love Undertale though. 

Borderlands 4 - I like Borderlands 2. Every game after that? Well, they exist! That's for sure. Don't even get me started on that damn movie.

Civ 7 - It's really funny how Luigi Mangione worked on Civ 6 and now that he's in prison Civ 7 is ass. Free my boy.

WWE 2K and NBA 2K - Yep. shit just got fucking awesome. 

Survival Kids - maybe.

Enter The Gungeon 2 - Okay, interesting! I wasn't too into the first one, maybe the second will be better.

Starseeker - alright I guess

Cyberpunk 2077 - Another game I've been interested in for a while. The fact that it's coming to Switch 2 is pretty bonkers.

Final Fantasy 7 Remake Intergrade - HELLA EXCITING!!!

Kunitsu-Gami - I fw capcom so this might be cool

Silksong - I'm not a Hollow Knight fan but I know how much y'all have been starving for anything related to Silksong. Happy for y'all.

Story of Seasons - looks cute.

Witchbrook - YESSSSS THIS LOOKS SO CUTE TAKE MY MONEY

Puyo Puyo Tetris 2S - OH MY GOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDD HYPEEEEEE

Rune Factory Guardians of Azuma - looks interesting

Marvel Cosmic Invasion - looks interesting

Star Wars Outlaws - looks interesting

I don't really have anything to say about ALL of these man sorry 

Fortnite - lmao 

Duskbloods - Nintendo Switch 2 exclusive FromSoft game? Oh lord..

Kirby Air Riders - I never played the original GameCube game but this is hella exciting. 

Donkey Kong Bananza - Looks cool but I really do NOT fw that redesign dear god.

Overall, despite the insane prices of both the games and the console itself, I'm pretty excited for the Switch 2. I don't think I'll be buying any of the non-exclusive games on Switch 2 as opposed to like PS or Steam or whatever, but I still think it's cool that they're on there. Overall I'm most excited for Puyo Puyo 2S, Deltarune Chapters 3+4, and Mario Kart World. 

Song of the Day: Ween - El Camino

Incredibly underrated. Shit goes absolutely wacky and bonkers.

MEDIA LOG - April 2nd:

39. Ween - White Pepper [9/10]

40. Ween - God Ween Satan: The Oneness [9/10]

One last thing from me. I would like to say rest in peace to Val Kilmer. Tombstone is an amazing movie and I highly recommend you check it out. His performance is what really brings the whole thing together. He's also played Batman and Jim Morrison but I haven't seen those movies yet.

ROWDY MANGO GIRL

April 1st 2025

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Song of the Day: LDRR - Mangos TikTok Version

This was made by a 13 year old lmao. If it wasn't obvious

Happy April!

Less saying, more doing.

March 31st 2025

Tired of being closeted irl I just wanna wear cute clothes and stuff irl without having to live in fear. Some of the ppl around here are nice, though. I feel like I'm slowly but surely starting to get on track with my life. It won't be easy but I'll get there. I need confidence, motivation, drive, and a good sleep schedule. I just need to lock in, essentially. My grades are pretty lackluster at the moment, but I've still got a month to take care of them. April will be my month just watch >:3 I need to stop saying and start doing though, honestly. 

I'll keep you guys updated on my self improvement. I have a lot of ideas but I've been too lazy to put them into action for the longest time. I've been saying a lot but not doing too much. I've been working hard with my community service but that's just one thing and it was two hours every week and I don't even have to do it anymore although I do enjoy it for the most part. Waking up early isn't fun, though. My point is, I'm getting there, but it's at a very slow pace. I'm not getting there fast enough and it's gonna make things difficult as my life goes on. I need to wake up and start getting shit done!! But again, it's easy to say all of these things. I just need to do them. 

Song of the Day: Antonio Vivaldi - Spring

Iconic, classic, and all around beautiful. Happy Spring!

Media Log - March 31st:
38. Antonio Vivaldi - The Four Seasons [9/10]

(performed by Academy of St. Martin in the Fields)

Work In Progress

March 30th 2025

I think I really need to get my license. I don't know, I need to get my life together in general. I feel like a work in progress, like I'm not ready to be seen by the world yet. Some day I will be, I just wish that day could come now. I don't wanna end up wasting my life because I'm trying to work on myself. I just want to be happy. I want to find peace with myself and how I feel about myself. It's a journey, a journey that will pay off immensely. I'm not too worried! 

Song of the Day: Elton John - I'm Still Standing

mwehehe >:3

meow teehee

March 29th 2025

My community service for this semester is finally finished! I enjoy doing this, but waking up early is a bit hard on me. I feel silly though, I need to finish this essay but as soon as I got home I passed the flip out. Also Animal Crossing update. I finally got an island with peaches as the native fruit so I'm keeping it. The starting villagers were Frita the Sheep and Billy the Goat. I don't plan on keeping them but for now they're cool I guess. The island is named Lincoln after the 1988 They Might Be Giants album. ^_^

Song of the Day: Tyla - Water

Never heard of this artist until today, but this is pretty good.

MEDIA LOG - March 29th:

37. Tyla - Tyla [8/10]

my top 100 lastfm artists of all time

March 28th 2025

Since November 2020, I've been tracking the music I listen to through a website called last.fm. Here are my top 100 artists of all time to celebrate. getting 100,000 scrobbles (last.fm word for play)

