So long and goodnight.

December 31st 2024

Month Ranking:

1. May - 9/10

2. June - 8/10

3. April - 8/10

4. November - 7/10

5. October - 7/10

6. August - 7/10

7. February 5/10

8. January 5/10

9. December 5/10

10. March 5/10

11. September 4/10

12. July 0/10

Overall. I'd say this year was a 5/10. Despite turning 18 and starting college and all of that a lot of really bad shit happened to me this year and I'm hoping 2025 can be kinder not just to me but to everyone else. 

Year Ranking:

1. 2023 - 8/10

2. 2024 - 5/10

Song of the Day

January

1st: Oingo Boingo - Grey Matter

2nd: Daft Punk - Technologic

3rd: M.I.A. - Y.A.L.A.

4th: Thundercat & Tame Impala - No More Lies

5th: Up Dharma Down - Lazy Daisy

6th: Danny Brown - Tantor

7th: Jay Eazy - Mega Man

8th: Lemon Demon - Sweet Bod

9th: Kendrick Lamar - Untitled 08

10th: Gorillaz - Spitting out the Demons

11th: Black Dresses - Understanding

12th: KIDS SEE GHOSTS - Freeee (Ghost Town Pt. 2) 

13th: They Might Be Giants - The Mesopotamians 

14th: The Residents - Spotted Pinto Bean

15th: David Bowie - What in the World

16th: Kate Bush - Sat In Your Lap

17th: Buddy Holly - Everyday

18th: TISM - Play Mistral For Me

19th: Sleater-Kinney - Crusader

20th: TISM - Saturday Night Palsy

21st: Lemon Demon - Your Evil Shadow Has a Cup of Tea

22nd: Stereolab - The Flower Called Nowhere

23rd: Nirvana - All Apologies

24th: They Might Be Giants - We Want a Rock

25th: Nirvana - Love Buzz

26th: Mother Mother - Little Pistol

27th: Pitbull - Timber

28th: The Chain Gang of 1974 - Make My Body

29th: The Strokes - The Adults Are Talking

30th: Demi Lovato - Still Alive

31st: Ween - The Argus

February

1st: Yuno Miles - Road to Riches

2nd: Beat Happening - Teenage Caveman

3rd: 99 Cent Baby - Wicked Weed

4th: Hoplites - Ἡ τ​ῶ​ν λ​υ​σ​σ​η​μ​ά​τ​ω​ν ἄ​γ​γ​ε​λ​ο​ς

5th: Tapir! - On A Grassy Knoll (We'll Bow Together)

6th: 1 Trait Danger - Back Up (He's The Man)

7th: Talking Heads - Burning Down the House

8th: Nirvana - Territorial Pissings

9th: Armpit Termites - Cold and Damp Farmers

10th: Kanye West -  Last Call

11th: Lil Ugly Mane - Twistin'

12th: AJJ - Brave as a Noun

13th: Akofa Akoussah - Dandou Kodjo

14th: Lemon Demon - Cat Hacks

15th: They Might Be Giants - Boat of Car

16th: The Doors - The Crystal Ship

17th: My Singing Monsters - Cold Island

18th: Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody

19th: Pavement - Spit on a Stranger

20th: Orchestra Baobab - On verra ca

21st: King Gizzard - Invisible Face

22nd: Green Day - Coming Clean

23rd: Lizzy McAlpine - Ceilings

24th: Thin Lizzy - The Boys are Back In Town

25th: Plus-Tech Squeeze Box - Rocket Coaster

26th: My Bloody Valentine - Sometimes

27th: Peter Gabriel - Sledgehammer

28th: sElf - Dead Man

29th: Lemon Demon - No Eyed Girl

March

1st: Cake - The Distance

2nd: PinocchioP - Anonymous M

3rd: Mount Shasta - Mother Fucker Bradshaw

4th: sElf - Paint by Numbers

5th: Stomach Book - Tragedy

6th: Talkshow Boy - Fry Me in a Pan

7th: Queens of the Stone Age - Head Like a Haunted House

8th: Thundercat - Dragonball Durag

9th: Logan Whitehurst - The Jr. Science Club Theme

10th: Duran Duran - Girls on Film

11th: 311 - Beautiful Disaster

12th: Toby Fox - The World Revolving

13th: King Crimson - Starless

14th: Butthole Surfers - Human Cannonball

15th: Kylee Henke - You Can't Fight the Homestuck 

16th: Toy-Box - E.T.

17th: Kyle Gordon - Irish Drinking Song

18th: Jack Stauber - Fighter

19th: sElf - Hey Hipster

20th: System of a Down - Spiders

21st: Jack Stauber - Cheeseburger Family

22nd: The Scary Jokes - Apple Pie

23rd: The Scary Jokes - Pygmalion

24th: Lemon Demon - A Mask of My Own Face

25th: Chonny Jash - The Bidding

26th: LCD Soundsystem - Dance Yrself Clean

27th: My Chemical Romance - Demolition Lovers

28th: Talkshow Boy - Freaky Teen Fashion (Time for a Makeover!)

29th: Mr. Bungle - Carousel

30th: Stone Temple Pilots - Plush

31st: Will Wood - I/Me/Myself

April

1st: Kanye West - All of the Lights

2nd: Pavement - Blue Hawaiian

3rd: Би-2 - Варвара

4th: Run DMC - It's Tricky

5th: Boney M. - Rasputin

6th: Thundercat - Drink Dat

7th: Tinashe - High Speed Chase

8th: Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse of the Heart

9th: My Chemical Romance - Destroya

10th: MGMT - Electric Feel 

11th: Rabbit Junk - Roadside Art

12th: System of a Down - Toxicity

13th: Gregor McMurray - What I Want

14th: The Prodigy - Mindfields 

15th: A Touch of Class - Around the World

16th: Auli'i Cravalho - How Far I'll Go

17th: Queen - Killer Queen

18th: Cardiacs - A Little Man and a House

19th: sElf - Ordinaire

20th: sElf - Meg Ryan

21st: Lin-Manuel Miranda - Alexander Hamilton

22nd: Gorillaz - Plastic Beach

23rd: Lil Ugly Mane - Clapping Seal

24th: Kate Bush - Army Dreamers

25th: Hail Mary Mallon - Hang Ten

26th: Cojum Dip - Moon Waltz

27th: Oingo Boingo - Stay

28th: Weezer - Hash Pipe

29th: RichardVox - Under the Stars

30th: Taylor Swift - Lover

May

1st: Aesop Rock - None Shall Pass

2nd: The Residents - Laughing Song

3rd: LCD Soundsystem - I Can Change

4th: PLUMMCORP RECORDS - Dracula Flow 5

5th: Cambodian Space Project - Have Visa, No Have Rice

6th: Caravan Palace - Lay Down

7th: Molchat Doma - Sudno

8th: Ween - Bananas and Blow

9th: Kendrick Lamar - Money Trees

10th: Daft Punk - Get Lucky

11th: The Hush Sound - Wine Red

12th: SOPHIE - Faceshopping

13th: King Gizzard - Dirt

14th: Justice - Generator

15th: Poppy - Bloodmoney

16th: Saz'iso - Kaba me klarinete

17th: Tyler the Creator - A BOY IS A GUN*

18th: Talking Heads - Houses in Motion

19th: The Scary Jokes - Starstruck

20th: Bob Dylan - Rainy Day Women #12 & #35

21st: Will Wood - Aikido! (Neurotic/Erotic)