1. They Might Be Giants

2. Talkshow Boy (started listening to 3 years ago today!)

3. Ween

4. King Gizzard & the Lizard Wizard

5. Lemon Demon

6. Daft Punk

7. Weezer

8. The Residents

9. Kanye West

10. Death Grips

11. Lil Ugly Mane

12. Nirvana

13. Gorillaz

14. Will Wood and the Tapeworms

15. That Handsome Devil

16. Will Wood

17. Jack Stauber

18. Car Seat Headrest

19. Tyler, the Creator

20. Hail Mary Mallon

21. TISM

22. Rabbit Junk

23. Kendrick Lamar

24. The Beatles

25. Renard

26. System of a Down

27. Oingo Boingo

28. Logan Whitehurst and the Junior Science Club

29. My Chemical Romance

30. Jack Stauber's Micropop

31. Mother Mother

32. Self

33. Thundercat

34. Husker Du

35. Justice

36. Kate Bush

37. "Weird Al" Yankovic

38. OutKast

39. Tally Hall

40. Kero Kero Bonito

41. Mindless Self Indulgence (not proud of this one, don't know how they're still in my top 50)

42. Your Favorite Martian

43. The Prodigy

44. Miracle Musical

45. The Quick Brown Fox

46. Azealia Banks

47. Descendents

48. AJJ

49. Danny Brown

50. The Scary Jokes

51. LCD Soundsystem

52. M.I.A.

53. The Living Tombstone

54. 100 gecs

55. Bloodhound Gang

56. The Presidents of the United States of America

57. MF DOOM

58. Beat Happening

59. Ke$ha

60. Lil B

61. Pavement

62. Run the Jewels

63. Nero's Day at Disneyland

64. Toby Fox

65. Dinosaur Jr.

66. Jamiroquai

67. Busdriver

68. Radiohead

69. King Crimson

70. Penelope Scott

71. 1 Trait Danger

72. Caravan Palace

73. Daniel Johnston

74. The Weeknd

75. Le Tigre

76. SEGA Sound Team

77. Scissor Sisters

78. Sweet Trip

79. Denzel Curry

80. David Bowie

81. Joe Hawley

82. Captain Jack

83. Leslie Odom Jr.

84. Chumbawamba

85. Five Starcle Men

86. Queens of the Stone Age

87. Poppy

88. Frank Ocean

89. MGMT 

90. Elliott Smith

91. Green Day

92. Devo

93. Strong Bad

94. The Clash

95. Limp Bizkit

96. JPEGMAFIA

97. Neil Cicierega

98. Machine Girl

99. Elvis Costello & the Attractions

100. Smash Mouth

Song of the Day: The Residents - Burn Baby Burn

this was my 100,000th scrobble. 

Media Log - MARCH 28TH

35. The Residents - Wormwood [8/10]

36. Modest Mouse - The Moon & Antarctica [8/10]

TOMODACHI LIFE HAS RETURNED

March 27th 2025

Last night I made an Instagram story post in desperation, one last prayer for Tomodachi Life on the Nintendo Switch. My prayers were answered!!! MY PRAYERS WERE ANSWERED!!!! Tomodachi Life was one of my favorite games as a kid, probably just straight up my favorite. My original island was named Dream Island, I think it's obvious what that's a reference to. That one is since long gone though, and I've started new islands but I would always get bored kinda quickly. Tomodachi Life was a great game, but it always felt like there was something missing. I'm not exactly sure what that is, but it really does seem like Nintendo is gonna improve on everything that the last game kinda fumbled. 

Also my Mii looked really cute in the game!!!! There's a lot to be desired when it comes to the Mii Maker, in my opinion. However I did manage to make my Mii look seriously adorbs! I wish Miiverse and Miitomo were still around because my old Mii looked so boring and basic. I was kinda crazy on Miiverse, but that's a story for a different time. People always talk about being Google+ veterans and such, but Miiverse was my Google+ I don't think I was ever really popular on there but I was on there a lot. Specifically I liked roleplaying my OCs. Mostly self-inserts. I kinda miss roleplaying. 

Song of the Day: Tomodachi Life - Loving Things

I did a cover of this song when I was 11, I think it's lost forever now. Thank God. 

I'm tired.

March 26th 2025

Heyyyyyy.... so I'm pretty tired I didn't even go to class today I have an evil ass raging headache and I feel like I'm dying. I found this terrible fucking Nirvana techno cover album. Including songs like "Rape Me" and "Polly" which feels a little tasteless but who am I to judge? Either way the album is fucking ass. Also I had to block someone on RateYourMusic for the first time in four years. They didn't do anything I just saw a review from them so cringeworthy and vomit inducing it made me genuinely upset and I don't want to interact with the person who wrote it.

Song of the Day: System of a Down - Prison Song

I BUY MY CRACK MY SMACK MY BITCH RIGHT HERE IN HOLLYWOOOOD!!!!

hehehehehehehehhehehehehehe

March 25th 2025

hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

Song of the Day: Sublime - Smoke Two Joints

FNAFFAN87's dad reference.

Media Log: March 25th 

34. Grandaddy - Under the Western Freeway [10/10]

all that stress at the panda express

March 24th 2025

Rough morning today, rest of the day wasn't much better. It's all good though because I had Wendy's for dinner. I love Wendy's by the way in case u didn't know. ^_^

I'm gonna get through all of this. It's not gonna kill me. Leave me severely mentally drained? Probably, but I'll live for sure. At least ummm uhhh shshfjsfhdfshdjhdsghsdjhsdjfhsdjfhds fuh buh buh hehehehehhehehehe eumm blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh really getting into uhh music lately. i dunno what to say really. song of the day is gonna be mcdonalds in the pentagon because ppl are being really lame about it for no reason. Disliking something is one thing but some people are taking it too far. 

Song of the Day: Silly Stu - McDonald's in the Pentagon

it's fun and silly i enjoy it.

Media Log - MARCH 24TH:

33. Nazif Cela - Bubulina [8/10]

millions of peaches

March 23rd 2025

Started playing Animal Crossing again. Started a new island but tbh I might start over again though because I didn't like the fruit I got (I want peaches) (millions of peaches, peaches for me) (millions of peaches, peaches for free) peaches come from a can they were put there by a man in a factory downtown. movin to the country gonna eat me a lotta peaches movin to the country gonna eat me a lot of peaches. also i named my island pinkerton but i dont really like the name eithter even if weezer is awesome and cool im movin to the island gonna eat me a lotta peaches. 

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Millions of peaches, peaches for me.

Millions of peaches, peaches for free.

Song of the Day: The Presidents of the United States of America - Peaches

This and Lump were like my first favorite songs ever as a kid. Can't remember which one I liked more honestly, but the more I think about it probably this one. 

MEDIA LOG - March 23rd:

32. The Presidents of the United States of America - The Presidents of the United States of America [9/10]

Video Killed the Radio Star

March 22nd 2025

There's one thing I always thought about doing, yknow like radio stuff.... I don't know, it's just a thought. Only problem is nobody listens to the radio anymore. I know I don't, and I feel kinda bad about it. I could do podcasts or some shit, but a certain subset of cishet men have forever ruined podcasts and their reputation, which is sad because podcasts are great as a medium. Maybe it's not so bad. Oh yeah, I also watched the Sonic Movie after 5 years of putting it off. It was alright, I'm sure the sequels are much better at least. 

I'm really excited to see my girl Amy in the 4th one. She's my favorite character if you didn't know. That's why I need to play Sonic Frontiers actually I know she's playable in that one. She's also playable in Sonic Adventure 1 and I had unlocked her but I lost my save data, just another day in my stupid chungus life. I also listened to Twin Fantasy 2018 again today. It still holds up. You can say it's overrated and all or whatever but I truly do think it's just an amazing album. I love it so much. Beach-Life in Death is probably my favorite 10+ minute song of all time. 

Song of the Day: The Buggles - Video Killed the Radio Star

too true lol oops

MEDIA LOG - March 22nd:

28. Sonic the Hedgehog (2020) [7/10]

29. Sublime - 40 oz. to Freedom [8/10]

30. Mac DeMarco - 2 [8/10]

31. Car Seat Headrest - Twin Fantasy 2018 [10/10]

2chan

March 21st 2025

I wanted to figure out how to get silly ascii cats on my RYM and Steam page. Specifically the “MY ANTI DEPRESSANTS JUST KICKED IN ! FANTASTIC!” cat in  the gay car but I couldn’t figure it out. That whole thread was really fascinating. It said it was from 1993, but I don't think that's the case. Terms like ROFLCopter and some other jokes in the thread weren't really a thing until much later as far as I'm aware. Maybe they were ahead of their time for all I know. Also, Wikipedia says 2chan launched in 1999. So... what's going on here? Genuinely asking because I have no clue :P

Song of the Day: Radiohead - Just 

The Bends > OK Computer

Just > Creep

I'm just having fun!

March 20th 2025

The more that I think about it, the more I've started realizing my ratings on RYM aren't too accurate for how I truly feel about some of the stuff I've rated. I tried redoing my ratings but I realized I was then being a little too harsh so I think I've decided to take it slow. I have a weird system for rating music, but I can confidently say it works for me. LIKE OK MAYBE [insert album here] DOESN'T DESERVE A 10/10 TO YOU BUT I ENJOY IT SO UMMM... BUZZ OFF BLEHHH >_< I kinda like Maroon 5.

Limp Bizkit is easy to make fun of, but I think they're actually pretty great. I REALLY WANTED TO NOT LIKE THEM I TRIED MAN I TRIED but nope. I fw them heavy. Fred Durst seems like a pretty cool person too from what I've been told. I also rate a lot of singles on RYM and I don't mean non-album singles I mean like I'll rate as many singles as possible and it's kinda weird because I'll rate the B-Sides too and include them in the rating so Fell on Black Days is a 10/10 song but the single is an 8/10 because the other songs bring it down does that make sense or am I just weird...

Song of the Day: Black Sabbath - Iron Man

I have uh... an interesting history with this band. That's all I really can say bahaha...

Free Reign

March 19th 2025

Yeah! So, I read Free Reign chapter 1. I adore Helen and Keith so much. I didn't like Keith all that much throughout a majority of Beneath the Surface, but I did come around to liking him. Helen's a bit relatable I'm not gonna lie. I don't wanna spoil anything but the dynamic of these two is so adorable asdhasfgdhsdjfsjf. I'm just really scared about what's gonna happen with these two. I know they're both going to survive, since they both appear in Beneath the Surface, but I'm scared about what else could happen to them. What we've seen already is pretty heartbreaking already. I love Free Reign so much so far. FernHill County truly is awesome. 

Song of the Day: King Gizzard - Trapdoor 

i fell asleep with this on repeat the other day. 

Media Log - March 19th:

27. King Gizzard - Paper Mache Dream Balloon [AWESOME]

alone.

March 18th 2025

"You tried to play, but at the end of the day, it's you again, alone." - Dean Ween

alone.

In the grand scheme of things, 200 years was relatively young for a forest elf. Despite this, Valerie's years went by like they would for a human. That being, her life felt slow and grueling. She was short for her species as well. While other elves were six feet on average, Valerie was 5'2. Her eyesight was poor too. She had to wear glasses that unfortunately broke thirty years ago and she's been too scared to go into the city to have them replaced. Come to think of it, she's never been in the city. The few encounters she's had with humans were terrifying. Poachers, escaped convicts, thieves, all around creeps. Such is common in the Latrodectus Forest.

Her perspective on humans was entirely negative for the first two centuries of her life. This would all change one hot summer day. The day started out innocuous for Miss Valerie. Her usual routine consisted of getting up at the crack of dawn and beginning her work outside in her dainty little garden. The sun peeked through the trees and gently hugged her skin. For such a hard worker who spent many of her days out in the sun, she was rather pale and didn't have much upper body strength. She lived in a little cottage in the middle of the forest that she started a garden around, despite the soil not being the most fertile. She took care of her crops regularly and loved communicating with the local animals, considering them her only friends. After a couple hours of tending to her crops, she sat down on a tree stump. She sighed, wiping her brow. It usually took her a long day of work to tire herself out like this, but her sleep schedule has been gradually deteriorating for a while now, and as such she became worn out more often.

A beautiful white rabbit approached her. After spending so many decades out here, she was familiar with all the animals of this forest. She even gave them all names as well. This rabbit was known to her as Pierre.

"Bonjour, Pierre!" Valerie smiled. The animals could not actually speak, but Valerie had spent so much time with them she was able to understand their feelings. She sensed concern emanating off of Pierre. He started hopping, and Valerie felt obliged to continue in his direction. She followed the white rabbit, and as the journey became longer she realized that they were nearing the edge of the forest."

Hey wait..." Valerie muttered, a look of concern on her face. "I'm not ready to leave yet..."

"Fluffybutt!" A voice yelled out from the distance.

"Huh?!" Valerie shouted, startled. The bunny ran up to the source of the voice, jumping into his arms.

"There you are, Fluffybutt!" A young boy gently pets the rabbit. "I was wondering where you ran off to."

"Excuse me?" Valerie went into defense mode. She looked around for a gardening tool she could use as a weapon in case she needed to defend herself. That was until she noticed that the human standing before her was just a kid. Valerie had never been around kids before, so she didn't know how to act towards them. She'd seen old movies and read books in the past, which gave her a tiny understanding of what to expect with children, but not enough for her to feel totally confident when it comes to looking out for them.

"Fluffybutt!" The young boy smiled, holding up the rabbit. "I found him out here all alone, and I've been feeding him the past few weeks!"

"I see..." Valerie paused. "Where are your... parents?" Valerie knew what it was like to be orphaned, and she wondered if this was an uncomfortable question for her to be asking. "If you're comfortable sharing, that is..." she awkwardly added.

"Why do you ask, miss? Am I in trouble?"

"Wh-what?!" Valerie was unsure how to respond to this. "No? It's just... rather worrisome seeing someone so young out here by himself." Those words echoed in her mind. Those were words she heard from humans when she was growing up in solitude in the vast green. She even still hears them to this day, due to her short stature causing people to mistake her for a child.

"Mon dieu... what am I going to do about this kid?" Valerie thought to herself. The boy was staring at her with his big green eyes. Valerie sighed.

"What's your name, kid?" She politely inquired.

"My name is Ian. It's a pleasure to meet you." He bowed graciously and extended his hand. Valerie's understanding of human customs was just one thing on a laundry list of skills she lacked confidence in, but regardless she shook his hand and prayed that she didn't greatly offend his entire bloodline or something.

"Well, I'm Valerie. It's... a pleasure to meet you too." She laughed nervously. She considered bowing as well as a sign of respect, but decided against it out of fear of looking pathetic. "He's just a child. What am I so worried about?" She thought to herself once again. Her head was spinning. Her two centuries of isolation have left her a bit awkward around the few visitors she gets. If there's one thing she understands well, though. It's that children aren't capable of harm...right?

Valerie thinks back to what being a child was like for her. She was orphaned from a young age, she doesn't even recall a single memory of her parents. In her mind she concluded that they were slaughtered by human intruders in the forest, a fate many other elves face. In fact, she believed she was the endling of her species. Valerie's upbringing made her completely helpless in the face of danger, yet she always managed to survive. She wondered if it was the same way for human children, although she had her doubts.