22nd: Mahwash - Paye ashq

23rd: Sophie Nzayisenga - Inyambo

24th: Lin-Manuel Miranda - My Shot

25th: Ween - Demon Sweat

26th: Skiantos - Il rock ti da lo shock

27th: Sleater-Kinney - Hell

28th: Nick Drake - Pink Moon

29th: The Presidents of the United States of America - Kitty

30th: Steve Miller Band - Fly Like an Eagle

31st: Gorillaz - O Green World

June

1st: My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade

2nd: Danny Brown - uknowhatimsayin?

3rd: Spellling - Sweet Talk

4th: The Weeknd - Ordinary Life

5th: Ellen Arkbro & Johan Graden - Waqt

6th: Sarah Brightman - Chase the Morning

7th: Darkestrah - Quest for the Soul

8th: Beth Gibbons - For Sale

9th: Ntirenganya, Ntakirutimana, Nzayisenga, Rwanamiza - Ikondera Tune

10th: sElf - So Low

11th: Elliott Smith - Ballad of Big Nothing

12th: Charli XCX - Apple

13th: Toy-Box - The Sailor Song

14th: Low - Medicine Magazine

15th: The Longest Johns - Drunken Sailor

16th: Britney Spears - Radar

17th: Sufjan Stevens - Shit Talk

18th: Death Grips - Double Helix

19th: Paramore - Fences

20th: Dear Nora - The Lonesome Border Pt. 1

21st: KMFDM - Spit Sperm

22nd: Lemon Demon - Modify

23rd: Neutral Milk Hotel - In The Aeroplane Over the Sea

24th: The Hush Sound - Where We Went Wrong

25th: Jamiroquai - Destitute Illusions

26th: Peaches - Rock Show

27th: Le Tigre - My My Metrocard

28th: The Dresden Dolls - Coin Operated Boy

29th: King Gizzard - Catching Smoke

30th: Jonathan Coulton - Code Monkey

July

1st: Scissor Sisters - I Can't Decide

2nd: Dear Nora - Mountain Rock

3rd: Ludacris - Area Codes

4th: sElf - Trunk Fulla Amps

5th: The Smashing Pumpkins - Beautiful

6th: Kendrick Lamar - Blow My High

7th: sElf - Kill the Barflies

8th: Buckshot Princess - Animal Cannibal

9th: Smash Mouth - All Star

10th: Run the Jewels - Oh My Darling Don't Cry

11th: Toby Fox - Here We Are

12th: DMX - X Gon' Give It To Ya

13th: They Might Be Giants - Experimental Film

14th: My Chemical Romance - You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison

15th: Green Day - Having a Blast

16th: Weezer - Undone - The Sweater Song

17th: Chilly Makes Music - Lost Haven / Shillings

18th: Oingo Boingo - Insects

19th: Madvillain - Meat Grinder

20th: "Weird Al" Yankovic - Polkamania

21st: OutKast - Synthesizer

22nd: Big Star - The Ballad of El Goodo

23rd: Jamiroquai - Emergency On Planet Earth
24th: CKY - 96 Quite Bitter Beings

25th: Bob Dylan - Highway 61 Revisited

26th: Ariel Pink - Gray Sunset

27th: Marina - Bubblegum Bitch

28th: Ween - So Many People in the Neighborhood

29th: Panchiko - Stabilisers For Big Boys

30th: Queen - I Want to Break Free

31st: Sublime - What I Got

August

1st: Max Eider - Quiet Lives

2nd: Danny Brown - Dark Sword Angel

3rd: Fairuz - Baatelak 

4th: Sheck Wes - Mo Bamba

5th: Will Wood - Cotard's Solution

6th: Mahavishnu Orchestra - A Lotus on Irish Streams

7th: The Mothers of Invention - Valarie 

8th: The Living Tombstone - Five Nights at Freddy's

9th: King Gizzard - Le Risque

10th: Pharrell Williams - Hug Me

11th: The Residents - The Sold-Out Artist

12th: Lifeseeker - Devils Down and Out

13th: Weezer - Say it Ain't So

14th: Weezer - Thank God For Girls

15th: Bill Wolfgramme and His Islanders - Orchid Lei

16th: Weezer - Dope Nose

17th: Oingo Boingo - Heard Somebody Cry

18th: Fortnite - Gwenpool's Multiverse

19th: Weezer - Endless Bummer

20th: Weezer - Troublemaker

21st: Ozma - Suicide Song

22nd: Weezer - Beach Boys

23rd: The Residents - Bach is Dead

24th: That Handsome Devil - Cry

25th: Focus - Birth

26th: My Chemical Romance - Planetary (GO!)

27th: Bjork - Enjoy

28th: The Residents - The Ultimate Disaster

29th: Weird Al - Word Crimes

30th: sElf - I Am A Little Explosion

31st: King Gizzard - Sleep Drifter

September

1st: Will Wood - Cicada Days

2nd: They Might Be Giants - Someone Keeps Moving My Chair

3rd: The Dresden Dolls - Mandy Goes to Med School

4th: System of a Down - Chop Suey

5th: Will Wood - Willard!

6th: Will Wood - Hand Me My Shovel, I'm Going In!