She versed herself in human culture quite well. Despite her fear of going into the city herself, she managed to train animal companions to steal things for her. Books, food, weapons, tools, and many more important items. That's how she managed to acquire her now-broken glasses which were very convenient in helping her poor eyesight. Her band of thieves have yet to fetch her a new pair of glasses since she broke them nearly three decades ago. After many long years of fending for herself alone and terrified, she managed to build herself a house, finally able to keep warm with old yet fashionable clothing, as well as cook and garden for herself. She learned all of these things on her own, all from the materials she had animals steal for her. She knew it was wrong, but how else was she to survive? Even at the age of 200, she was a young adult, and still had much to learn.

She'd been lost in thought about the hardships she overcame for minutes now, and the little boy snapped her out of it.

"Miss Valerie?"

"Oh, Je suis désolé! What is it, young Ian?"

"Well, you were asking about how I'm all alone out here... but what about you? Don't you have, I dunno, a family or something?" He had a worried look on his face. Ian did not understand loneliness very well, but even his young mind understood that there was a powerful demon that was haunting Valerie for a while.

"I do not," She admitted. "I've been alone out here ever since I could remember. Surviving on my own, fighting on my own, comforting myself at night. The only real friends I have are the animals you see. Pierre for example."

"Pierre?" Ian tilted his head, confused.

Valerie sighed, "Fluffybutt..."

"Oh, yeah!! He's been taking good care of the both of us I suppose." He giggles.

"Yeah. I guess you could say that." She gave a friendly smile in return. Valerie was relieved, finally coming to the conclusion that the child was no threat to her. Although she still felt uneasy about the whole scenario. Who in their right mind would let a lone child wander out here like this? Even if he wasn't an orphan, and happened to just scamper away from his guardian, Valerie believed that it showed a lack of care and responsibility for the vulnerable. A part of her almost wanted to take this child into her care, but she didn't know the first thing about caring for a child. Not only that, but if his parents were alive, and they found out their child was under an elf's care, what would they do to her? She understood very well that human children were not the type to cause harm or danger to others, but she had firsthand knowledge of the pain and anguish adult humans caused to everything and everyone around them. There were simply too many risks, and she decided that the both of them needed to be alone again.

The interaction stuck with her for months on end. After some time, she gave up her farming duties and dedicated herself to a new role. Not just as the guardian of the forest, but as a watchful protector of any and all children who happen to find themselves lost in that forest. It was her mission to keep them out of danger, and she took it upon herself to return them safe to their families. This required her to occasionally step foot in the city, but she does her best to keep attention away from herself, and keep interactions to a minimum. She remains terrified of humans, but regardless of these fears she does not rest until she is assured that no children are in immediate danger in her vicinity. 

Song of the Day: Ween - Alone

It's Saint Patrick's Day!

March 17th 2025

"WE REALLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK IT'S NOT A MAJOR HOLIDAY!"

I think that video is really funny, but truly I do love St. Patrick's Day. I know most Americans have Irish heritage but mine means a lot to me for reasons that I do feel are a bit difficult to explain. It kinda just came from my mom. Her Irish heritage meant a lot to her, and as such mine meant a lot to me. That's kinda just how I grew up?

Same thing with the Filipino heritage, it's only like 6% but still,,, accordign to my mom my great great great grandmother was a Filipino headhunter princess or something was it great great or great great great? Which one would be 6% idk...

bluh im tired...

I love Ireland! and the Philippines!

Song of the Day: The Dropkick Murphys - I'm Shipping Up To Boston

I need to live in Boston lowkey.

Obsessed with my OCs again

March 16th 2025

I LOVE MY OCS BUT IM STILL SO SCARED TO SHOW THEM OFF >_<

soon though :P

I'm working on a google doc full of information and stuff :3 so not much I can talk abt today. 

Song of the Day: The Velvet Underground - Sister Ray

SHE BUSY SUCKIN ON MY DING-DONG🗣️🗣️🗣️

More things to add to my backlog...

March 15th 2025

I'm way too busy to check out either Free Reign Chapter 1, or the Inanimate Insanity Season 1 Remaster Episode 1. I do know Knife has a different VA because of some things that I'd prefer not to discuss because I don't have all the facts and it's some serious stuff being claimed, but I did hear Knife's new VA is an Irish trans woman which is awesome. Paper apparently doesn't have a new VA yet, he's one of my favorite characters so I hope that changes soon. Although it isn't likely if you're familiar with the original first season of Inanimate Insanity. I know there's lore reasons as to why season 1 is so amateur, but I think Season 1 getting a remaster would totally make it more accessible for new people to get into the series. We won't have to tell people to just "skip season 1 it's bad" anymore. 

Today's also the Ides of March and the 10th anniversary of To Pimp a Butterfly, but I don't have much to say about those things...

Song of the Day: Kendrick Lamar - King Kunta

One of the best songs on one of the best albums of all time. I personally prefer GKMC I think, but Thundercat's contributions to this album make it one of my all time favorites nonetheless. 

FERNHILL IS BACK AND IT'S SO HYPE

March 14th 2025 

Chapter 1 of the next FernHill County novel, Free Reign is releasing tomorrow. I have been close friends with the author Ivy Hope for years now and I am honored to be one of two winners of a giveaway who got early access to the beginning of chapter 1. I'm not really good at writing reviews but I've decided I'll just give my general thoughts on what I read. Spoiler free, of course. The first chapter isn't even out yet. Anyways, I can already tell from the beginning that this story is going to be much heavier and intense than Beneath the Surface. Even before the “twist” at the end of the preview, I could already tell something was up, with the tone and setting all feel much more bleak than the relatively lighter beginning of Chloe and Eden’s story, and I can't wait to read the full first chapter and see how this continues. 

I really don't have much else to say. Even if what I read wasn't very long, it was extremely interesting and has me hooked. I can promise you all that this is definitely worth the hype. ABSOLUTE PEAK incoming for sure. That's all from me bye now. I was really busy today so I couldn't talk too much about it but trust me it's peak 

Song of the Day: Motorhead - Ace of Spades 🪲

This sounds so much like Ween's "It's Gonna Be a Long Night" it makes me wonder if Ween got inspiration for that song from this one. 

 

Five Years, My Brain Hurts a Lot!

March 13th 2025

On March 13th 2020, COVID-19 was declared a national emergency in the United States. It was more than just a national emergency, though. It was a full-blown global pandemic. The world would never be the same. A 13 year old Nora Meadow was confused at this time. She just wanted to see her crushes again. Well, one of them. It's a long story. When she realized how long this supposed "two week break" would be, she was... confused. You see, I was just about to go into High School. I never could've imagined that I'd be starting my first year of high school in virtual classes, and I think that forever changed the way I am today.

On September 6th 2020, I came out as transgender. It was a very difficult thing to come to terms with, but I'm pretty happy with who I am now. I guess. That "me" is Nora. Honestly, my gender identity and how I feel about myself as a whole is very complicated, but I think human beings are just incredibly complicated and constantly changing creatures. We're not static, we go through phases, and maybe this whole girl thing is just a phase for me, but it does feel good. I think I'm hot and cool no matter what gender I am >:P

As long as I feel hot and cool and awesome I don't really care enough to worry about it any deeper than that. I'd like feminine clothes, though. I have a couple dresses but they don't really fit me that well... I just like wearing stuff that feels comfy. Clothing doesn't really matter to me. As long as it's comfortable and I look hot in it I feel good. I think I look pretty damn good in a tuxedo. 

then again i was psychoanalyzed by a buzzfeed quiz that said i have an appreciation for sharply dressed women. maybe i wanna be a sharply dressed woman myself. Lol I started yapping again huh... I guess that's all for tonight. 

Song of the Day: David Bowie - Five Years  ⏳

ok but the Kanye West theory about this song and the Ziggy Stardust album as a whole is really funny and interesting and I suggest checking it out. Maybe I could talk about it on here for another post? ;)

57 days until classes end 

Mila

March 12th 2025

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ABSOLUTE CINEMA
MILA MY BELOVEDDDDD

Song of the Day: Will Wood - Half Decade Hangover 🧠

Five years = Half a Decade. Wow. 

Investigate 311

March 11th 2025

Happy Investigate 311 day. 311 was an inside job. I really like 311 actually, I think. I'm not sure how to feel about them actually. They have 16 albums dude what the hell. Anyways just like I did last year I'm choosing a 311 song for the song of the day here. Probably Champagne. I like that one. Eric Andre makes a lot of jokes about 311 and I never understood why. That's actually where the Investigate 311 thing came from. It was his interview with Tyler the Creator I think. Tyler is an amazing artist, by the way. I do still need to listen to Chromakopia though. 

I don't really like Mindless Self Indulgence too much anymore. I really liked them when I was like 14. It's always 14.... I relistened to if today though because it was my favorite album back then. It's... still their best album. A 4/10 though. Never Wanted to Dance is mid. Evening Wear and Lights Out are good. Prescription is pretty great. Get it Up is okay. Mark David Chapman is the best song on this album. The rest is pretty ass. Issues, Mastermind, and Bomb This Track are some of the worst songs on here. Money isn't TOO bad though. Too bad is still bad though. 

I NEED TO READ THE FREE REIGN PREVIEW IT'S NOT EVEN THAT LONG I JUST HAVEN'T GOTTEN AROUND TO IT FUCK MY STUPID CHUNGUS LIFE AGHHHHH.... 4 DAYS IDES OF MARCH... Oh yeah, Tumblr is obsessed with the Ides of March for some reason. I mean it's kinda silly but now that I think about it they're out for blood. Y'know with Elon Musk and Donald Trump and all. I'm not saying it's justifieeeddd buuuuuut....Look throughout history at how evil people were removed from power. Just saying. Don't put me on a watchlist though this is all jokes in Minecraft. 

I still haven't gotten around to playing Balatro but it seems like an AWESOME game and I really need to play it. Monster Hunter Wilds too. I need to watch the Sonic Movies too. and I need to listen to Chromakopia and Exploitopia and GNX and Doctor Dark. I need to watch seasons 2 and 3 of Moral Orel and season 6 of Community. Also Tumblr is great, I love Tumblr. I'm a Tumblrmaniac. I also need to read the Sonic comics. I also need to read Amour Armageddon and THE FREE REIGN PREVIEW I WON AND I NEED TO DO MY SPOILER FREE REVIEW AGGGHHHHHHHH 

Song of the Day: 311 - Champagne 💉

always thought he sounded like Weird Al in this song.

MEDIA LOG - March 11th:

26. Mindless Self Indulgence - If [BAD]

Day 800

March 10th 2025

No Miku day yesterday I didn't feel like it. Gumi today. Also Mario day today but I'm hyperfixating on Sonic rn so I'm not celebrating that either. 

I love Gumi.

I'm also crushing on four different people now, and it does really seem like one of them likes me back but idk if I can do e-dating again. >_<

My tumblr is now in my links on my carrd. You should check out a blog called piendish as well. Very silly and I love piendish a lot. How could you say such a thang!

uh yeah.

Song of the Day: CircusP - Copycat 

I <3 GUMI :3

60 days until classes end

XD

March 9th 2025

IM TIRED OF CARING LOLZ XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD :P

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHH

Sonic Forces sucks.

Song of the Day: nivky - Don't Touch My Pizza >:( 

the cover is a major throwback. please don't tread on my cheeseburger.

idk

happy birfday women

March 8th 2025

Happy birthday women 

I don't really know what else to say. shoutout to #EPICYURI

SHOUTOUT TO EPIC YURIIIII

"but what about sonic" in my epicsauce headcanon Amy is just a fujoshi who ships Sonadow

We wish you a yuri Christmas.

Song of the Day: Nikki Gregoroff - My Sweet Passion 💘

"But the sphinx looked so cute I had to shave it" huh. 

I hate honkai star rail

March 7th 2025

Because every time someone says hsr I think they're talking about homestar runner but it's some anime game

but March 7th or whatever her name is? She's cute 

WHO THE FUCK MADE HER CRY????

Song of the Day: Chappell Roan - HOT TO GO! 🔥

Yeah she's goated, one of the best new artists of the 2020s honestly. 

I hope you had the time of your life.

March 6th 2025

Well, it's been one year since the incident. I wish it was longer now that I think about it. You said you'd changed but it didn't seem like you'd changed much for the better. Regardless, I'm glad to have you out of my life at this point. For like three months now... I hope you're doing well, and I hope you're with someone you can actually treat normally and not be weird about. Although that's doubtful.

Song of the Day: Green Day - Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) 😈

lol

I finally listened to the albumm

March 5th 2025

Today didn't start out all that great. I turned in a few assignments late but once classes were over I decided to listen to Supertramp's "Breakfast in America" and my god, what an amazing album. The Logical Song and the title track are easily the best songs on the album, but there isn't a song on here that I'd consider below an 8. 

Also, I'm probably gonna be doing my spoiler-free review of the Free Reign sneak peek I won in the next few days or so. I obviously wanna get it out before the first chapter officially releases but uh yeah. ^_^

Go listen to Breakfast in America it's an amazing album.

Song of the Day: Supertramp - The Logical Song 🧠

Most popular song on this album for a reason AGHHH its so good. 

Media Log - March 5th

25. Supertramp - Breakfast in America💿[M](10)

26. Moral Orel Season 1📺[G](8)

still peak

March 4th 2025

Listened to Nirvana's debut album, Bleach. It's still peak. Just an all around fire album with no songs below a 10/10. Maybe Paper Cuts idk...