7th: Rabbit Junk - Devotee

8th: Linda Ronstadt and James Ingram - Somewhere Out There

9th: IOSYS - Cirno's Perfect Math Class

10th: Miracle Musical - Variations on a Cloud

11th: Ween - Molly

12th: Ludacris - Move Bitch

13th: They Might Be Giants - Out of Jail

14th: Lillian Castillo - Sugar Cloud 

15th: doriko - Romeo & Cinderella

16th: syudou - Bitter Choco Decoration

17th: Mitski - My Love Mine All Mine

18th: Sham Rock - Tell Me Ma

19th: Slipknot - Snuff

20th: Mount Shasta - Stella

21st: Earth, Wind, & Fire - September

22nd: Weezer - Run, Raven, Run

23rd: Ricky Montgomery - This December

24th: The Residents - Suburban Bathers

25th: Car Seat Headrest - Hollywood

26th: Oingo Boingo - Who Do You Want to Be

27th: Lemon Demon - Your Imaginary Friend

28th: Nero's Day at Disneyland - Lost In Bonerland 

29th: Marcy Playground - Sex & Candy

30th: Jack Stauber - Baby Hotline

October

1st: The Residents - Boo Who

2nd: Oingo Boingo - No One Lives Forever

3rd: Sodikken - ムダな君

4th: Jack Stauber - Windrag

5th: Paul McCartney - Temporary Secretary

6th: Lemon Demon - The Machine

7th: Kids See Ghosts - Kids See Ghosts

8th: They Might Be Giants - Yeh Yeh

9th: Hozier - Take Me To Church

10th: They Might Be Giants - Road Movie to Berlin

11th: Glass Beach - Bedroom Community

12th: Inanimate Insanity - Afterlife in the Limelight

13th: Inanimate Insanity - Taco's Tirade

14th: Cojum Dip - 143430 Pluto

15th: Taco - Puttin' on the Ritz

16th: Shitmat - Whitelabel Unity

17th: Joji - Tick Tock

18th: DEVO - Cold War

19th: They Might Be Giants - Cloisonne 

20th: Tom Cardy - Red Flags

21st: Lemon Demon - I Earn My Life

22nd: Gloria Gaynor - I Will Survive 

23rd: Bloodhound Gang - Fire Water Burn

24th: The Beatles - Yellow Submarine

25th: They Might Be Giants - Who Are the Electors?
26th: The Garden - All Access

27th: Lil B - Bitch I'm Bill Clinton

28th: Kobyshinobi - The Drink (Cup)

29th: clipping. - Say the Name

30th: Niko B - Why's This Dealer?
31st: Talking Heads - Psycho Killer

November

1st: Car Seat Headrest - The Ending of Dramamine

2nd: OutKast - Humble Mumble

3rd: Will Wood - Chemical Overreaction / Compound Fracture

4th: Kero Kero Bonito - Sick Beat

5th: Daveed Diggs - The Election of 1800

6th: Jukebox the Ghost - Under My Skin

7th: Gorillaz - Ascension

8th: The Taxpayers - I Love You Like an Alcoholic

9th: BUSDRIVER - Avantcore

10th: Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out

11th: Jawny - Honeypie

12th: Gorillaz - Kansas

13th: Flo Rida - Right Round

14th: Cyndi Grecco - Making Our Dreams Come True

15th: Weird Al Yankovic - Hardware Store

16th: Bruno Mars - APT.

17th: The Beatles - Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds

18th: Psycho Teddy - Psycho Teddy

19th: Wiz Khalifa - Black and Yellow

20th: Mobb Deep - Shook Ones Pt. 2

21st: Henry Hall - I Like Bananas (Because They Have No Bones)

22nd: Marina - Hermit the Frog 

23rd: Logan Whitehurst - The Volcano Song

24th: My Chemical Romance - House of Wolves

25th: TV Girl - Taking What's Not Yours

26th: They Might Be Giants - Kiss Me Son of God

27th: Weird Al Yankovic - Amish Paradise

28th: Childish Gambino - Do Ya Like

29th: Antony Kos - Karma Waits

30th: Porter Robinson - Goodbye to a World

December

1st: Jack Stauber - My Plea

2nd: Lipps Inc. - Funkytown

3rd: Barenaked Ladies - One Week

4th: Phillipa Soo - The Schuyler Sisters

5th: Ween - Cold Blows the Wind

6th: Simon & Garfunkel - The Sound of Silence

7th: The Beach Boys - Kokomo

8th: Mother Mother - Burning Pile

9th: Kermit the Frog - The Rainbow Connection

10th: Lemon Demon - The Ocean

11th: Queen - Fat Bottomed Girls

12th: Miracle Musical - Stranded Lullaby

13th: Ween - Cold & Wet

14th: Tom Lehrer - The Masochism Tango

15th: Dead or Alive - You Spin Me Round

16th: The Clash - Should I Stay or Should I Go? 
17th: Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants to Rule the World

18th: Kraftwerk - Computer Love

19th: Samuel E. Wright - Under the Sea

20th: Crush 40 -  I Am...All of Me

21st: Lemon Demon - Aurora Borealis

22nd: The Strokes - Last Nite

23rd: The Scary Jokes - Admire the Architecture

24th: Toby Fox - Snowy

25th: Tally Hall - Good Day

26th: The Residents - Moisture

27th: Novos Baianos - Tinindo trincado

28th: Childish Gambino - Freaks & Geeks

29th: Radiohead - Exit Music (For a Film)

30th: Toto - Africa

31st: My Chemical Romance - Helena

SONGS OF THE MONTHS

January: Nirvana - Love Buzz

February: The Doors - The Crystal Ship

March: LCD Soundsystem - Dance Yrself Clean

April: Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse of the Heart

May: Lin-Manuel Miranda - My Shot

June: My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade

July: My Chemical Romance - You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us In Prison

August: King Gizzard - Sleep Drifter

September: Lillian Castillo - Sugar Cloud

October: Inanimate Insanity - Afterlife in the Limelight

November: Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out

December: Mother Mother - Burning Pile

SONG OF THE YEAR

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE - WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE! (June 1st)

So. I had a lot of fun this year I guess, but it was still kinda just miserable. Here's to hoping 2025 is better... despite it not looking very good. I'm crushing again, maybe I'll have luck there. Classes start back in three weeks. Fingers crossed. 

Song of the Day: My Chemical Romance - Helena 🩸

2024, so long and goodnight.

21 days until classes start. 

Nora's Community Season 2 Ranking

December 30th 2024

Easily the best season of the show, and I finally finished it again. So here we go. Ranking every episode.

1. Conspiracy Theories & Interior Design

2. Cooperative Calligraphy

3. For a Few Paintballs More

4. Fistful of Paintballs

5. Abed's Uncontrollable Christmas

6. Mixology Certification

7. Advanced Dungeons & Dragons

8. Celebrity Pharmacology

9. Aerodynamics of Gender

10. Early 21st Century Romanticism

11. Applied Anthropology and Culinary Arts

12. Messianic Myths and Ancient Peoples

13. Intermediate Documentary Filmmaking

14. Intro to Political Science

15. Critical Film Studies

16. Paradigms of Human Memory

17. Asian Population Studies

18. Epidemiology 

19. Basic Rocket Science

20. Anthropology 101

21. The Psychology of Letting Go

22. Competitive Wine Tasting

23. Accounting For Lawyers

24. Custody Law & Eastern European Diplomacy

Song of the Day: Toto - Africa 🌊

Shoutout to Betty White

22 days until classes start

Media Log - December 30th:

395. Community Season 2 📺

RIP Jimmy Carter

December 29th 2024

REST IN PEACE TO 39TH US PRESIDENT JAMES EARL CARTER.

both James Earl Carter and James Earl Jones died this year. Huh... I'm glad Carter made it to 100 at least, it does make me sad because out of every president we've had he was probably the best as a person. If any US President is in Heaven, it's him. RIP.

Song of the Day: Radiohead - Exit Music (For a Film) ⏳

my head hurts

23 days until classes start again

Media Log - December 29th

394. Radiohead - OK Computer 💽

Nora's Community Season 1 Ranking ^_^

December 28th 2024

I just finished season 1 of Community for the third time, so I'm gonna rank every episode. Although it's worth noting there are no bad episodes of Season 1, in fact I'd go as far as to say that even the worst episodes are still good to some capacity. Without further adieu...

1. Environmental Science

2. Physical Education

3. Modern Warfare

4. Contemporary American Poultry

5. Comparative Religion

6. Introduction to Statistics

7. The Science of Illusion

8. English as a Second Language

9. Basic Genealogy

10. Social Psychology

11. The Art of Discourse

12. Introduction to Film

13. Football, Feminism, & You

14. Beginner Pottery

15. The Politics of Human Sexuality

16. Interpretive Dance

17. Home Economics

18. Spanish 101

19. Debate 109

20. Advanced Criminal Law

21. Pilot

22. Investigative Journalism

23. Pascal's Triangle Revisited

24. Communication Studies

25. Romantic Expressionism

Song of the Day: Childish Gambino - Freaks & Geeks 👻 

He was always goated with the sauce

24 days something 

Media Log - December 28th

393. Community Season 1 📺

Six Seasons and a Movie!

December 27th 2024

I changed the names of all my blog posts, and I gave them actual titles. I think this makes things look a little better. Also, I'm not putting the whole "Dear Diary" thing on these posts anymore. I've been playing Sparking Zero a little bit, Specifically the Gohan story. Goku's story is decent but the boss fight is difficult. You know the one if you've played it. I'm just trying to unlock my girl Videl soooo what can ya do about it? I listened to this pretty cool Brazilian album too and it's pretty fire I guess. I've also been rewatching Community maybe I'll actually finish it this time, Season 2 is the best season of television and I could go on a rant about that but I don't think anyone wants to hear it. 

The first three seasons were great, 4 and 5 were ehhh... I personally wasn't a fan of the later seasons. Season 5 suffered without Donald Glover if you ask me, but I get it, his music career was popping off. I know some people aren't a fan of Childish Gambino's music but me personally that shit hits hard to me. Also his acting credits are pretty impressive nowadays too. He's in Spiderverse, one of the MCU Spiderman movies, The Han Solo spinoff Star Wars movie, and he voices Simba in the pretty terrible Lion King live action remake. It's a shame that movie was so terrible because Donald Glover is an amazing actor. 

Song of the Day: Novos Baianos - Tinindo trincado ⚡

I like this album a lot :D

25 days until classes start.

Media Log - December 27th:

392. Novos Baianos - Acabou chorare 💽

White Dove Sailor explained.

December 26th 2024

Let me set the stage.

December 26th 1924, 21st birthday of a Fiona Blackthorne. A young Scottish woman with two loves: Christianity and the ocean. She finds herself developing a third love, Another woman she meets during her time in Vietnam. Of course, this goes against the beliefs of everyone else in her life. There's a lot more but I don't really wanna spoil anything yet, something like this has also probably been done before so I might actually alter the plot a bit. I don't know how to feel about this. Also her mother is a tailor, if you even care, and so are her sisters. But she wanted something greater for herself, exploring the world. I'm not explaining it very well because I'm really tired. I'll figure out everything, I just need a minute. White Dove Sailor. 

Song of the Day: The Residents - Moisture 🌊

I love the commercial album. ^_^

Sigh.

Media Log - December 26th:

389. Home Alone (1990) 🎥

390. Tombstone (1993) 🎥

391. history of the entire world, i guess (2017) 🎥

Christmas Means it Was Christmas!

December 25th 2024

I got to see my brothers today! Christmas was cool, I got a lotta cool stuff but I'll show off my actual haul in a couple weeks, I've got a few things still on the way.

Here's my haul:

- Scarab Beetle Ring

- Super Mario Party Jamboree 

- Dragon Ball Sparking Zero

- Brat CD (Charli XCX)

- Flood CD (They Might Be Giants)

- Chiaki Nanami Cat Plushie 

- Beneath the Surface by Ivy Hope

- Amour, Armageddon by Maggie Jewell

- Some cute n cool clothes 

- Some money that I'm still figuring out what to spend on 

- and time with my family! :3

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Song of the Day: Tally Hall - Good Day 🪲

Not a huge fan of this band anymore, but they got some good songs.

Tomorrow...?

Media Log - December 25th:

385. Elf (2003) 🎥

386. The Muppets (2011) 🎥

387. A Charlie Brown Christmas (1965) 🎥

388. It's Christmastime Again, Charlie Brown (1992) 🎥

Someone Isn't Happy About Turning 5!

December 24th 2024

Happy 5th birthday Nermal. You're my angel and I love you. Merry Christmas Eve. I wanna be held so bad fuuuuuuuck. Also, I listened to the entire Undertale soundtrack this morning. It's kinda... amazing? I want to play the game again, I never finished it. Also Deltarune Chapter 3 and 4 are releasing next year, probably. I thought it would come out this year to keep the 3 year pattern but it's cool I don't really care and I'm happy to see what Toby Fox is going to give us next year. I think Deltarune has pretty good writing, it's a lot better than Undertale's. 

Song of the Day: Toby Fox - Snowy ❄️

I think it's a little fitting. Wouldn't you agree?

Media Log - December 24th 

383. Toby Fox - UNDERTALE Soundtrack 💽

384. Tarzan (1999) 🎥

Last Termina Ranking of the Year

December 23rd 2024

Dear Diary,

Should I stop starting these with "Dear Diary?" it's not really a diary, I don't think diaries are supposed to be public, it's moreso a journal. I like calling it a diary though, I don't even know anymore. It's whatever, I'm trying to be silly. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and Nermal's 5th birthday. Oh, anyways. Coco is an amazing movie, I watched it in 7th grade during an off-day in math class. Also lets cap this off with one final Termina contestant ranking for this year.

1. Olivia (she's ADORABLE and I love her)

2. Pav (I could go on about why he's an amazing character)

3. Marina (She just like me fr, even if I don't know how to feel about how she's written as trans rep.)

4. August (Goated character, I even named my pet bearded dragon after him.)

5. O'saa (La danse macabre!)

6. Daan (His entire character is so tragic and I think that's why I like him so much)

7. Marcoh (JoJo's Bizarre Adventure character. Also he's a goated playable character.)

8. Abella (While there isn't as much to her as the other characters, she's pretty and I fw her)

9. Samarie (she's pretty but holy shit does she have some issues)

10. Levi (I fw him but there's not much to him that appeals to me)

11. Karin (I like her but she's a little mean)

12. Henryk (I like him but ehhhh idk)

13. Tanaka (I like him but he dies too easily)

14. Caligura (FUCK YOU)

Song of the Day: The Scary Jokes - Admire the Architecture ☘️

me and who

Media Log - December 23rd:

382. Coco (2017) 🎥

We need to talk.