Song of the Day: Nirvana - Swap Meet

Definitely one of my favorites from this album.

Media Log - March 4th

23. Nirvana - Bleach [M](10)

24. Duster - Contemporary Movement [G](8)

damn

March 3rd 2025

oops. fucked up my wonder pets speech, and im still not finished with my english essay

spanish exam tomorrow and english midterm to top it off ^_^ 

lovely.

Song of the Day: Ween - It's Gonna Be A Long Night

indeed it is 

10 years

March 2nd 2025

Five Nights at Freddy's 3, the game that introduced us to Springtrap, is now 10 years old today.

Also my new hyperfixation is Sonic the Hedgehog.

That's all I have to say today, I'm gonna finish my essays.

Song of the Day: DAGames - It's Time to Die🔥

SOOOO PEAK... I don't like TLT's FNaF 3 song.

not back on it joe still on it

March 1st 2025

Working hard trying to get my schoolwork done and my community service done. Also new hyperfixation incoming perhaps yall aint ready

Song of the Day: Lil Wayne - 6 Foot 7 Foot 

Real Gs move in silence like lasagna

bluh

February 28th 2025

i have nothing to talk about everything is just pissing me off right now.

I wanna rewatch BFDI, that has nothing to do with anything just thought I'd say that...

Song of the Day: Penelope Scott - Lukewarm 

Forgot how goated she is, definitely overhated. 

History Exam

February 27th 2025

I think I did pretty well on my history exam. At least, I hope I did. I don't know!!! I'm praying at least. I studied pretty hard but there were a few things I forgot and just had to guess on. The testing center is nice though, it's easy to focus in there. I'm definitely gonna keep going there to take tests like this, there's so few distractions I think it could help quite a bit!

Song of the Day: Thundercat - A Fan's Mail (Tron Song Suite II) 😺

This song is named after Thundercat's real life cat Tron. I also heard that the Tyler the Creator song "Tron Cat" got it's name from the feline but that might not be true. 

Actually, the cat's real name is Turbo Tron over 9000 baby Jesus Sally.

nowhere by pixeliien is PEAK.

February 26th 2025

A close long-time online friend of mine released two albums at the beginning of the month. So far I've only listened to her first album, nowhere, but it was PEAK!!!!!!!!! You may know pixeliien aka Maggie Jewell from her Novella Amour, Armageddon! or perhaps even the cover art for Ivy Hope's Beneath the Surface: A FernHill County Story. Regardless, you should listen to this album. 

You can buy her music on bandcamp here!!

I plan on checking out her other album as soon as I can find the time and I'll share my thoughts about that one as well...

Anyways gonna give my thoughts on every song. Please note that I am not good at talking in depth about things. I like these songs because they sound good but I hope my words regarding them can convince you to check them out, because "I think it sounds good :)" likely won't cut it. 

Also I'm doing my usual ratings system thing as always its not really that important i dont take it that seriously i just have to rate everything because it feeds some weird part of my brain that is obsessed with numbers and shit like that but the ratings aren't really all that significant I just feel like it gives a bit of clarity on my thoughts yknow but it really isnt meant to be taken seriously ok thats all disclaimer over now onto the uhh yeah

Track 1 - Crash

To create and share art is a very vulnerable thing. Especially when it's something as deeply personal as this. I'm going to try to be careful with my words here, I really don't want to say anything that could be taken the wrong way because I really truly love this album. I don't knowwww. 

[M] - Masterpiece (10/10)

Track 2 - F2 Pineapple

Probably the catchiest song on here, I'm probably gonna be finding this stuck in my head for the next few weeks. 

[M] - Masterpiece (10/10)

Track 3 - Haphe

God, this hits a little close to home. We don't need to get into that right now, but agghh. 

[M] - Masterpiece (10/10)

Track 4 - Jenny Jenny

This album hits really hard and hits really close to home. Especially this song and the previous one, god it hurts. 

[A] - Amazing (9/10)

Track 5 - Butterfly Effect

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH EEK AAAAHHHHHHHHHH

thats how my brain feels when i listne to this. kehehhe. 

[M] - Masterpiece (10/10)

Track 6 - Abide

I kinda relate to this? I'm not sure, I've had crushes in the past that made me feel like this in a way, but in my case it's different. Again I don't wanna get into it here.

[A] - Amazing (9/10)

Track 7 - Tacenda

A soft, almost lullaby-like song in contrast to the rest of the album, I think. Also, a lot of callbacks to previous songs on the album. I'm a stupid gay nerd so I LOVE when artists do this. 

[A] - Amazing (9/10)

Track 8 - Resurrect Me

There's something so painfully beautiful about the repeated lyrics in this one. Like a sense of sorrow and desperation.

[M] - Masterpiece (10/10)

Track 9 - Bonus Song

wont spoil but its worth it 

[G] - Good (8/10)

Overall - 10/10!!! Legitimately, I love this so much. Incredible debut album, Maggie! I can't wait to see what's in store for the future.

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ok I'm gonna leave yall with that because I have a lot of schoolwork to get done aggghhhh >_<

I'm still gonna try to make these posts worth reading every day, it's difficult writing quality journal entries most days, but I'm gonna try to do that while also staying on top of my schoolwork. It's difficult but I can do it. Wowza... It's good to be back! I know I didn't commit to the Meadowheart takeover for more than one post, but next time I'll try to do better guys sorrryyy.... 🙄🙄 I figured it would be annoying but tbh i dont care if it is this is MY journal I do what I want. 

Song of the Day: pixeliien - Tacenda 🧠

MY FRIENDS ARE SO TALENTED AAAAAGHHHHHH!

Media Log - February 26th 

22. pixeliien - nowhere [M] (10/10)

Nora updated brawl stars character ranking ^_^

February 25th 2025

HANK PEGGY BOBBY DALE PEGGY BILL HANK LUANNE DALE BOOMHAUER

1. Lily

2. Bea

3. Chester

4. Mandy

5. Colette

6. Penny

7. Barley

8. Juju

9. Janet

10. Draco

11. Byron

12. Cordelius

13. Rosa

14. Sprout

15. Bibi

16. Crow

17. Clancy

18. Lumi

19. Finx

MAMA A GIRL BEHIND YOU
20. Otis

21. Leon

22. Charlie

23. Darryl

24. Kit

25. Colt

26. 8-Bit

27. Fang

28. Meg

29. Bonnie

30. Belle

31. Griff

32. Ollie

33. Carl

34. Willow

35. Maisie

36. Shelly 

37. Eve

38. Poco

70S RESIDENTS DISCOGRAPHY

39. Rico

40. Gus

41. Mico

42. Buster

43. Stu

44. Lola

45. Jessie

46. Larry & Lawrie

47. Tick

48. R-T
49. Pam

50. Berry

51. Bo

52. Tara

53. El Primo

54. Brock

55. Melodie

56. Surge

57. Meeple

58. Moe

59. Max

60. Nita

61. Edgar

62. Dynamike

63. Gray

64. Pearl

65. Frank

66. Amber

67. Nani

68. Hank

69. Lou

70. Sandy

71. Spike

72. Shade

73. Bull

74. Emz

75. Gale

76. Chuck

77. Doug

WATER WITHOUT ANY ICE

78. Mr. P

79. Jacky

80. Sam

81. Gene

82. Ruffs

83. Mortis

84. Grom

85. Ash

baby pelican 👎

86. Buzz

87. Angelo

88. Piper

89. Squeak

BRIMSTONE

90. Kenji

Song of the Day: Gwen Stefani - Rich Girl 🪲

fiddler on the roof moment 😎

uh oh.