December 22nd 2024

Dear Diary,

I love blinkies! I'm too sleepy to share any on here but I've been obsessed with blinkies and trying to put some on my silly lil carrd website. I need to go to sleep soon. How about you blinkie yourself a job, Eleanor? I'm not ready for this year to be over, Christmas is awesome but it makes me realize how soon this year is coming to a close. I think this year was important and eye opening for me. I've changed a lot and done a lot and I'm kinda proud of myself??? I tried to make things right, at least. Damn.

Sorry, let me get to my point here. Let's talk about the White Dove Sailor project. I am unfortunately deciding to delay it, December 26th I'll give you some information on it, but it's not gonna be like the whole first chapter. I'm still working on it. I don't know what I'm doing to be honest. I've been conceptualizing and writing this since like... March? It was after uhh... the stuff with Jordi. Now that we're no longer together I have a weird relationship with this little project of mine. I kinda started writing it for her?? but idk. this sucks. 

Song of the Day: The Strokes - Last Nite 🩸

repost if you love "The Strokin" it . and by it I mean well lets just say my room on fire.

4 days until uhh things.

Media Log - December 22nd:

381. Tom Lehrer - More Of Tom Lehrer 💽

pavilion fungus day

December 21st 2024

Dear Diary,

Happy Birthday to the silly morally questionable bisexual king Pavel Yudin from Funger 2. So I've been playing Fear & Hunger 2 again and Pav is definitely tied for my favorite with Olivia. This mod I've been playing is kinda goated it adds every contestant as playable characters they finally added Caligura which I don't care Caligura is an opp but it's cool that everyone is playable now. ALSO THE DATING SIM MODE!!!!! I tried it out a bit I played as Pav and ended up with Henryk lmfao. Caligura isn't in that one which like.... honestly thats a good thing. 

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - Aurora Borealis ❄️

I am becone... chrims

5 days tbh might reschedule 

SHADOW MOVIE

December 20th 2024

Dear Diary,

I have not seen any of the Sonic movies yet, but I think Shadow finally getting his big screen debut is super cool!!! I've always been a huge fan of Shadow the Hedgehog so this is pretty huge for me. I need to actually watch these movies now lol. They even got a Shadow the Hedgehog build a bear. Oh yeah, speaking of!! My fennec fox build a bear arrived the other day. Her name is Kokomo! She's dressed in a red sox uniform and pink glasses and has a Gandalf voice box because Gandalf is a type of Gollum. They're taking the homeboys to laser tag!

Song of the Day: Crush 40 - I Am...All of Me ☁️

Shadow you will always be famous

6 days?

Just a week away!

December 19th 2024

Dear Diary,

Christmas is less than a week away, and Boxing Day IS a week away. Don't expect much special, I would've had more done by now if I hadn't have been so lazy but I don't know. I've got mixed feelings on this project just a little bit anyway, I love stuff like this but I started coming up with it for a certain person in my life and...yeah. Anyways, I updated my phone to iOS 18! Might've been my first time updating this damn thing since I got it. These new features are... interesting for sure but I'll get used to them.

On the bright side there's now an offline journal app that I can write these in and publish them when I feel like it, so that's what I'm gonna do. Sorry, losers! ;P

(I'm kidding I love you guys)

Song of the Day: Samuel E. Wright - Under the Sea 🌊

Lowkey where my whole ocean obsession started. It's not really an obsession but moreso an on and off thing that comes up every now and then. 

JUST A WEEK AWAY! :P

Media Log - December 19th:

377. Modjo - Modjo 💽

378. King Gizzard - L.W. 💽

379. The Wedding Present - George Best 💽

380. The Little Mermaid (1989) 🎥

Websites 💻🤔

December 18th 2024

Dear Diary,

A certain someone has begun to update her carrd... it's still in progress but I think I'm almost done. 

I added some "Future Planned" contact links, They are as follows:

ArchiveOfOurOwn 

BandCamp

CharacterHub

Discogs

Discord

E-Mail

GitHub

GoodReads

Itch.io

Lulu

Miraheze

Neocities

Patreon

ProBoards

Reddit

Serializd

Tapas

TikTok

Tumblr

WorldAnvil

I already have accounts for a lot of these, but I don't feel like they are adequate enough to show off just yet. Just because something is on this list does not mean it is a guarantee that I will have a page for that website. I do have a few contact links on there already.

Instagram

BlueSky

SpaceHey

Last.fm

RateYourMusic

Letterboxd

Backloggd

YouTube

Twitch

Steam

Roblox

Throne

Song of the Day: Kraftwerk - Computer Love 👾

i love websites and computer 

8 days

Media Log: 

376. Fatima Al Qadiri - Asiatisch 💽

trying to be cool about it

December 17th 2024

Dear Diary,

i feel so sick after everything that's happened... im gonna try to be cool about it.

Song of the Day: Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants to Rule the World ⏳

NOTHING EVER LASTS FOREVER!!!

9 days

sory

December 16th 2024

Dear Diary,

sorry

not feeling it 

i love u guys

i dont know how to feel 

about any of this

im trying not to cry

Song of the Day: The Clash - Should I Stay or Should I Go? ⏳

stranger things or whatever

10 days

Media Log - December 16th

375. Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart - Requiem 💽

I'm Being Careful

December 15th 2024

Dear Diary,

I try not to get too personal on here because it never ends well even if this is a "public diary" type deal I'm just gonna be as normal  and silly as I can on here. I'm saving all the personal shit for my close friends story and posts on Instagram. ^_^ I feel like I'm going to be okay despite everything, I'm just a silly creature lady. I've been meaning to rewatch The Simpsons can't lie... also I need to actually delete my twitter I just reactivate it every once in a while to check something important. IDK what my deal is i'm sorry. :P

Song of the Day: Dead or Alive - You Spin Me Round 💘

hehe

11 days

This guy is my goat

December 14th 2024

Dear Diary,

I'm gonna start adding titles to my blog posts again and maybe go back and add titles to my old ones anyways this guy is my goat his name is Tom Lehrer and he's a satirical musician from the 50s and 60s, a Harvard alumni, he's associated with Needlejuice Records (Same label as Lemon Demon as well as many other favorite artists of mine!) He claims to have invented the Jell-O shot to circumvent an alcohol ban when he was in the navy, this isn't confirmed to be true but if it is that's awesome, also his music is amazing and his elements song helped me memorize most of the periodic table when I was like 7 or 8. He's still alive and in his 90s and he influenced some of my other favorite artists like Weird Al and probably Will Wood but idk about that one. He also apparently influenced Trey Parker and Matt Stone (the creators of South Park) In conclusion, Tom Lehrer is goated please check his music out if you're a fan of any of these artists:

- Will Wood

- The Dresden Dolls

- Weird Al

- Lemon Demon

- They Might Be Giants

- That Handsome Devil

- Self

- AJJ

or any similar artists tbh

Song of the Day: Tom Lehrer - The Masochism Tango  💘

REAL. 

uhhh 12 days bluh

I miss NLACakaNM

December 13th 2024

Dear Diary,

I feel like I've been a lot more productive than usual lately, failing math might've really humbled me. I still feel bad about a couple of things but life is too short to worry about little things, and I can't get upset over stupid shit. I started playing Endless War again. Hard to play when the game is so dead and I can't scavenge any slime so I have to resort to mining but whenever I have downtime to play I can't mine because I'm a rowdy and I can only mine during the day. Fuck my stupid slime bunnymothgirl life. !thrash

It's sad how dead the community is, a few of the Rowdy Ringleaders left. Makes me sad. I felt so accepted in the community and I was surprised how chill and accepting they are because I was expecting them to have edgy humor and shit. I believe this might've been 2022 when I first discovered RFCK? I think I bought a NLACakaNM Flag phone case and I still have it but it's pretty cracked because redbubble phone cases lowkey suck. It looked sick as hell though I love the NLACakaNM flag so much. Also I think it was some other website and not redbubble but either way th phone case was flimsy as hell lmfao. They have a NLACakaNM flag tapestry I might have to !invest. 

Song of the Day: Ween - Cold & Wet 🌊

me when im soggy cat.

13 soemthing days

Media Log - December 13th

372. They Might Be Giants - Flood 💽

373. Flunk - For Sleepyheads Only 💽

374. Ween - GodWeenSatan: The Oneness 💽

more homework

December 12th 2024

Dear Diary,

I miss the person I thought she was. I don't think she's a bad person, she treated me well, but she didn't want to consider my feelings a lot of times. She also said she felt like she was neglecting me and I don't think she was but she said she wanted to pay me more attention and she didn't make an effort too. I don't even know what I'm talking about, I hope she's doing well regardless. I hope she knows how much she hurt me. I wasn't all that great, but I tried my best to go above and beyond for her. I just feel sick. 

I have so much work to do today, I've got to ensure that I don't fail any other classes. Math is already done with, and I'm going to have to retake it either next semester or over the summer, and I can just switch it out with another class that I'll take in the summer. I'm thinking English II or Anthropology. The other 3 I would really not like to take over the summer, but it isn't up to me. Ultimately it comes down to what they're offering over the summer. I really fucked myself over. I really thought I wasn't going to fail math but I did. 

I really thought I had everything under control, despite the fact that I was really lazy when it came to my schoolwork! Not when it came to coming up with lore for my French forest elf farmer girl character who doesn't even know who Steve Urkel is. They ain't got Urkel in France I guess. Or Bohemian Rhapsody. Whatever, it is what it is. Like the Thundercat album. I think the English thing will be good if he grades my Gerald Ford essay. I really wish I got a better grade in that class, since y'know I'm planning to major in English, and I really enjoy writing. It's whatever, though. I missed quite a few assignments that I shouldn't have. 

I'm so thankful that my geography professor reopened all the quizzes and homework that I missed, I might get that class up to a B if I do a good job here. I can't do this shit next semester, I'm gonna lose my financial aid if I'm not careful. I'm gonna try and get all As going forward, it's definitely possible considering the fact that I've done it a couple semesters in the past. The classes I have next semester are things I think I could do well in, if I put in the work and try my hardest. I can do pretty well when I put my mind to things. 

That Marvel Rivals game looks really interesting. I'm especially a huge fan of Squirrel Girl. I already was a fan of the character, but her design in Marvel Rivals is awesome! She's my transition goals ngl... I don't think I fw Brawl Stars at the moment, especially because everyone's playing as Buzz Lightyear now and it's not fun when it's a one-brawler meta. So I'm gonna try out Marvel Rivals. They added Jeff but not Gwenpool... smh. At least Gwenpool is in Fortnite. Fortnite is another one I need to start playing again. Also I loveeee the Gwenpool skin in the game. They did my girl so well. 

Song of the Day: Miracle Musical - Stranded Lullaby 🌊

12 years since 12/12/12. 

14 days 

J’aurais aimé qu’il y ait Bohemian Rhapsody en France mais nous n’avons que des Fat Bottomed Girls

December 11th 2024

Dear Diary,

Day 1 of 42.

Gonna take a chill pill today, maybe finish a couple assignments and such. I don't know what I'm gonna do about the upcoming Discord server but I have some ideas, Glagglecord has factions, so I've been thinking about adding the factions from my lore, the name of the world I've decided will be... Lehperz! I plan on adding several roles for classes, elements, and factions over time, rather than all at once, just to make things more fun. The roles won't affect the experience of the server whatsoever, just cosmetic roles to make things more fun. I'd like to try to make an Endless War-Esque Text Based Discord MMO, but that might be a bit too much work for me at the moment, we'll see later down the line, though.

Song of the Day: Queen - Fat Bottomed Girls ⚡

J’aurais aimé qu’il y ait Bohemian Rhapsody en France mais nous n’avons que des Fat Bottomed Girls

15 days eh.

I failed.

December 10th 2024

Dear Diary,

I'm willing to admit that I didn't try hard enough this semester. I have self-awareness and I honestly can't blame my parents for thinking this is all talk, but I really think I have a plan. One that's going to work this time. I really shouldn't have prioritized my personal writing over school, I just believe I can find success in this field if I work on it hard enough. My worldbuilding is mediocre at best, though. It's just something I enjoy, probably something I could make a career out of if I try hard enough. I should've put school first. 

From an outsider perspective, I guess I could see how one may think I'm lazy. That's not the way I see it, though. I definitely should've focused on schoolwork first, that's for sure. Going forward I'll prioritize it first, that's a promise. However, I don't think I'm lazy. As stupid as it may seem, everything I do is for a reason. I have an end goal in mind here. I was mostly focusing on the schoolwork until I got sick in late September, then what was it? October I began working on my website, most of that was over Fall Break though, I think the website looks great right now! Although it is closed for renovations...

I had another identity crisis that was the result of several mental breakdowns I thankfully didn't write about or else I wouldn't be able to live with myself because god that shit is so embarrassing I need to go outside. There were also a few hyperfixations that took over my life, I really wish I knew how to deal with that because that has seriously taken a toll on my ability to focus and keep track of my assignments as embarrassing as it is to admit. It wasn't all for nothing though because... I may have written some fanfiction... Again, embarrassing to admit. Bluh. 

It wasn't just that, I got started on an essay about Bot from Inanimate Insanity and the parallels I see in their character with myself, it was a personal thing and I should've been focused on the mountain of unfinished math assignments I had, but it was just therapeutic for me to get my thoughts out there. I never finished this essay though and I don't think I will because it's embarrassing. I've been trying to keep my brain under control and avoiding getting wrapped up in stupid shit that doesn't matter. I think I finally have a plan that just might work in order to get myself in the right state of mind, and I'd like to try it out over this break. 