February 24th 2025

My Instagram was banned for like... three minutes? I'm not really sure what I did, I appealed and got it unbanned, but that was pretty odd. I can't comment for 3 days so it might have something to do with that. I'm a known yapper and sometimes I like ragebaiting, but it's generally innocuous stuff. I'm not being straight up offensive like some other people I've encountered in Instagram comments, usually I just comment stupid takes about music and such to make people mad. Half of the time I don't even believe them. Usually it's Anthony Fantano viewers because barely any of his fans can have an opinion of their own, they just parrot his takes. That's why I got a little nervous when his Lincoln review showed up in my recommended. It's the same garbage with Brad Taste viewers too. At least Fantano seems like a decent person and not a crashout like Brad Taste. At least Brad Taste's Mollusk review was pretty good. 

I also unlocked Kit in Brawl Stars today, I got him in a legendary drop. 

I also have an updated ranking I intend on dropping tmrw

Song of the Day: Billy Joel - Uptown Girl 💘

I LOVE BILLY JOEL!!!! MY GOATTT!!!!

Brawlington Star:

42. Kit

brawl talk!!!

February 23rd 2025

So....

FINX AND LUMI LOOK REALLY COOL IM EXCITED

MY GIRLS MANDY AND BEA GOT HYPERCHARGES

SOME REALLY AWESOME SKINS DROPPED

CARNIVAL MANDYYYYY <3 SHES SO CUTE I LOVE 

WE ALSO GOT THE MEEPLE SKIN YAYYYY

ALSO THE RUFFS AND SQUEAK SKINS LOOK RLLY COOL!!! IM ASUCKER FOR SCARABS!!! the carl skin is. whatever

AND THE NEW BUSTER SKIN IT'S KINDA LIKE BROKEN TIMELINE COLETTE (which im still a lil salty abt)

THE NEW JUJU SKIN ALSO LOOKS SO GOOD???? MY GIRL SO PRETTTY

AND PHARAOLLIE IS AWESOME

LUMI X DRACO NEW OTP!!!!!

Song of the Day: Madilyn Mei - Poppin Skittles ☢️

takes me back to 2020, this song released in 2025

uhh

41. Dynamike

phew long day today

February 22nd 2025

4 hours of community service, that felt really nice but man it was difficult at times. Then we had to run some errands after that. When I got home I had to work on homework. Eventful day and I didn't get much rest.... it's whatevs tho. it's not cookies for me just yet. I like doing my community service

Song of the Day: John Linnell - Montana 👻

hahahaha how tf can a state be a leg ....goofy ass.

LEMON DEMON PLUSHIE??

February 21st 2025

ok idk if i talked about this yet but YOUTOOZ IS DROPPING A LEMON DEMON PLUSHIE!!! I ALSO LEARNED THEYRE DOING BRAWL STARS MERCH TOO NOW????? THEY'RE DOING THIS SHIT TO ME ON PURPOSE I SWEAR TO GOD!!!!!! AAAGGGHHHHHHHHHHH

also yeah im just experimenting with lore stuff for now dont mind it..

SPEAKING OF KINDA RELATED UHHH

I WON MY FRIEND IVY'S FREE REIGN SNEAK PREVIEW GIVEAWAY!!!! EXPECT A SPOILER FREE REVIEW ONCE I GET AROUND TO IT!!!!!! THATS EXCITING

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Cabinet Man 💾

8 bit brawl star 

changes to my oc lore

February 20th 2025

making changes to my ocs' lore. I won't elaborate because I don't think anything is set in stone yet. I'm just experimenting at the moment, but we'll see.

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - 2082 ⏳

;)

brol star 

40. Sam

ranked brawl stars

February 19th 2025

I played ranked brawl stars for the first time. I was shocked by how fun it is. ^_^

ummm umm uhhh ummm

I'm in Bronze still, but it is what it is. I heard they're changing it up soon I just hope they don't mess it up...

yawnnn im sleepy goodnight...

Barley my goat...

Song of the Day: Johnny Cash - Folsom Prison Blues ⏳

When he flashbacks to when he was a baby, he never indicates where the baby part begins and ends. Does this mean he was a baby when he shot that man in Reno. The reference to crying seems to suggest this. 

ok i got that from a neil cicierega tweet that inspired him to make the Just a Baby mashup but it's still really funny. 

RIP Gwenpool

February 18th 2025

New Gwenpool series! Yay? Not quite. They're reviving Gwen Stacy and making her the new Gwenpool or some shit. Thanks for ruining the entire point of Gwenpool's character... apparently it's some kinda identity theft thing or whatever and Gwen Poole is still Gwenpool but man it's still stupid.

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Istanbul ⏳

Always loved this song as a kid little did I know they'd be my favorite band years later.

bleh

February 17th 2025

im tired im sick i dont feel very goated

goodnight

weezer

Song of the Day: Weezer - Pink Triangle 💘

I do love this song but I get why people find it weird. Pinkerton is honestly a somewhat misunderstood album but I do kinda understand where the misunderstanding comes from.

I fw kamen rider now

February 16th 2025

Just learned that the bug coin meme image whatever is from Kamen Rider I didn't know that I thought it was a goofy touhou manga but thats cool I think I fw Kamen Rider now and I fw bug coin.

Also I always knew Everything You Know Is Wrong by Weird Al was a TMBG tribute homage whatever ya wanna call it but I didn't realize there were this many references in the song. 

Song of the Day: Weird Al Yankovic - Everything You Know Is Wrong ⚡

The best TMBG song that TMBG never wrote. 

brol star collection update

37. Shade

38. Edgar

39. Grom

nora brol star ranking epic time yay

February 15th 2025

💜 FAVORITES 💜

1. Chester

2. Mandy

3. Bea

4. Lily

5. Colette

6. Penny

7. Draco

8. Byron

9. Cordelius

10. Rosa

11. Bibi

12. Otis

13. Charlie

14. Leon

💙 LOVE 💙

15. Sprout

16. Barley

17. Darryl

18. Kit

19. Colt

20. Poco

21. Crow

22. 8-Bit

23. Fang

24. Carl

25. Meg

26.Griff

27. Ollie

28. Bonnie

29. Janet

30. Clancy

31. Gus

32. Belle

33. Eve

💚 LIKE 💚

34. Willow

35. Mico

36. Juju

37. Maisie

38. Larry & Lawrie

39. Buster

40. Tick

41. Shelly

42. Stu

43. Lola

44. R-T
45. Pam

46. Jessie

47. Berry

48. Bo

49. Tara

50. El Primo

51. Brock

52. Max

53. Nita

54. Emz

55. Sandy

56. Spike

57. Rico

58. Shade

59. Bull

60. Amber

61. Chuck

62. Nani

💛 NEUTRAL 💛

63. Edgar

64. Mr. P

65. Gale

66. Lou

67. Dynamike

68. Jacky

69. Hank

70. Gray

71. Sam

72. Moe

73. Meeple

74. Gene

75. Ruffs

76. Frank

77. Mortis

78. Pearl

79. Surge

80. Grom

81. Ash

🧡 DISLIKE 🧡

82. Melodie

83. Doug

84. Buzz

85. Piper

86. Angelo

87. Squeak

❤️ HATE ❤️

88. Kenji

Song of the Day: Lil Ugly Mane - Benadryl Submarine 💉

this song made ben shapiro cry. not really but imagine

valentimes is serious times

February 14th 2025

hehehehe... i forgot how funny teen girl squad is.... 

TINES!!!! TIIIIINESSS!!!!! TINESSS!!!!

I don't have a valentine, dont think anyone wants to kiss a nerdy transfem meme page admin.... 

even if they do i cant drive and i hyperfixate on the dumbest gayest bullshit....

I have a lil crush on somebody but I don't think I have a chance with them,,,,,, im sleepy.

Song of the Day: The Beach Boys - Good Vibrations 💘

One of those songs... genuine masterpiece oh my goodness. 

I had a vision

February 13th 2025

lowkey just had a vision and i think i should read homestuck again i might... i might...

It's been about 11 months since I finished Homestuck for the first time ever last year, and idk I wanna read it again tbh... maybe I'll take my time with it this time around though instead of finishing it in six days because I don't think I processed as much of it as I should've... also taking breaks is good I only took like a couple breaks a day from the comic which... isn't great. 

TwT

Song of the Day: The Doors - Break on Through (To The Other Side) 🔥
I LOVE SHITTY CIA FUNDED CIRCUS MUSIC!!! 

brol star

February 12th 2025

started playing brawl stars again, forgot how fun this game is. 

thats all goodnighties!! <3

also been tryna memorize the periodic table of elements again because tmbg and tom lehrer's songs were how i first learned about those artists as a kid ^_^

Song of the Day: Tom Lehrer - The Elements 💉

peak!!! 

sip sippin on orphan tears

February 11th 2025

So I was really into Gorillaz in Middle School. I also had the hugest crush on this girl I sat next to in English class. (Same girl I talked about having a crush on early last year. I've liked her on and off for almost six years now and I'm still scared to talk to her.)

uhhh anyways I also started listening to Your Favorite Martian because I had become convinced they were kinda the same deal and uhhh yeah....

this resulted in me learning the lyrics to ORPHAN TEARS of all songs in an attempt to impress her... I never wnet through with it but god that wouldve been so embarrassing...

I'm sure she liked me as a friend but my squidward impressions and other annoying bullshit probably turned her away from me. Also I was kind of an asshole because idk bullshit it was 8th grade and I was stupid. I hope we can be friends again but I've been too terrified to reach out. 

Song of the Day: Your Favorite Martian - Orphan Tears 🧠

lowkey still goes CRAZY. 

been on some kero kero shit recently

February 10th 2025

It's not just tmbg that I've been listening to lately. I also been on a bit of a Kero Kero Bonito kick as of recent. They're quite goated. 

As well as The Beatles, The Beach Boys, Weezer, Ween, King Gizzard, The Residents

among others. :P

Song of the Day: Kero Kero Bonito - Lipslap 🌵

Lowkey one of my favorite songs from them

super bowl

February 9th 2025

GO BIRDS FUCK THE CHIEFS I DONT EVEN LIKE THE EAGLES BUT I HATE THE CHIEFS YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

also Death Grips allegedly broke up. That really sucks. I get it though, their fanbase is fucking awful. Love the music though.

Song of the Day: Death Grips - Disappointed 🩸

Isn't this song legit a "fuck you" to their shitty ass fans or something? Idk just somethin I heard a while back. Based if true. 

the fuck is wrong with kanye

February 8th 2025

Kanye being a piece of shit on Twitter again. That "Kanye. Elon. Trump." tweet the GOP made is really fucking funny now. 

Here's my uhh tmbg album ranking

1. John Henry <3

2. They Might Be Giants

3. Flood

4. Lincoln

5. Apollo 18

6. The Else

7. Mink Car

8. I Like Fun

9. Join Us

10. Factory Showroom

11. The Spine

12. Phone Power

13. Glean

14. BOOK

15. My Murdered Remains

16. Nanobots

17. Long Tall Weekend

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Till My Head Falls Off 💉

one of their best, took me years to realize that though.

i should start playing brawl star again :P

February 7th 2025

Greetings and citations fine shyt!

(Remembers she's British)

Greetings huzzington! ☕🧐

They said the queen died but you look alive to me! 

Wanna go out for fish and chips later tonight, fine shyte?

Sorry.

It's a cute skin I love it

Song of the Day: Gorillaz - Re-Hash 🩸

first song on gorillaz first album. pretty fire if I do say so myself .

America's National Epic.

February 6th 2025

Today we ask the question. Does America truly have a national epic?
We do, there is a legitimate answer. No, it's not Chris Chan. It's Homestuck.

Maybe even some of the things my followers on glutenpee suggested:

- Hamilton

- Albuquerque by Weird Al

- Big Iron by Marty Robbins

- Sesame Street

- American Pie by Don McLean

- Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck

- Robocop

- The Super Bowl

- Human Centipede

- Tails Gets Trolled

- The Book of Mormon

- Johnny Appleseed

Song of the Day: Weird Al - Albuquerque 🌵

Definitely a contender. 

I hit the following limit...

February 5th 2025

So I hit the following limit on Instagram, which is 7,500 people. Gonna start clearing out my following list kehehehehe.... 

idk what number i plan to get down to, but enough to where i can continue following new ppl to a point where it doesn't feel like a problem

today is the one year anniversary of me meeting she who must not be named :P 

i don't miss her, i miss the nice things i felt with her. it was all a facade though... she was incredibly manipulative and some of the things she did are like borderline abuse. The constant pestering for nudes and stuff and just ugh... I know I had my faults but what the fuck... not to mention how much she loved dismissing every concern I had. but go on and tell me about how you "love on a deep level". psh....regardless I wish her the best and hope and pray that she can learn from everything she put me through. 

I'm not gonna talk any more about that... damn.

Song of the Day: They Might Be Giants - Man It's So Loud In Here 🎵

amelia meadowheart lovell reference

bluh.