Speaking of, I think I even got hyperfixated on organizing stuff at one point. I cleaned out my camera roll a couple months ago, I went from 60,000 photos to only like 2,000. I organized my notes app, and deleted a lot of unnecessary things. I worked a little bit on cleaning my room, but most days I didn't feel like getting out of bed, I think it might've been that I've been taking the medicine irregularly. I'm taking it regularly now and getting a good night's rest, so I think I might be more motivated and focused! I'm confident. 

I did some research on cryptozoology and stuff like that, I know I should've been focused more on school and I can beat myself up for it all I want but nothing's gonna change unless I decide I want to, which I really do care now, I've felt the effects of this so much, not only from my parents being disappointed in me but I can barely look at myself in the mirror because of how mad I am at myself for doing this, All I can do now is work harder the next seven semesters of my college career. 

I was just really interested in this stuff, I wanted to learn as much as I can about cryptids because I was looking for inspiration for my worldbuilding? It's stupid. I found inspiration for my worldbuilding from inside jokes in my group chat too. Why do you think scarabs have such a prevalence in my lore? I'm sorry, this is all so stupid. I should've been focused on school, I really think this silly little garbage could seriously amount to something, though. I've been working on this silly little "MeadowHeart" thing since I was real little. I guess that's what I'm calling it now, MeadowHeart. 

For starters, there's the caracal god Aqua. God, Goddess, whatever. They're genderfluid, like Loki! Anyways, they're a caracal and you guessed it, the god of the ocean. Aqua isn't a creative name for an ocean god whatsoever and that's partially the reason I thought it would be funny. There's also their human adoptive daughter Harmony who speaks with the ghosts of those who have drowned or been lost at sea, there's also Claudia which isn't their daughter but the daughter of the Neposodi family whom they have been tasked with overseeing. She can read minds and see into the future, mainly how people will die. I know a lot of people will probably find this whole thing lame stupid and boring but I'm not doing it for them I'm doing it for me. 

Y'know, it's good that I have this project that I've been working on for this long. It's something I enjoy working on a lot and it's a creative outlet that I feel is truly a look into my mind, but school does come first. I think I could get somewhere with this, if I really put blood sweat tears heart and effort into it, but I need to be putting twice the blood sweat tears heart and effort into getting my degree, then I can worry about this. This whole project of mine has taken over my life, but I think I've come up with a plan and a time management system that can put me in the right headspace and get my priorities in check. It's hard to explain, it only makes sense to me, but I really think it could work. I want to try it out over break. 

I guess what I'm trying to say here is I'm not as lazy as I probably seem, my motivations and priorities are just in the wrong place. I tried teaching myself to draw the other day, I should've been studying though. I feel pretty guilty about that, I probably could've scored higher on the exam. I just think it would help contribute to this passion project of mine that I could turn into something special if I put my mind to it, but school comes first. Failing this math class was a humbling experience for me, and I'm working on a plan to ensure it doesn't happen again, but it might not be 100% foolproof. We'll have to see, though. 

This stupid little passion project of mine has to go on the backburner, as well as everything else that isn't schoolwork, but I don't need to abandon it entirely. I can't afford to stay depressed, I have to make time for everything in my life, or else I'll relapse and be back in this situation again. That's just how I am. I'm gonna publish this post now, and I usually don't show my mom these but I'm gonna show her this one just so she can get a better understanding of the way my mind works, and she doesn't just think I'm a lazy disappointment. Or maybe I'll still just be a lazy loser to them. I can't make them believe me, I can only tell them the truth. 

Song of the Day: Lemon Demon - The Ocean 🌊

I wrote 600 words of my stupid pirate novel today.

16 days until I show that off

MEDIA LOG - DECEMBER 10TH:

371. Geordie Greep - The New Sound 💽

The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

December 9th 2024

Dear Diary,

Didn't have a geography exam today, turns out it's online. I've been studying for the final exam in math today though. I didn't have a music final, I think I did pretty well on the college preparedness final, and I did... decent on the history final, let's just say that. Tomorrow is my math exam, and I'm honestly really nervous for that one. I did the English final today and I think I did pretty well on that one too! I'm nervous about math, I need to do really well or else I'll fail the whole class and have to take it again. Really bad situation I put myself in here.  

Song of the Day: Kermit the Frog - The Rainbow Connection ☁️

I've always loved this song, even as a kid. Kermit the Frog was my personal hero in Kindergarten.

17 days

Unbelievable

December 8th 2024

Dear Diary,

Laughing at myself for trying so hard for you.

Not seeing the warning signs. 

You had me wrapped around your finger

I'm done, though. 

I'm tired of worrying about you

When you were just a figment of my imagination

To hide your true colors

You're not my problem anymore.

I wish you the best, regardless. 

Song of the Day: Mother Mother - Burning Pile 🔥

Thinking of what to do with all the letters and drawings you gave me.

18 days.

I built him a shed.

December 7th 2024

Dear Diary,

I thought I knew her. Turns out she was putting on an act. Whatever, I can't deal with this shit anymore. I need to go to Kokomo. Putting the $200 I was spending on her Christmas towards a camel, and buying MYSELF the Build a Bear Fennec Fox. My friend Claire told her to get it for me for Christmas, but now she wants me to get it for myself instead after what happened today. 

Song of the Day: The Beach Boys - Kokomo 🌊

I AM THIS HIGH IN DEBT, THEY'RE GONNA SAW OFF MY FINGERS! I NEED TO DO MY TAXES.

19 days. 

We broke up?

December 6th 2024

Dear Diary,

Jordi and I are no longer together. Don't worry, we're still on good terms. We still love each other. We just both decided that this isn't right for us. College has been overwhelming, and she lives really far away and it's just difficult. Doesn't mean we can't still be friends though, right? I'm a little sad about it, and this outcome has hurt both of us. Ultimately, it's what's right. Who knows, maybe sometime in the future once I get my shit together we could get back together, but even if we don't that's cool too!!! Life just throws ya for a loop...

It's been hard to study for my exams thinking about this, but I know I need to stop thinking about it and just lock the fuck in and work hard so I can pass all of my classes. Music, History, and College Preparedness are done, and I did pretty well on them. It's Math I worry about. Geography and English might be tough too, but nothing I can't handle. I'm worried I might fail math. I remember I was taking these two medicines that helped really well back in sophomore year, had a semester of all As when I was on Vyvanse and Trazodone. It was causing me some problems so I stopped taking them.

Song of the Day: Simon & Garfunkel - The Sound of Silence ☁️

Such an incredibly beautiful song. Love these guys.

20 days

Memoir

December 5th 2024

Dear Diary,

THIS IS AN ASSIGNMENT FOR ENGLISH CLASS

I think it's safe to say that we as humans can all recall one day, one specific day in our lives where we didn't know it at the time, but after that day things would never be the same. For me, this was Halloween 2019. I was 13 years old, and I felt like I was "too cool" to dress up or go trick or treating or anything like that. Not to mention, the costume I picked out last year was uncomfortable. You know those "wacky inflatable tube men" they have outside businesses and other places to grab your attention? I thought it would be really funny to go as one of those. Once I tried the costume on it was really uncomfortable and after that I didn't really like dressing up for Halloween anymore. But this isn't a story about Halloween. 

Despite me not traditionally celebrating the holiday anymore, Halloween 2019 was one year after the tube man incident and I still had a fun day regardless. I hung out with friends and celebrated the spooky season in my own little way. I had recently discovered a band by the name of Oingo Boingo, I was already big into Lemon Demon so it's no surprise that I was instantly hooked on this other band with an admittedly silly name. A tradition of mine that I would start after discovering this band would be to listen to their 1985 album "Dead Man's Party" which fits the Halloween aesthetic more than any other album I can think of. I unfortunately was too busy to do it on Halloween 2024, and I'm kinda sad about that. 

The Halloween of 2019 was an amazing day, even if I didn't properly celebrate. What I didn't know was that after this day, my life and the lives of many of the people whom I'm closest to would change forever. When I went to bed that night, I had an unusual dream. I hardly ever remember my dreams, I tend to forget them after waking up. This one stuck out to me like a sore thumb, however. To set the stage, my mother was driving me somewhere, I forget the intended destination. She was on edge about something and was driving rather recklessly, I kept telling her to be careful but she wouldn't listen. Eventually she would crash into a building and kill us both.

I woke up experiencing several emotions at once. Confusion, panic, fear, hopelessness. This dream had terrified me to my very core.   Regardless, I kept my head up and ensured myself that it was going to be a good day, and I had nothing to worry about. School was about as normal as any school day would go. I did well in my history class. Tried participating in band class, but gave up because the clarinet hurt my mouth too much with my braces and all. Probably played dodgeball or something in gym class. My science teacher still couldn't find the work I turned in and put in missing grades as such. Math was difficult because I'm so bad at math it's concerning, and English class was... well, English class. I could write a whole essay about the insane things that went down in that class. The point is, I had a very normal school day. Almost sickening how normal it was. It wouldn't be until I got home that I would receive the worst possible news that I could've. 

My mom was diagnosed with cancer. She was acting strange around me lately, repeatedly saying things like "If anything happens to me just know I'm here for you in spirit." Whenever I asked what was wrong she told me not to worry about it. I knew something was wrong, but I never could've expected this. The disease ran in our family, so I probably should've been prepared for something like this to happen, and it always scared me that me or someone I love would fall victim to it, but I didn't think it would be her, and definitely not this soon. 

Thankfully, she recovered. She is still with us. It was a long and agonizing recovery, not just for her but our family and the people around her. Especially with the Covid-19 pandemic going on during her recovery. Many things in our lives have still continued to be affected by the tragedy, she now works from home instead of going into the center, and she even got an emotional support animal. A hairless cat named Scarlett, who might I add is the sweetest thing ever. My dad thought hairless cats were the ugliest things in the world, but when he met Scarlett he instantly fell in love. 

It's an awful thing to happen to my family, but it taught me two things early in life. The first is that human resilience is stronger than any illness or disease, my mom fought hard to stay alive for me, to see me graduate, to meet her future grandkids, she wasn't going to let cancer take her out. The second thing, and the point I was trying to make with the beginning here, is that you never know when life is going to throw you for a loop and permanently affect the way you live in a major way. That's why you have to enjoy what you have while you have it and live in the moment. Thanks for listening, this was pretty hard to write and I have more I'd like to say but I'm gonna stop it here. 

Song of the Day: Ween - Cold Blows the Wind ☁️

White Dove Sailor moment. 

21 days. 

Just gotta get through this next week

December 4th 2024

Dear Diary,

I didn't have geography class today so I got to go in a little late today. That's another final I've gotta study for. I have a good feeling about all of this I just need to lock in for one more week and I'm gonna do great. I think my last day might be on Tuesday but I'm unsure. I'm fairly certain... I got a lotta studying to do this weekend. I'm excited for the month-long break I get in between semesters because I'm gonna spend it working on myself a lot, I have been going through a lot and I'm finally learning how to deal with it.

Song of the Day: Phillipa Soo - The Schuyler Sisters 🏔️

Spotify Wrapped is so embarrassing, this was my top song. 

22 days. 

chickity china the chinese chicken

December 3rd 2024

Dear Diary,

Woke up real early for an appointment in regards to my medicine. I don't think anything needs to be changed if I just sleep properly and take it regularly. Which I took it today ^_^ so I'm doin well. Anyways, I think I did good on the exam. I hope and pray I did at least. I had to buy another calculator real quickly because mine was dead and I didnt have time to charge it. THAT WAS A NIGHTMARE!!!! UUUUUGH.... I really hope I don't fail any classes. Also today was my last day of music class, I'm really sad about that. I liked that class. She asked if anybody knew KMFDM today and I was like yeahhh I do. It's not often you hear your professor shoutout KMFDM like that so I was happy about that. 

Song of the Day: Barenaked Ladies - One Week 🍄

THIS LIFE AINT GOOD ENOUGH

its been
MY WORLD TO LIFT YOU UP
its been
MY LIFE TO BETTER SUIT YOUR MOOOD
CAUSE YOURE SO SMOOOTH

it's been

JUST LIKE THE OCEAN UNDER THE MOON

it's been 

SAME AS THE EMOTION THAT I GET FROM harrison ford

23 days

Learning

December 2nd 2024

Dear Diary,

Every day I am learning. I have admittedly been pretty lazy over these past few months, during this semester. I'm not proud of it, not one bit. I really put myself in a difficult situation that I'm not sure how I'm going to get myself out of. I'm probably going to fail my math class, That's really upsetting to me. I've always struggled with math, and I'm a hard worker when I put my mind to it but I haven't been doing good at all this semester, I'm not sure what my problem is. I'm going to figure it out and get it taken care of. I refuse to let myself fail any classes this semester. 

Song of the Day: Lipps. Inc - Funkytown 🎵

BELIAL

won't you take me to

BEHEMOTH

funky town!!

BEELZEBUB

won't you take me to

funky town!!

ASMODEUS

won't you take me to

SATANUS

funky town!!!

LUCIFER

won't you take me to

funky town!!!

24 days. 

Please be kind

December 1st 2024

Dear Diary,

Hello, December. May you be kind to me. I wanted to go visit my girlfriend next weekend but I realized that I probably won't be able to I have to study for finals. I'm finished with my History final. English and Geography shouldn't be too bad. I don't have a final for Music class. That math one is going to be rough though. I've had to study for my penultimate exam coming up on the third, that's got me a little nervous but I believe I'm going to be okay. It's a new era for Nora. A hopeful Nora. I just hope December will be kind to me. I've been struggling a lot lately. I have big plans for the end of this month, the day after Christmas actually. You'll see :)

Song of the Day: Jack Stauber - My Plea ☢️

I  need me some candy bars tbh...

25 days. ^_^ We're almost there....

Brawl Stars Unlocks:

35. Squeak

36. Carl